UNTITLED...i just lost a fren...i think

he got into a car accident
he died at the sidewalk

at the funeral
nobody came

funny

he's a famous chap
very famous

yup he got lots of 'frens'
thats for sure

but nobody came to his funeral



and i did

just because he 'used' to be my fren
used to

y?

he used to listen how the wind blows
he used to smell the cutting grass
he used to play in the rain
he used to walk bare feet
and let the seashores runs through his feet

he used to

but now he dont
at least he dont, no more

"oh...grow up aisyah...people change!'

this is what he shouted to me when i told him he'd changed

yup
he changed alright

RESPONSIBILITY

the one word
the reason he said he'd changed

funny....

he grew up alright

he become an educated fool
only to have money in his mind
get the latest gadget
buy the most expensive toys
wear the most branded things
eat the most luxurious food

and with this, he claim

he feel he's at 'home'



funny.....


i used to be his 'home'


he changed alright
and that whats keeping us apart


and when i came to his funeral
and bought along sunflowers
his mother cried
and said
"he used to love those..."

and may i remind you readers again
is the word 'used to...'










sit back and think...if you died, who would come to your funeral, who would actually cried or shed real tears for you...

*figures*

i know u'll be reading this,fren

dont get lost
just find your way back
back to your home
where ever it is

UNTITLED...a piece of advise 2

to those who wish to be love again

if you have skeletons in the closet
and cant share it with your partner
then she/he is not your better half

if you still have feelings towards your ex
and cant seem to shake it off
then she/he is not your soul mate

if you ask your partner to trust in you
but you still keep things behind her/his back
then she/he is not your wife/husband-to-be

if you tell her/him
that she/he is your everything
but you make plans on your own
then she/he is not the mother/father to your child

if you put her/him alongside your friends
not in your family
then she/him is not your heart

if you tell her/him that sometime
somewhere, you need time just for yourself
and dont want to be bothered
then she/him is not your love


i advise all
to share everything with your better half/love/partner
and when i say everything
means
EVERYTHING

it works for me
=)

from day 1,
i wanted to start a relationship with him
i told him the truth
and shared everything with him
no dark secrets

=)
and he love me for who i am

now tell me
isnt that just awesome
=)





I love you baby
as much as you love me too

and word just cant discribe how beautiful you are

=)

UNTITLED...a piece of advise

"i dunno what to do...i feel like...lost, u know, lost..."

"just sing..."

"huh?"

"just sing..."

*puzzled face*



this guy, my fren, never looses faith in me, i remember he was the ONLY, i repeat, the ONLY guy who, weirdly as it sounds, seem to know me better, in a way.

one time, i remember, i had to choose 2 things that shape my future. 99.9% of the people i ask for advise,went for 'road' A (even my ex) but this guy, he chooses 'road' B, which surprises me.
but of course, i went for A and at the end of the day, weirdly, i end up with B. and he was grinning at me with that 'see...i told you so' face.

another time, as i was attending a GIG with him with a couple of frens, i just stood quitely while enjoying the music. after the show, he came to me and just said 'so aisyah, i have seen them perform. When is your turn for me to see u up there?' i was stunned,at that moment actually i was imagining myself rocking the stage. weird.

and recently, i came and visit him again

and yup, i see him just to 'luahkan' my heart on certain issues that, to me, in a way, he can aswer cause it seems he knows me better

and he just said 'sing...'

and sing it shall be

thank you

*aisyah looking at her homework*













oh ya, i just wrote a song

its called 'amy lie to me'

and it goes like:


dear amy, dear amy
my best fren, my one and only true fren
we had a fight
says that one day i might
find a boyfren
and i will forget about my own amy fren


dear amy, dear amy
you claim i would
you said i could
be off on my way
leaving you alone for a day
when i found my own baby
for him, only i will stay

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dearly amy
it seems its true
what u said is true
that a boy will come
and tear us apart

dear amy, my beautiful amy,
u left me here,
alone, with your own fear
he found you, you found your deal
yes, you left me still

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dear amy
i'm still here
i'm still here




and he says i should be making boys cried thier eyes out for me

*aisyah writes inside her bucket list*

12.make boys cry with my 'homework'.

roger doger!

UNTITLED...i refuse to back down

if you have seen a girl

walking in the rain

sometimes skipping

and then dancing

while nodding her head

and her hand spreads wide

then you'd say to yourself

'gila punya budak...'

or

'ape hal pulak budak ni...'

right?


but did u notice the soaking wet headphone that warps her head

with her smiles
and her eyes filled with life


then maybe you'd understand

=)







yesterday,
as i walked trillion steps away from the cafe, i notice that,there wasnt any umbrella in my hand
looking at the rain
i said '...bantai...'
so i walked

and at that right moment
the right time

this song was playing

Rain-Mika


















imagine how i dance in the rain


and how i felt alive
=)

When you made it rain...
You made it rain...

try it...i recommend you....play under the soft soaking rain, with this song....u'll be tip-toe'ing....kalah high school musical....hohoho...


A.L.I.V.E!!!

UNTITLED....a bebel dinner

my lil brother came and visit me today
bukak posa sama-sama
its been long since we had a talk
the last time we've meet was i think was about 2 month ago

he looked at me in sadness
and said

'i dunt think i'm goin to be with _______'
?
'i use to like her so much, but now, after she turned me down, i just cant. and i've tried, so badly, and its been months already'

i look at him and just said nothing

he continues to tell how the relationship was at the peak, how he confess his feeling towards her, but only to be crashing down the hill in the end

and the thing was, he did a 'thing' which was suppose to make a girl go '...auwww, that is so scweeeettttt...'

the story goes

it was his birthday
she was admitted in hospital to undergo an operation the next day
he wanted to come and visit her, they planned to celebrate it, although in was inside the hospital itself
he came to his car, only to find that he has a flat tyre
he calls her up, saying that judging from that, they have to change plans
there were only silence at the end of the phone
he knows that she was sad

and what he did
he walked to the nearest shopping mall
literally, he walked

he walked to the curve
bought a teddy bear and cake
took a cab to the nearest lrt station
got in the train
off at the platform
into a cab again
and arrive at the hospital, 4 hours later

she was surprise
her frens was stunned
the teddy bear was hanging out of his bag pack
gave it to her
eat the cake together
usap her forehead
and tuck her into bed

when this was happening,
he soooooo wanted to confess his feelings towards her
but he felt that this wasnt the right moment
she's in pain, and he's afraid that if he said something
might pulled her down

but he got everything planned already

'when its over, there's a card inside the box for you. dont read it now, and dont read it in front of your frens.....read it when you are really free'

he waited patiently
maybe for a text or call

and days goes by, in silence

ring-ring
=)

she said that she read the card, only after she was dismiss from the hospital, at the comfort of her home

and then she explain

=(

'and that is why i dont think i'm going to be with her no more....'

hmmm....i didnt say much

i was like....*speechless*

i didnt feel anything though

no sadness for him,
no angry for her

i was just plain listening


'but guess what, now _______ (his ex of 6 years ago) and me, maybe, are going back together...'


-__-"

now i know why i was immune to love stories.....

cinta adalah satu nikmat
dimana manusia perlu beringat
bukan untuk dijual
mahupun untuk dikhianat

sayang sama sekali manusia sekarang bosan semua
tak tahu makna,
tak tahu harga,
lalu akhirnya,
buta cinta

for those who deny your love, you're just stupid
for those who dunno your love,
lets just says you're a moron



me?
i'm still in love
even though there's nothing left for me on the other side

now thats plain naive

watodo...hohohoo...

cant blame me for being 'me' rite?

UNTITLED...if you're aint got 'soul', really.....u aint got nothin

'babe, i wanna ask u one question'
'yup, waddup?'
'how u sound like that huh?'
? *me, giving the confuse look*
'i mean,how u sound like 'that'?'
'like what?'
'u know...like u got that 'vibe'
'u mean...like soul, like that ka?'
'kot...dunno, i dunno how to describe it, maybe its the tone of your voice kot'
'well...everybody got tone....'
'yup i know, but some people got that 'thing'....u know, that magnet vibe sort of thing'
'i think what u mean is 'soul'
'soul'?
'yup, soul'


and i started giving my opinions to him



i actually dunno how to explain it,
but seriously, u can feel the 'soul' in certain people, and music

and to me,
honestly speaking

people who got soul usually because of their history/background
they channel their emotion through music

whether its soul, r&b, hard core metal, or jazz

when a singer sings
a musician plays
and a song are made,

as long as it got that 'thing' i called 'soul'

believe me, it is soul



educate yourself on songs and its history
read up about your favourite singer, what makes them, them

that is what i do

*aisyah reads?*

yup, autobiography books
and also google it up =P


like i always say
"if you aint got soul, u aint got soul honey"





p/s: this also applies on poetry, aight?

UNTITLED...a lil boy with boobs

yes boobs
why to i mention boobs?
well,
yesterday, when i was lepaking with my frens
one statement came out
'but seriously, u look like a boy with boobs...'

-_-"

and this is coming from a girl

-_-"

last week, i remember my sis told me this

'if u take away the boobs, seriously, u look like a boy'

-_-"

fine....
i cut my hair short....
but its also in the way i dress

these statement comes when i dress up in sneakers, bermuda shorts, casual attires...
i even got a statement from a fren's aunt who think that i'm 'a nice lil boy'

-_-"

this is my third time i cut my hair short

and fine,
i do act like a boy sometimes,
cant blame me growing with my brothers

and yes
it all depends on the way i style my hair,
and also what i wear

i got 6 month ahead to grow back my hair 6 inches more

in the meantime
this lil boy with boobs is having her fun, here and there

p/s:btw: the boobs are small, the illusion of bra's make it big =P


*why am i talking about boobs again?*

plus, i do wear skirts,dress,heels and make-up occasionally, ok.

hohohohohoohho....

=P

oh ya....one day, if i get the chance, and my timing is right, i would love to do a mohawk...
it will scare the hell out of my mom
and make my granma duku my head more

hohohohoho......

UNTITLED...3 lil midgets i hate the most

Dear lil miss copy cat

be yourself
dont 'potostat' me
its ok to admire
but never try to be me
or to be something that you're not

remember, what makes me, is me
and what makes you, is you

you choose


and stop fucking curik my ideas and opinions
its bound to be heard by someone close to me
dunia ni kecik, pusing balik, kat situ gak

so,
be yourself
or else
just credit/acknowledged/mention the people that you copy
aight?





Dear lil mr irritating,

must everything i do,say, go, walk, talk,sleep
you'll be a part of it?

sh*t, we're just frens
ok...nothing more

stop f*cking pushing my buttons
by 'muncul' tetiba n rapat to all my frens
the worst part
you're already a pain in the *ss to my frens
and your pushing your luck by harassing me more

i can be miss nice
but seriously,
for your case,
i can be nasty
aight?





Dear mr 'once upon a time' used to be my fren

as you like to buang your frens
as you like to built bricks around you
as you like to run and hide
as you like to sorok and bleed your bottomless heart out

go die alone

you're pathetic, seriously

bleed till you realise there's no more blood left
aight?





people who doesnt appreciates their surroundings, tend to do stupid stuff

problem is,
they're my frens


why do i even bother?


my advice to them

eat sugar and die







stupid f*ckers

UNTITLED.....kawanku yg sedikit luluh semangatnya

when a passion becomes a gift
and when too much of it becomes a curse
does it have a saying, that we should let it go
and let it out,and let it burst

it is only because we choose it,
we,
the ones who owns it

surviving, signals winning
giving up, signals loosing

gambate dear friend
never give up, never give in
aight?
=)

UNTITLED...its just a crush, believe me, u'll get over it

satu tangan masuk
dua kaki pergi
satu hati lingkup
mata hati lari

kalau kamu jatuh cinta pada aku,
silap kamu
kalau aku buat kamu jatuh cinta pada ku,
silap aku

jangan salah faham
jangan mungkir janji
kerna selepas malam akhir nanti
belum tentu hati aku kau memiliki

hati kamu, tandang bersahut,
hati aku, tak mungkin hanyut.

maaf

UNTITLED....again, u called

i know u'll be reading this, so here goes...

today u called
2 times missed
and the 3rd i picked
the number was so foreign
foreign enough that i know it wasnt form malaysia
and surprisingly, u were at the end of the line
last nite, u sms me
today u called
last 3 days we talked
last week u visit
last month u pop

the question that was playing in my head
was why
why u bother?
i mean, why now?
back then
it used to matter
used to
and now, it dunt

remember those time when we used to be together
when dirt seems to be snow
when grey rain seems to be blue skies
when we thought we would grow old
together
forever

well now its your turn to cry

and i will sit at the corner
and watch u cry

revenge is never the ultimate
but damn it sure nice to feel it now...

i'm not ur gal, u used to know
i've changed
and i thank God i did
and i never regret it
not once...
not even an ounce...

p/s: take my advise...be a man, cos i think u'll never will.

UNTITLED...words of adVICE

dear friend,
when the one u love doesnt appreciate u
he went behind u back
tell u lies
comes to u only when he's sad

what the fuck u want me to say?

i ask u this...
when was the last time he said u're beautiful?

....
....

see...
u cant even recall the last time he said that to u

now
i say this to you

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL...

go to hell if he brings u down
i'm here, i'll stay by ur side

if he goes around looking for other women
we'll make him bow down
where's the luscious, beautiful, h.o.tt girl i once knew

its pay back time,
but of course...
we have to fight it with style
wink-wink

xoxoxo
ur gurl frennn...