UNTITLED....things were different

such a pity
when i view my very dear friends evolve into something that i cant recognise no more


use to be one of the beautiful beings on earth
have a beautiful heart
and a beautiful soul


and somewhere along the journey on this earth

my friend change
into something
that i couldnt even comment
and saddens me when i think about it

well i can say,
partially it was my fault too
i had forgotten my promise

i had promise to my friend that we stayed friends

but i couldn't keep that promise
as we distance each other 4 feet away each hour




now,
its been a year since i meet my friend



and i miss that portion of life that i used to have



things was different back then
i know,
you can never forgive me
i know
cause i didnt kept my promise




i'm sorry


thing's changed
i changed



and you didnt kept your end of the bargain either


so hey,
we're even


i guess


i'm happy as i see that you're doing fine
very fine
you had achive some of your dreams
and live your life now, according to what you want

i'm happy that you're happy now

and i wish you all the best

thus, please dont be sad as i didnt kept my promise
you should have known better that i did try
and i strive until it tear me apart
where else you seem to be happy, living the life you always wanted


and now i'm happy
and yes, again, i'd tell ya
i've changed
i am happy

so as a friend, please respect it
as i have respect you left me here to bleed
and kept a promise that never meant anything to u in the 1st place

so if you are my true friend
leave me as it is
and let me shine brightly
i have found the man of my dreams


and you left me to pursue yours

wish you all the best in life
and pray you'll find the happiness you've always wanted

Amin.

UNTITLED....sebelum semua kahwin

*not to forget, lovely Ann, who's not in this picture*

its hard to find a group of frens who stayed together
i've meet them when i was 13
and i left the school at 14

one evening
a school reunion brought us back together again
i have to thank dipie for forcing me to go to the reunion
back in 1998 (if i'm not mistaken)

cos if she didnt do so

i wouldnt be in this family

i love my soul sisters

class bakti rawks!

=D

UNTITLED...u readers out there

i am quite surprise who actually reads my blog
ya
i mean, i dont really expect people to read this
but you know
if people, my friends, were to come up to me and told me that they read my blog
i'll be like
'my God, why are u reading it...its nothing, its like, u know, stupid...dont read it'
me: being shy of what i wrote and what i think

but the answer that they would give it that

"u blog it...u post it up...obviously u want people to read...its there for a reason, its for people to read"

-_-"

kinda true also
i mean,
i post up things, just for the heck of it
for fun

so yeah
thanks
i really appreciate it

i mean
it surprises me a lot to know
or accidentally catch my friends who reads it

but yeah
thank you

=)

i guess u'll be reading this also

to who ever is out there....
I LAP YOU (in aisyah's term, she love and appriciate u readers out there)

Thanks =)

UNTITLED...blogger boy

i've read your blog again


and you have to stop reading mine


we have to stop what ever it is that we're doing right now


kapish?


*confuse*

tralalalala...

UNTITLED....baju melayu

'i dont have baju melayu'

*silence*





a good fren who just came back for raya.

om putih pun tahu pakai formal baju kot =P hang om melayu tak de baju melayu...

"u cant blame me for being 'out there' for 5 years, rite?"

yela yela, mr om putih









well i guess that would just do then

'but i got to see you in baju kurung, now...thats priceless'

-_-" chit...hampeh

i hate you =P



p/s: i know u gonna read this...so...here goes:

this post doesnt change anything. i still remember the stuff u did in the past, i've forgive, but never forget.
thank you for the time spent, coming back to your roots, eating durian and speaking in your mother tongue.
i was looking forward to see in baju melayu, but it seems that u spent the money more on football jersey =P
and lastly, it was sweet of you to make room for me, although its been years already
u know we cant really 'say' anything public (even fb) as it will be too controversial and hurts some feelings in between.

plus,

thank you for the selendang =) i guess i'll see u in 5 years time again.


ring-ring
u know where to get me, aight?

buddy bye

UNTITLED...a piece of advise

"i dunno what to do...i feel like...lost, u know, lost..."

"just sing..."

"huh?"

"just sing..."

*puzzled face*



this guy, my fren, never looses faith in me, i remember he was the ONLY, i repeat, the ONLY guy who, weirdly as it sounds, seem to know me better, in a way.

one time, i remember, i had to choose 2 things that shape my future. 99.9% of the people i ask for advise,went for 'road' A (even my ex) but this guy, he chooses 'road' B, which surprises me.
but of course, i went for A and at the end of the day, weirdly, i end up with B. and he was grinning at me with that 'see...i told you so' face.

another time, as i was attending a GIG with him with a couple of frens, i just stood quitely while enjoying the music. after the show, he came to me and just said 'so aisyah, i have seen them perform. When is your turn for me to see u up there?' i was stunned,at that moment actually i was imagining myself rocking the stage. weird.

and recently, i came and visit him again

and yup, i see him just to 'luahkan' my heart on certain issues that, to me, in a way, he can aswer cause it seems he knows me better

and he just said 'sing...'

and sing it shall be

thank you

*aisyah looking at her homework*













oh ya, i just wrote a song

its called 'amy lie to me'

and it goes like:


dear amy, dear amy
my best fren, my one and only true fren
we had a fight
says that one day i might
find a boyfren
and i will forget about my own amy fren


dear amy, dear amy
you claim i would
you said i could
be off on my way
leaving you alone for a day
when i found my own baby
for him, only i will stay

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dearly amy
it seems its true
what u said is true
that a boy will come
and tear us apart

dear amy, my beautiful amy,
u left me here,
alone, with your own fear
he found you, you found your deal
yes, you left me still

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dear amy
i'm still here
i'm still here




and he says i should be making boys cried thier eyes out for me

*aisyah writes inside her bucket list*

12.make boys cry with my 'homework'.

roger doger!

UNTITLED...a ghost

'come and haunt me back'

he wrote this

after 5 years, still

my God, how patient you have been

the problem is...i cant seem to find you

where art thou?

UNTITLED...old fren

"its nice when somebody called and hang out for a while"

"u know u're remembered"

"busy with work,busy with life"

"its nice"

-coming from a 'once a month,sometimes, i see him' fren



last nite dinner was aweasome

thanks for the time, fren
=)


p/s: aisyah sudah kembali bersemangat kerana dia tahu dia banyak kawan2 yg sgt 'beautiful' di sekelilingnya. yay!


*piang*

=P

UNTITLED...they say

they say when u cry a lot
happiness will come your way,
sooner or later

but i think they forgot
that when u're happy too much
the sadness will come again

it kinda balance the whole thing right?

i am an emotionally unstable girl


*kalau nak cakap aku pms, patut minggu depan*


waking up late didnt help me

i woke up at 5am with an asthma

i woke up at 7.15am with panda eyes

i woke up at 12.30pm with a migrain

i wish to stay in bed

but life's gotta work right?






hhhmmm....
but the best part
2 people call me today,
to check up how's me been doing

i guess some friends can just sense it from afar
i just lurve my soul brothers
they just help me to coop with my daily life


ring-ring
how'd ya been
i'm fine, thank you. and thanks for callin in

lepak? yam cha?

i thought so too

=)

UNTITLED...its been a while

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now

some things are meant to be kept
and never be remembered

but the problem is
the memories still hurt



*bleeehhhhh*
-eats her chocolate-

UNTITLED...hi there, i didnt mean to

i've read ur blog

and its suddenly hits me
and i got the clear picture

shit...
i didnt mean to

honestly
i must have sent the wrong smoke signals

and seriouly honest to the max
i didnt mean to


i apologies
u blogged that post for quite awhile

and i've just pop by to read it, and came across that



i'm sorry

i didnt realise it
i didnt notice it

in fact
i have no clue at all












why didnt you tell me

that u have fallen for me

so at least i can explain
or least just make u stay






and after that blog u still keep it cool

so what now?
i also dunno
i am speechless



and for a very long time
i am speechless




i'm sorry


friends? <---aisyah buat muncung with puppy eyes offering durians for forgiveness


*u just smiled didnt u*

=P

UNTITLED...3 lil midgets i hate the most

Dear lil miss copy cat

be yourself
dont 'potostat' me
its ok to admire
but never try to be me
or to be something that you're not

remember, what makes me, is me
and what makes you, is you

you choose


and stop fucking curik my ideas and opinions
its bound to be heard by someone close to me
dunia ni kecik, pusing balik, kat situ gak

so,
be yourself
or else
just credit/acknowledged/mention the people that you copy
aight?





Dear lil mr irritating,

must everything i do,say, go, walk, talk,sleep
you'll be a part of it?

sh*t, we're just frens
ok...nothing more

stop f*cking pushing my buttons
by 'muncul' tetiba n rapat to all my frens
the worst part
you're already a pain in the *ss to my frens
and your pushing your luck by harassing me more

i can be miss nice
but seriously,
for your case,
i can be nasty
aight?





Dear mr 'once upon a time' used to be my fren

as you like to buang your frens
as you like to built bricks around you
as you like to run and hide
as you like to sorok and bleed your bottomless heart out

go die alone

you're pathetic, seriously

bleed till you realise there's no more blood left
aight?





people who doesnt appreciates their surroundings, tend to do stupid stuff

problem is,
they're my frens


why do i even bother?


my advice to them

eat sugar and die







stupid f*ckers

UNTITLED....dey dey dey

STOP READING MY BLOGGGGGGGGGG.....

hahahaha...

u would still read this post

so i guess there's no stopping you eh?

thanks for your concern

i'm doing fine, thank you

=P

p/s:u're such a pain in the ass, but thanks for being my fwen =)

UNTITLED....till u meet me again

question:
when i see u the next two years, am i going to recognize you

answer:
maybe yes, maybe not

Dear God, I am truly grateful to have friends and family surrounding me. As they are beautiful and always be there by my side.
I must admit, certain days i feel lonely, and certain nights i feel lost
but sometimes,
as i wonder into the forest too far inside,
rivers and waterfalls will show me the way
they were never too far, they'll always by my side.

i meet an old fren today
a familiar face
and boy, i had a great time




and yes,
when you are walking down the street,
although i never meet u for thousands of years,
i would still recognize you
=)

*i know from the very 1st moment i step into the place, as i see your face, i knew i found that space*

a space we called friendship
and i shall cherish it till the end


thank you dear fren,
among others, u will be in my mind
i'll keep u close in my solar system
ma soul and ma system

peace out

UNTITLED...suku abad umur saya

when the sun was present
i had a shitty day

jazz radio (or any other radio), the URL had been blocked
my superior kept on calling me to do stupid stuff
i had to settle small things before i take leave tomorrow

and ya...

i had to settle a Celcom fraud under my name
went to celcom, took statement
went to the police station to report
and didnt make it in time for taking oath at the lawyer office

b*astard to the girl who uses my name and had the bill for RM1k++

yup, a pretty f*ck up day, i must say






but as the sun begins to hide....

6pm, i pick up fatimah
and boy i was surprise
she gave me a present
and this was my reaction

=0

'omg....i forgotten that tomorrow's my birthday.....wtf, i really was THAT busy this morning huh'

fatimah says that maybe i forgotten about tomorrow's b'day is because i was concentrating too much on the Kelantan trip
yes, tomorrow me and my fam will be heading back to newcastle (kota bahru)


anyways, we got into the car
drove through the traffic,
to get to this....

coffee series @ the curve









it was fun, like seriously...





























then dinner is served....


















































































































from this pics, need i to say more?


its 3.29am already....
ring-ring...
it still rings? =)

lurv u all, lurv u much.
lurv u still, lurv u bunch.

UNTITLED....fly me to the moon

The day before, I receive a sms from a good friend, asking me to lepak together, after work.
Yesterday, after work, I called her up, and it seems that she’s still busy having things to do in her office.

‘babe…serdang ngan ampang jauh tak? – she ask
‘tak le jugak…’- I replied
‘brape minit?’
‘ko tahu aku bawak keta mcm mane kan?, paling koman aku boleh buat, 15,20 min.hahahha….pe ce?’
‘ko boleh ambik aku lepas keja tak? Tapi lewat la skit, dalam pukul 9,10 cam tu?’
‘no hal…’

After work, while waiting for her, my best fwen called in, so I decided to lepak with her.
We wanted to go tomyam 14, drove through the rain, and when we reached in front of jayaone, I saw 17’s pasar.

‘pasar babe…ayam gorengggggg…..’ I started drooling
‘a ah best gak’- Fatimah agreed
‘jom kita bungkus nak? Tapi nak makan mane?’
‘UM la kot…?’
‘hujan ni…ko tak kisah?’
‘ada payung…aku ok je’

We redah the hujan, bought food
And also 1 kilo of lychee…hohoho…

It was just beautiful
the rain, the sound and smell of the pasar, the umbrellas, the food and colors.
It was just nice.

Got to fatimah’s lab,
We settle down, and watched bounty hunter together
We eat, giggle all the way
Fatimah rempit back, I’m off to my fwen’s place
picked her up,
And all the way to her house in ampang,
We talked about work, education, life etc
But what got me stunned and full of emotions (pms lo…watodo…) was this

“he died in a car crash, last year, at MRR2”

The 1st time I’ve meet her was when I was 13.
12 freaking years ago.
Then we lost contact, and manage to accidently bump into each other, 3 years ago
In those 3 years, not to say that I was really close to her, but we can be considered as good friends.
I crashed at her place, meet the family, she visited mine.
Our family knows each other, her mom’s a darl, dad’s just awesome,
U know, a normal, how-friends-are-suppose-to-be

But one thing I just realize, is that we never talked about love
U know, girls always talked about boys, men and love life
But I realize that between me and her, we never actually talked about it
When I parked my car in front of her house, we were still talking
She pointed the house, her own (I repeat) her own house, which is in 200k renovation.

“babe…giler hebat ko, dah ade keta, umah. Tgh keja, part time study degree, tak lame lg sambung master…tabik spring wooo….” I praised her
‘tak la…cam biasa je…’ humbled as she can be
I looked at her and gave that ‘look’…”so, bila mahu kawin? Mana calon…huhuhu…” I giggle
“haaaaa…….”she giggle “I heard that your mom’s introducing you a guy..rite? what happen to him?’-she replied, dodging my question.
“bontotlaa….ko tahu la mak aku cam mane…giler, mamat tu pun sama….arghhh…aku tak suka….masuk yg ni, it’s the 3rd guy she’s been trying to hook me up with”- me giving the my-mom-wants-me-to-get-married eyeroll
‘hahhaa…but common, sure he’s ok rite? tell me lo…’ she questioned back

So I told her the story of which guys,about my mom, what happen to my ex’s, and the whole love celada. All sum into one quick brief and easy summary.
And I end it with
“my heart belongs to somebody…I tried, really, I did. But for now, it belongs to somebody else”

She smiled, I smiled…in a sad kinda-way smiled. As I didn’t want my love episodes to filled the air with sadness, so I ask her
“so enough about me…what about you? huhuhu…ur mom tak bising yek?’
“well…dunt tell anybody. Nobody knows. I kept it secret…” she replied.
‘huhuhu…ok….’
“he died in a car crash, last year, at MRR2”

=O

I was speechless…I didn’t know how to react…

‘I know…and I never told u guys (referring to me and the other girls). We dated for quite a while. And then, u know, my mom ask, why not get married…so we planned…and we agreed…tapi nak buat mcm mane…rezeki tak da…’

Her voice kinda change, as her eyes filled with tears

Me, trying my best to not cry and be sad, smiled, and just said ‘everything happens for a reason’

‘Whether its you, or me….God just wants us to learn and make the best of it…’

She smiled, I smiled
We continued chatting and I end it with a wave of goodbye to her mom and brother.


On the way back…I was a ‘full-minded’ and ‘emotionally unstable’ girl
I kept thinking…these past few years, how can she kept it quite, and never really ‘show’ it.
It must have been very, very, very sad

“the reason why I told you, aisyah…is because I think you really knows how I feel…’she confessed.

I couldn’t help to wonder, how my own friend, whom I known, who has always been the ‘miss independent’ and ‘i-am-strong’ women, have one of the most sad love stories I known.
(now, between my friends, I am ‘branded’ to be the girl with the most ‘life-love experienced’)
Thus, among my friends, I am a ‘shoulder to cry on’.

But I was really surprise at this one.

The thing is, not to say that I wasn’t sad, but it left me with a ‘happy-sad’ feeling

A ‘happy-sad’ feeling is like you’re sad but u kinda have that ‘still grateful’ thought, making u smile a bit although u feeling down.

I am truly blessed for having what I have right now
I tend to reminisce on my life and love
How the ups and down makes me who I am right now

=)

Thank you friend, as you remind me of the word ‘strong’

and as we try to reach the heavens above
our legs tend to sore, as gravity earth, pulls us back to the floor
and as I try to fly and spread my wings
only to find myself still on the ground, happy, walking with my bare feet

UNTITLED...ring-ring, who is it?

I am in a mist of happiness
I dunno whats going on
But yesterday, 2 of my old friends called
One, whom i havent seen him in years
2nd, whom i havent seen him in months
We borak like hell...huhuhuhu...
I’m sorry i didnt recognize u’all nye number
As i lost my phone, sorry, sengal me
Its actually a gud sign, as i believe that no matter how long we havent meet,
Or how i lost my phone, u guys called in,
And remember me still
=)
Today, me best fren Fatimah, she came and brings along an old friend
Whom was my ex classmate back in high school
Havent meet her, like in 9 years...
Damn..that long huh...
=P
Then just now, an old friend call me oso
Its been nearly 1 year i havent seen him, nor talk to him
Hahahahaha....
=O
The best part, they all call, and try to come and visit
The proud part that they didnt use Internet to ask
The good thing they use phone line, old fashion way...which i lurve them soooo much for it...
The bad thing though i was already home...
“aisyah...where are u? Thought wanna go yam cha la...”
Yam cha... damn...gud old times
Gud old memories

Let there be a celebration,
Of true friends remembering each other

“hey how are u?’
“i’m fine, thank you...”

Lurve u all in lots, lurve u all in bunch....

And now i at home in serdang, with my bro and sister-in-law, our friend Karvey came, now watching movies together....
And having tea....
Huhuhu....

I shouldn’t be blogging, n continue watching, but i dunno why...i’m just “singing”

The priest told the lonely girl,
the Gods in Heavens will not let her be alone again...no more...no more...

UNTITLED...words of adVICE

dear friend,
when the one u love doesnt appreciate u
he went behind u back
tell u lies
comes to u only when he's sad

what the fuck u want me to say?

i ask u this...
when was the last time he said u're beautiful?

....
....

see...
u cant even recall the last time he said that to u

now
i say this to you

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL...

go to hell if he brings u down
i'm here, i'll stay by ur side

if he goes around looking for other women
we'll make him bow down
where's the luscious, beautiful, h.o.tt girl i once knew

its pay back time,
but of course...
we have to fight it with style
wink-wink

xoxoxo
ur gurl frennn...