UNTITLED....to who ever's out there

aku cair nengok lelaki pakai baju melayu cekak musang

kacak siot

*meleleh*

=P

UNTITLED....free falling

man it feels awesome






p/s: today was an awesome day

why?

clue: crush


he's my biggest crush

the biggest, so far


*smiles*



i'm freaking happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, on top of the world



i hope he doesnt read this,
cos if he do,
he knows i'm he's biggest fan


i feel like a high-school kid

huhuhuhu

*grin*

UNTITLED....are u in Japan?

i got 8 misscalls
one of it was a foreign number
please dont tell me u're in Japan

God, I couldnt stop thinking the worst
please call me, txt me, fb me, or something

i cant call ur mom
sure she'll go nuts about me, or u, or us (we're just friends k)
i takut she thinks else and she'll be happy for a while, then when i say its nothing, she'll be sad again
my God,
i'm babling
pleaseeeeeeeeee
tell me u're not in Japan
God, tell me u're not in Japan

time aku tak bawak phone, time tu la benda cam ni nak jadi

i have the worst sick feeling in my stomach
ok
please
be safe
no matter where u are

GODDDD, just call me back k
u know how

ARGHHHHH...







P/S: this doesnt mean anything...dun get me wrong...its just me being worried about my frens, and u are my fren, so call me k.

UNTITLED...u readers out there

i am quite surprise who actually reads my blog
ya
i mean, i dont really expect people to read this
but you know
if people, my friends, were to come up to me and told me that they read my blog
i'll be like
'my God, why are u reading it...its nothing, its like, u know, stupid...dont read it'
me: being shy of what i wrote and what i think

but the answer that they would give it that

"u blog it...u post it up...obviously u want people to read...its there for a reason, its for people to read"

-_-"

kinda true also
i mean,
i post up things, just for the heck of it
for fun

so yeah
thanks
i really appreciate it

i mean
it surprises me a lot to know
or accidentally catch my friends who reads it

but yeah
thank you

=)

i guess u'll be reading this also

to who ever is out there....
I LAP YOU (in aisyah's term, she love and appriciate u readers out there)

Thanks =)

UNTITLED...twin brother

its 5.04am in the morning,
i'm still up surfing the net, doing nothing
i finished work at 2 sumething
i lepak with my good frens in KD
we eat, we laugh
we joke, we mess around

on the way back
in the car
i couldnt stop thinking about u
i open up fb
went to ur page,
and i saw the shoutout that u've made

a perfect dinner?
thanks to me?

i know u'll b reading this
so again, here goes

i enjoy ur company,
i like you very much,
yes i admit, liking is the 1st step,
the next, will be more than friends

you ask me so many times why did i open up to u
what makes me ask u out for lunch
why i agree to have dinner

honestly

i dunno myself
i cant find a specific reason why in the world i did that

u're nice
but its not about the nice
u're sweet
but its not about the sweetness
u're cute
but its not about the cuteness

u have beautiful eyes
well maybe because of that...=P

seriously,
i cant find it myself

*confuse*

i use to say this to every girl, that ask me for advise

"boys will make u cry, but man, they'll treat u better"

i'm finding my man,
maybe i can stop searching now

=)

UNTITLED...for a nice guy

its 1.50am in the morning,
i'm sure u're sleeping by now
i apologies that i couldnt return ur text
as i msg, my phone was flat dead

i cant believe u actually read my blog
i mean, i never thought people would read my blog
but then again, some of my frens does
so here goes

the last post,
yes...i admit...i smiled when i received ur text

my frens all around me notice it as i cant help but to automatically smile

i thought u would never read my blog
so it was kinda, in a way, to express myself secretly and nobody knows it, in a way

but then again,
u know its u as i said way too much in the texting we had

honestly,
i'm quite confuse myself with what this means
and i cant help myself but to just smile

smiling means u are happy

i'm smiling because i'm happy
you make me smile

thus,
i believe that u make me happy

arghhh....
i dunno what i'm babbling about

oh ya, and yes...
that post was on tuesday, yesterday
so thats y u can kinda figure it out

*blush*

malu siot rasenye,

I dunno what to come out of it

i guess this coming lunch will be something huh?

magic word = hope for the best

best?

lets just say if lunch is awesome, there's plenty more eating out and getting to know each other more

*blush*



sweet dreams...text me when u're free =)


p/s: yes...a lil bit of jazz is playing in my heart...

*sing jazz*

UNTITLED...jazz in my heart

lately,
there's a jazz inside my heart

Syukur...and i thought i wouldnt feel it again

=)

just when i thought i wouldnt feel it again




hush-hush

jazz is playing

shall we dance?

UNTITLED...and who says

dear mr om putih,

and who says i dont look good in baju kurung?



ehem-ehem

=P

UNTITLED...blogger boy

i've read your blog again


and you have to stop reading mine


we have to stop what ever it is that we're doing right now


kapish?


*confuse*

tralalalala...

UNTITLED...a ghost

'come and haunt me back'

he wrote this

after 5 years, still

my God, how patient you have been

the problem is...i cant seem to find you

where art thou?

UNTITLED...dey dey dey, wake up la....

'madonna...?'

'huh?' *puzzled face*

'this song, thats playing...' *eyes pointing around the room*

'ohh...its gwen steffani...no doubt...a long time ago punya song...around 'my time''

'ohhh...ok...is it ur playlist? owh wait....its hers right?' *pointing to my fwen*

'ya...its hers....but she has good selection of songs though'

'ya...'










ayoyoyoyoyo.......

*blushed*

he actually talked to me....and he took notice of me singing to the song....

*slap* wake up aisyah....he's out of ur league

i felt like a junior in high school having a crush on a senior
and when that senior tend to talk to you,
you'll get all gibberish and dunno what to do

*blushed*

ayoyoyoyoyo......

*slap* wake up la wei....

-_-" i getting too old for these sort of crush, dont ya think?
i thought so too

watodo

*slap*

UNTITLED.....esok posa,yay yay

i'm being a kid
and yes
i'm excited
why?
esok puasa
?
huhuuhuhu....
more reason to be happy
merry
and play fireworks at nite

rite now,
i'm in banting
with all
and i'm grateful

and always be

=)

i guess i wasnt broken,
just a bit bitter


yup,
bitter yet sweet



happy Ramadhan to all
and remember, you can only feel the celebration when u choose to
and for me, dunno why,
i 'feel' it,
like my spirit lifted high
and excited has days will come by


and when syawal comes after, i got to see yummy men in baju melayu
what more do i want

hohohoohohoho


-_-"

UNTITLED...a piece of property to be own

guy a says i was rare

guy b said i was a jewel

guy c claimed i was addictive

guy d stated i was toxic

guy e blog i was unique

guy f annouce i was cute

and the list goes onnnnnnnnn.....

me...i told them off, saying they were crazy


but then again,
i like the statement 'she's toxic'

make me sound dangerous

-_-"

hohohohoohho....

wink-wink

cookie?
i though so too =)







oh ya...
updates on me...
i'm going back to school
hush-hush for those who knows =)

UNTITLED....and i fallin sick again

its been a while
since i've fallen sick again
really, really badly

the sort of fever
where u couldnt get up and go to the bathroom

yup, that sick

but that was not why i'm writing this post about

this post is about a dream
a dream i dream the nite i had the worst fever

my dreams are always weird ones
either i woke up in tears
or fears
or confuse

since i was little
my dad had to comfort me when i woke up crying
and he would say that it was only nightmares
nothing to be worry about

well saturday nite
was just different
i was crying myself to sleep
my body was hurting, and i felt my head was cooking like a roast beef
i suddenly remembered about my father
and i cried calling his name

ya, i know
i'm a daddy's girl,
nothing can change that fact

the next thing i know i was at a waterfall
i was surrounded by people i dunt know
but i got a feeling that they're all my family members and close frens, some how

then something happen, i couldnt remember that much
all i know that we should go away from that place
a 'thing' was coming
and its not safe to stay there no more

i didnt have enough time to escape

and then a guy came
whom i dun know him
nor remember his face
hug me all of a sudden,
and whispers something in my ear
which lead me into tears
tears of joy
and that feeling
of warm,joyfulness and full of life

he smiled and then i woke up
only to find myself hugging a pillow,
about 4.20am in the morning
with a 'feeling' that i know i will have it in the future

i fall asleep again
and when i woke up
certain segments of the dream fade away
the memories of their face
and his face
were also lost

what did he say?

*smiles*

that is for me to keep
and for you,
yes you,
to tell me





i dun know u,
but u keep poppin in my dreams
please tell me you're out there
and i am not alone

and for the time being,
i'll hold on to your words

until we meet again.

Mr Dream,
Put me to sleep
of sweet cotton skies
and green emerald eyes
In love we dream
in heart we meet
till reality kicks in,
for now,
ur words i shall keep.

UNTITLED...some songs stuck on replay

in some occasions
certain songs will keep buzzing through me head
in my case
this moment
its this song



why?

i truly believe that love is like a desease
and i miss falling 'sick'

*smiles*

Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody's heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go

UNTITLED....missing in action

*i apologies, i need to express myself, hope u understand, and your name shall be a mystery*

he told me his problem
stating that he's confused
confused on a problem he wasnt sure of
says he was missing me

and me being me
i just told him its a normal thing
as normal as he was just plain confused
maybe it was just a fling
or maybe a crush

as i get it a lot
for men who think they have fallen in love
with a girl who merely 'live' in their heart
no worries i told him
give it space
and with time it will set it apart
and if not, then we'll discover more

but in the meantime
just let it be
you're confused
as confused as any man can be

*i'm sorry*


he said he was missing me
to a girl who he wasnt suppose to be missing in the 1st place

the thing is
i told him the same thing

i was missing a guy
that i wasnt suppose to be missing in the 1st place

a guy, who was suppose to be history to me

we are in a same case
different in a way
nonetheless,
still the same

we both missed a person we're not suppose to be missing in the 1st place

and for that,
we shall be friends
for a very long time

*smiles*

take care dear
may you be on your way






































and i still wonder why i cant get a shut eye rite now

love is weird,
beautiful, yes.
but still....
weird.

UNTITLED.....yes, i admit it, i'm in love

surprise?
fatimah thinks i'm crazy
yes, i am in love
and if love means crazy
then i am crazy

?

whats crazy got to do with being in love
well, it will be crazy if you fall in love
with only words

?

yup,
it is crazy to just fall in love
with a blog

?

am i even talking sanely?

shittt....reading makes me wobble, i guess

u see,
aisyah....she no like-like reading
like seriously, i hate reading
i like pictures and colours in books
but no-no liky reading

long text, paragraph...i just hate it
*burn a book*

but sometimes
aisyah will make exceptions
on certain cases
or subject that attracts her

and believe me,
attracting aisyah to read, is really hard

but this 'guy',
lets just say he caught my attention

yup,
definitely
he's just different

you see,
aisyah...she likes people with different views...
on how things, and opinions are seen in different angle
ways to view it
and believe me,
this guy surprise me a lot





Q: how did i meet 'him'?

A: there are 4 cases, which i believe, lead me to him:

case 1: i am a big fan of music, and yess....i pay attention quite well in beats, lyrics and the history of the making of one particular song. i even like to read the lifestyle of the person, how they sings it, or how they produce it.i also like to pay attention to their video clips,how they portray the song in a video, to deliver the meaning of the song. These couple of years...i notice our music has turn into something, my opinion, 'wrong'. i dunno how to put it...but i felt that there's something wrong with the music scene that i have to search to know wassup.

case 2: me and my siblings: asyeeq,mimi and didi, and my best fwen,fatimah, we are, what you called, people who like to know about Dajjal, Illuminati, masonry, evil, jews,antichrist, and many more. we read blogs, articles,books and viewed video's on any subject related. We even completed "the Arrival". We're interested in it. And honestly, i believe, it makes us more closer to God,The Almighty.

case 3: this case was a bit odd....one evening(4 month ago), i hang out with an old friend.now this friend, believe me, didnt give a shit about anything. He wakes up in the morning, go to college/work, enjoys around, spend money like nothing, and have hang outs and late nites. but what surprises me was...he ask me this question 'babe, ko tahu tak pasal Illuminati'....and yes...we talk about it all night long. whats more surprising is that he had fear in his eyes and he shows it to me....hmmm....a guy who didnt give a shit about the world, had cared about 'something'...and i notice he actually 'change' a lot. he change to become, what i believe, is beautiful. he's closer to God,The Almighty. His opinions and views have a hearsay to me. fruit for thought.

case 4: lady gaga - yes, lady gaga....u see, i used to like her. and what i mean by 'used', is that, i'm not saying i hate her songs now, but i used to admire her as a musician. Before she started out, she was behind the scene with chart-toppers songs and she was an 'individual' which is so different and i admire that. her gift in songs was very different. but after poker face...i dunno why, i sense that there were something 'wrong'. My brother Asyeeq, hated her guts...each time her song comes out, he would change the channel. He would say 'i dunno why people like her, but she is just too 'wrong'. My brother also sense the 'wrongness' of movies and music scene. We believe that it was heading to 'something', something we called 'wrong'.




so....

as i have all the time in the world at my work place,
i started reading news, blogs, articles.
browsing through everyday
to gain knowledge and at least knows whats happening with the outer world
and also chat with my fwen fatimah

and sometimes, i read things about the subjects mention above

and i read opinions, views and metaphor from different people around the world
its fascinating to know how people view things differently,
many colours, many wonders

not to believe in it 100%, nor to critics them all the way
but to just read up and view things differently

and 'his' blog
is one of my favourites

i dont even know if he's a he, or she's a she...
but he mention he's a he (in the Internet, i can also say that i'm a guy,rite?)
so for now, i just say he's a he.

yup,
his views is very different and i enjoy reading it
and i REPEAT
i do not believe in it, its just based on the subject that i like to read his views and opinions

AND I STRONGLY EMPHASIS HERE
I like to read views and opinions, but not to believe, and take his views and believe, for my own.

I also have my own points of views and opinions,
I have my religion and my own believes.

ok?

so dont get me wrong

and so,
to those who like to have materials to read,just for fun
REPEAT: just for fun reading ONLY

this is my 'crush' blog

http://vigilantcitizen.com/

his reports and posts are very fascinating

*admires*





p/s: he has a twitter
....me? twitter.....i joined since January (HAHAHAHA...) but never active in it -_-"

the problem is, i'm considering to be active in it, so i can receive tweets from him

-_-"

wow, i AM in love

-_-"

Symbols rule the world, Not words Nor law

UNTITLED....things he thought he knew

'i know u like pecan butterscoth cookie' he said

'???' i gave him that query eye

'u like those type of cookie right?'

'aaaaa...' *finally i got the subject* 'u read my fb eh? this is why i dunt like fb sometimes....tends to make people think that they know me more, accidently.when u dont, actually'

'but u wrote it ur self. so...i know u do like them, right?'

'if so, watcha gonna do?'

*he opens a can of cookie*

'shut-uppppp......u didnt...' me wishing to kill him right now

'yes i did...' he replied, making me feeling like stabbing him more

'i've bake them...well, actually, my sister did...so ya, kinda, i made this for you'

*wtf-speechless*





hmmm....







*muching on the cookies*

'so....since you think you know me better, what do you REALLY know bout me?' me giving the angkat-kening-sebelah look

well....
i know that u love coffee, but i dunno what coffee is it. so, we should go out and have coffee together
i know that maybe u like going to the movies. so, maybe we should go out and see the silver screen sometimes
i know that u like platypus, that u wanna train it to be a serial killer. so maybe we can train the platypus together
i know u love music, especially jazz. so maybe one night we can go to a jazz joint together

and his list goess on....


hmmm....


i never taught that guys like this still exist, like seriously. and i appriciate that he make the effort to notice small things.
but i admit to him it takes more than those 'knowing facts' to come by me

in the meantime

we're just friends

and believe me, this one, will be a longgggggggggggggg friendship.

*aisya finding ways to dodge him* -_-"

cant blame me for being 'me', right?

UNTITLED.....just when u predict what songs i listen to

why la u very surprise at my playlist
got songs that u didnt expected didnt you
hohoho...
sorry, but i'm not ur typical song listener
i'm a song lover
any genre, any era
serious

would i lie to you, baby
would i lie to u....

and my 1st concert was a keroncong concert
i went with my mother
-_-"








so tell me again...
whats wrong with my playlist?


i thought so too...
wink wink

UNTITLED....when a day ends, another begin

yo yo yo wassup?

well...

a lot of things happen
i have been damn busy

and i have to apologies

to Oof for not yet send the pictures
to adam and other freestyles for their pics
to dipie for the "already dua kali" yam cha session
to the karaoke session pics

and believe me....many, many more pics

i also have to apologies

to frens who call, msg and never fails to always ask to lepak, yam cha or mamaking with me

sometimes getting a slice of antu means you have to make reservations, huh?

erm...sorry, indeed i have been busy

and today wasn't any different

it was anggun's cukur jambul n marhaban
and bowling with ma sistas

and today ends with NTV's top gear
the alfa romeo episode
me and fatimah couldn't stop laughing our socks off
even me mom came in the room to find out what we were giggling about


the thing is...


i realize, when i close my eyes
before going to sleep
i tend to reminiscence of what i did the whole day










and i truly believe of what i hold in my heart right now...
that no matter how bad ur life, work, family, love and friends are
at the end of the day
u're the one who make the best out of it
to work things out

the thing is



i cant wait for monday to arrive

and i kept smiling to myself
=)


"please be there.."
and i hope


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