TAK BERTAJUK.....ibu kota kata hati

malam susur aku keluar
berjumpa rakan, berbicara sebentar
bila pulang, dipanggil malam
hati berkata,
suara dalam,
"mari kita berjalan di kota..."

mereka berkata "ini identiti kita, rakyat merdeka"

dia, saya dan mereka. mahu tunggu, jam tegak berdua

ini barisan kereta nasional...

ini pula kerja rasional.

jam negara sudah pukul dua belas

kagum...aku bilang, bunyi kuat...aku bilang.

kibar bendera, angin meniup....

bangunan megah, kota menyahut.

antu!

bayang antu!

r2d2?

satu bangunan yg mmg aku kagum

pantulan cahaya ke tuan empunya

mari panjat pokok...curi buahnya

teman seperjuangan, masih bersama

satu malaysia?

si pencari rezeki, pada malam buta

mengapa jauh?

mari dekat, mari sebentar

satu malam, penuh pengertian
satu orang, penuh kedukaan
apa ini satu kembara?
pada permulaan,
di garis penuaan
























akhir kata...





an olive green sunnies,
for all my future holidays,
vanilla skies with some honey...


wink-wink

adventure is out there!

UNTITLED....hi, its u again

alamak
last nite u called
and msg

i buat bodoh

morning also u msg

i pun buat bodoh







aloooo.....



u never give up do u?



alamak

UNTITLED....what a feeling

numb...

that is what i feel

weird,
i thought i never feel it again

no happy
no excited
no sad
no mad

just


numb...

ladies and gentlemen...
once again

antu has become numb

UNTITLED....nobody said it was easy

i admire my friends who can work under pressure

one work for the news and writing
one work in hr in a big company
one work with a bank, in foreign exchange
one work for a physics professor, doing research
one work for an entertainment magazine
and many more...

when i heard about their nature of work
the job scoop, work load and pressure
working time and benefits

i admire them

it takes a lot of courage, strength to go such length

and when i talked about my work
in an operation line,
food and beverage

they would say the same






i believe that every work has it ups and down
to start from scratch and work urself up,
that was never easy
believe me,
i know...







so today,
had me thinking
i'm taking the next step


scientist by coldplay

"i'm going back to the start..."

it was playing on the radio
on the way back from the interview


life will take u everywhere
when ever, and anywhere

but only if u choose to...







suck it up,girl
u can do this

adventure is out there!!!!

UNTITLED...and he ask,what about breakfast at tiffany's?

looking down at the pavement,
she walks while her heels make sound
funny, she said
thats not the only sound she hears

she stops
and listens






its true...
that was the only noice she heard






weird....

UNTITLED....and another phase comes

8th March 2010

"and i dunt want the world to see me,
cause i dun think that they'll understand,
when everything is meant to be broken,
i just want u to know who i am"

u were never, on the 1st day, and u were never, on the last
i'm the one who choose
and i'm sorry for being who i am
i'm sorry i 'force' u

thanks for being nice to me
=)

i'll cheerish it...


thank you again, u're beautiful
dunt forget that
never, forget that

UNTITLED....hai, my name is aisyah, may i know urs?

stranger
i dunno know name
u would come on certain weekend
with that white laptop
editing pictures
doing stuff
minding ur own business

last time u came,
u smile
me being blurr
i noticed

"he's a regular laaa...."
"mane la aku tahu..."

but this weekend
u didnt show up

the weird thing was





i was waiting....








hhmmm....
may i know ur name?

UNTITLED....sometimes

sometimes i wonder
why do i even bother

of sharing good news
spreading and caring what is new

and yet i felt stupid at times
for only feeling it these times
as i feel i'm the only one
who'll ask, tell, and wanna share








weird...i feel so stupid rite now
why to i tend to care?

UNTITLED....Mr Rabbit,show me the way...

"Am i mad?"
"I think you're going bonkers...."
"....."
"but u know what.."
"...."
"the best people are..."

watch alice in wonderland by tim burton


i wanna be Aisyah in bonkerland
for real...



yay!

UNTITLED....2 days of plain good style lovin'

yester-day

"aku nak gi beli baju baru..kat topshop.."
"aku nak gi beli brg.."

i looked at hadi

"jom kita lepak nak?"
"ok! aku roger farid..."
"set...!"

and we did

hadi, yana, thier friend (whom i've fogotten her name,sorry) farid and me

mid vall

window shopping...surveying the current trend and price
shopping...got things for tweenty7may
popcorn....




damn this movie was nice

thanks my friends!


to-day

"syasya nak gi memane tak?"
"tak...ari ni cuti..."
"mintak tolong antar Anggun g klinik.."
"ok"

i looked at Kak Jun

"nak gi shopping skali tak?"
"boleh gak, boring duk umah"
"set"

and we did

kak jun, Anggun, didi and me

mid vall again

shopping!

and i heard this through the airwaves



thanks my family!

damn..
i'm just loving each day



but when the happiness ends,
it'll be the day i cry again


in the mean time,
I'm just lovin it


<3

UNTITLED....smoking harder, dying faster

'mane bobo?'
'outside lo, smoking'
'ooo..ok'
'akak aisya ah, u smoke or not?'
'use to. why ah?'
'no la, just asking'
'long time ago la, very long. Now, no more'
'oo...ok"
'people look at me, they say i smoke n drink...really ah?'
'no lo, just asking only'
'i smoke, long time. drink, no lo. f*cking people think i drink. Do I look like a drinker ka?'
'dunno lo'
'why u ask?'
'nothing'
'u smoke ka?'
'no lo...'
'good, dont start'
he looks down, kinda susah ati about his problem
'but i'm tempted,i dunno why...'

silence for a while...

'if u smoke, i'll whack ur head'
he was surprise, and started laughing
'i swear to god, i'll whack ur head so hard"
he smiled
'better yet, i'll kill u'

'ok ok ok, akak, i wont start'
'good...serious, dunt start. Once u start, it'll be the end'
'ok'

EOM at starbucks
a good boy ask me, stating his tempted to smoke

the worst part was
i was thinking of that just now
i was thinking of smoking
stupid fucking pile of work
give me stupid reason to die faster,
stupid eom

but good thing was
at the end of the day
this Mr Good-die Two Shoes makes me stop the thought
=)
thank you...






'akak...how bout shisha...ok tak?'

-___-" aku duku gak kapla budak ni

UNTITLED...on going project

fuck....
shit, i didnt realise such project can effect the people around me
not even stocks comin in,
they already asking
ayoyoyoyo....
shit thing is, this coming week need to go shopping again
yay!

tweenty7may...
pressure is on

GO GO antu! u can do it










ps: anybody can teach me Pay Pall or not?
-_-"




ayoyoyo...

UNTITLED....no surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

One day,
it will be no surprise huh?

UNTITLED....an alien at the temple

she went to the temple again
this lonely girl bring offerings
of fruits and nuts,
of sweets and treats.

She was greeted by weirdness
of people looking at her
as she was an alien
different skin
different color
different belief
not like the other

the guardian kid wave at her
and with it, he ask
"what animal do u keep now?
do they still surround u?
oh please tell me, sister
tell me ur secret, tell me how?"
he was excited to hear any new adventure
of the lonely girl would have encounter

"i'm sorry...i live a quite life now,not that merry,
i like it, and i've been busy,
of dealing with humans,
future and plans,
no more time for playground,
no animal to surround..." she replied

came the priest
"how are u my child?"

"i'm fine..."

"hows ur life so far?"

"ive been busy"

he shook his head knowing

she nods her head and smile

the priest followed,
he smiled

UNTITLED...and when a mini muffin comes by

"i miss her already...
aduh..tak boleh lekang dah...
baru kejap je...tak sampai 1 jam
masa asyeeq kawin dulu,
asyeeq rase biasa je,
mcm tak de pe-pe,
kawin,kawin la
lepas kawin pun, tak de rase lain
tapi ni lain kes
dapat anggun
asyeeq rase lain
mmg rase lain..."

on the way back sending him, alone, to serdang. just the both of us inside the car.talking bout how life had change so much...

his life is evolving into something he just couldnt explain
the thing is, i notice he's changing
he starts to kiss his wife in public, as in infront of us (last time he use to act macho, and malu to do that..huhu..)

he's changing

into a loving husband, an soon..a good father

word...

its just plain, fucking beautiful

damn...

i remember
they said u stop music because of us
they said u become "home lover" when we came in
i guess its true what they say
and i love u for that,my papa
<3

UNTITLED....a day fill with love

i slept at 4.30am,woke up at nine
came to work, was late, but bukak on time

normally, i'll be such a pain in the ass if i tak cukup tido
grumpy or moody
and sometimes, bodo and giler
i remember one partner says that i was like a drunk girl,
talking gibbrish and walking with steam eyes
-_-"

but today was different
something wrong somewhere
not because it was a suwe day
but it end up beautiful
and yet wonderful

work
was just nice and smooth
yes busy, yes few bumps,
but everything was nice
in the end, went to digital mall
to get ink
went through the streets of 14
pop at kfc, tapau
went back

man...i miss lepaking at 14

got inside the car,
isi petrol
went to serdang
jam pack...
& yet i was in good mood
to make it better...
it was jazz kitchen
so
being a jazz lover
just listening to the tunes
and solo sessions
was just awesome

got home
my family was there
yup
a cute mini muffin was there
Anggun Zara
"who she look like?", ask me bro
i told him
"just like how we shud look like"
"an M-hair forehead...and a line-chin"
everybody kept quite
"just like a Mokhtars shud look like..."
"she has the features of Papa..."
i added
and they all smile
yup
she does
and its obvious
me mom sent maryam, came back
and took the rest to banting

me, asyeeq and shamimi went to pudu
send sham to the bus
and drove back to banting
and all the way back
swing time was playing

funny thing was
my bro asyeeq
he sang one song
which i kept quite
"fly me to the moon...let me play wit all the stars...."

its was just plain beautiful

i'm bitter, yes
but i guess
i was never broken

and i know u'll be smiling also
as each steps that i take
i'll think of u,
and the surroundings remind me so much of u
looky Papa, ur lil' girl didnt cry today
happy, yet supple in a way

"and the Priest remind the lonely girl again,
every tears that she shed, twice the happiness she will get...."

UNTITLED...its just a crush, believe me, u'll get over it

satu tangan masuk
dua kaki pergi
satu hati lingkup
mata hati lari

kalau kamu jatuh cinta pada aku,
silap kamu
kalau aku buat kamu jatuh cinta pada ku,
silap aku

jangan salah faham
jangan mungkir janji
kerna selepas malam akhir nanti
belum tentu hati aku kau memiliki

hati kamu, tandang bersahut,
hati aku, tak mungkin hanyut.

maaf

UNTITLED....again, u called

i know u'll be reading this, so here goes...

today u called
2 times missed
and the 3rd i picked
the number was so foreign
foreign enough that i know it wasnt form malaysia
and surprisingly, u were at the end of the line
last nite, u sms me
today u called
last 3 days we talked
last week u visit
last month u pop

the question that was playing in my head
was why
why u bother?
i mean, why now?
back then
it used to matter
used to
and now, it dunt

remember those time when we used to be together
when dirt seems to be snow
when grey rain seems to be blue skies
when we thought we would grow old
together
forever

well now its your turn to cry

and i will sit at the corner
and watch u cry

revenge is never the ultimate
but damn it sure nice to feel it now...

i'm not ur gal, u used to know
i've changed
and i thank God i did
and i never regret it
not once...
not even an ounce...

p/s: take my advise...be a man, cos i think u'll never will.

UNTITLED...16th Feb to the Fab Fam

One fine day...Mr Gorilla XXL a.k.a Mr Gorilla,
was just lepaking around,
layaning his bluess...

"Me wonder whats he doin now....Me misses him.."

Then...
"Hey..watcha doin?"-Patrick
"Ohh...its u..nothing, go away!"-Mr G
"I know...u're lookin at them she-fishes down there..naughty you..(grin)"
"No,me not..!!!"

"Hey..watcha all doin?"-Antu
"I was just..."-Mr G
"Mr Gorilla was eyeing on those she-fishes below!"-Pat
"No...!!"

"OMG...naughty Mr Gorilla...any cio? huhuu..."-Antu
"yup yup yup..."-Pat
"sigh..."
"looky!...there's barbara the blowted fish! feweeettt..!!"-Pat

SPLASHHH...!!!!
-_-"
"erm..."

"omg, patrick! u ok?..."
"i think i am...its actually..quite, tingglishh..huhuhu.."

Whats goin inside Mr Gorilla's head
"Hey wait...he actually looked happy down there.."
"tralalala...."-Pat

"Oh dear Aisyah, the yummy one.. me was thinking...
u know, since Patrick is, kinda, ok down there...
that we should just..."
"NOO....Dunt even think about it.."-Antu

"but look at him...he's doing great..Look!..."-Mr G

"tralalala..this is niceee...me likyyy..."-Pat
"see..he's doin great.."-Mr G
"Mr Gorilla..thats not nicee.."-Antu

"ok finee...shesshhh...
Yo Pat...you hold on there, we gonna pull u out k!"-Mr G
"okie dokie...tralalala...weeee..."

So Antu pull Patrick out of the water...

And the three sat on the bridge together again

"sooo...ermmm..."

"i miss him..."-Antu
"me too..."-mr G
"me three..."-Pat

PROOOTTTTTT...!!!!!

"huhuhuh...??"

PATTTRRRIICCKKKKKK!!!!!!

"eerrmmm..."

"well, nenek's garlic ommelete was nice, but nasty on my stomach.."

SPLAASSSSHHH!!!!

"me guess he was afraid we duku his head one more time"-Mr G
"yup...i guess so"-Antu

"tralalalla...me likyyy..."

"ermm..."

"well, i guess, we have to get goin ya?"-Antu
"yup..."-Mr G

"come..lets go, nenek's making tea..."
"nenek???..."

"oh no...whats up nowww...?"
"wel...nenek kinda scares me at times..."

"dunt be ridiculous...come!.."
"....."

"ok fineeee...i'll drag you..."
"NOOOO...."

"Alooo....
Hi Jean...actually, we just wanted to say
That WE MISSES YOU...
very muchhh...."

HAPPY ANNY BABY!!

P/S:sorry it took quite a while for me to finish it up...well, i hope u like it...emmmuuahhhh...have lots of fun k... lurv u and miss u always...

UNTITLED...just another Vday, like everyday

the last time,
u came and visit
i was in nzx

and they talk
let them talk
and when they envy
let them be

all i wanna do
is just to hold your hand

oh yeah...i tell u sumthing
i think u'll understand
when i...tell u sumething
i wanna hold ur handddddd....
i wanna hold ur handddddd....

actually, its the three of us who wanna hole ur hand,
me, mr gorilla and patrick
they really misses u...
huhuhuhu...


p/s: my project is still not finish...then we have to wait for 16th k...i'm a bit busy, but i promise...i'll finish it up...emmmmuuuaaahhhh....

UNTITLED...ring-ring, who is it?

I am in a mist of happiness
I dunno whats going on
But yesterday, 2 of my old friends called
One, whom i havent seen him in years
2nd, whom i havent seen him in months
We borak like hell...huhuhuhu...
I’m sorry i didnt recognize u’all nye number
As i lost my phone, sorry, sengal me
Its actually a gud sign, as i believe that no matter how long we havent meet,
Or how i lost my phone, u guys called in,
And remember me still
=)
Today, me best fren Fatimah, she came and brings along an old friend
Whom was my ex classmate back in high school
Havent meet her, like in 9 years...
Damn..that long huh...
=P
Then just now, an old friend call me oso
Its been nearly 1 year i havent seen him, nor talk to him
Hahahahaha....
=O
The best part, they all call, and try to come and visit
The proud part that they didnt use Internet to ask
The good thing they use phone line, old fashion way...which i lurve them soooo much for it...
The bad thing though i was already home...
“aisyah...where are u? Thought wanna go yam cha la...”
Yam cha... damn...gud old times
Gud old memories

Let there be a celebration,
Of true friends remembering each other

“hey how are u?’
“i’m fine, thank you...”

Lurve u all in lots, lurve u all in bunch....

And now i at home in serdang, with my bro and sister-in-law, our friend Karvey came, now watching movies together....
And having tea....
Huhuhu....

I shouldn’t be blogging, n continue watching, but i dunno why...i’m just “singing”

The priest told the lonely girl,
the Gods in Heavens will not let her be alone again...no more...no more...

UNTITLED...songs about jane

My father use to say this to me…
The songs that a person like to hear
Portrays what’s within them selves
Whether, the song is just mere words that dunt make sense
But the melody spells the emotions, drunk with tense
Or…a simple structure song,
But fill with beautiful metaphors that poets long to read for,
Or long to die for,
And I truly believe this…
Either u choose a song because of the lyrics,
Or because of the beats,
Or just because u plain liked the song….
It does portray who u are…

So tell me…who are u?
A song chocked up with happiness?
A song beaten up by grief?
Or just a song which appreciate its surroundings…
Or many more…

Tell me again
Who are u, dear song
And what are u to me?

Knowing my song doesn’t mean u know me, dear friend…
And U know y?
Because I’m eclectic,
U’ll never get me, because I’m all of it
From the tunes of jazz,
To the beat of a crunk

I’m the girl they sing of heartbreaks, bonding, building bridges and sunshine weather
I’m the girl whom u can never figure out,
Even if you put thousands of songs mash-up together

UNTITLED...me going to sleep

hai, its me again
babbling throughout the nite
as i counted the sheep's
and yet my eyes wont shut tight

are u there mr right?
cos i wanna get to know u better
in love, life, future
and the places u might go after
tell me stories
of lost and found
blue skies and marry-go-round
little bunnies hopping around
and when the rain comes falling down
do we share the same umbrella?
or u'll be gone, without a sound...

where art thou, oh, mr right?

UNTITLED...cant say,wont tell

tonite
is a nite of silence
when communication is just a light matter to humans
n nite crawlers ruled the sound wave
bringing blues in the moonlight
words and sentences, wont come out rite

and when u're drifted away
a simple question would make ur day

just by asking

how are u today?

tell me a story
tell me to stay

"when i'm gone, whos gonna ask u the question
when u're gone, nobody gonna ask me that question"

UNTITLED...words of adVICE

dear friend,
when the one u love doesnt appreciate u
he went behind u back
tell u lies
comes to u only when he's sad

what the fuck u want me to say?

i ask u this...
when was the last time he said u're beautiful?

....
....

see...
u cant even recall the last time he said that to u

now
i say this to you

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL...

go to hell if he brings u down
i'm here, i'll stay by ur side

if he goes around looking for other women
we'll make him bow down
where's the luscious, beautiful, h.o.tt girl i once knew

its pay back time,
but of course...
we have to fight it with style
wink-wink

xoxoxo
ur gurl frennn...

UNTITLED...too busy eh?

lately...
i've been too busy...

...

antu busy eh?
weird...

cos me life
is not exactly like that

u see,
i love a quite life
the life were nobody bothers me
thus, i dun bother other people
lurv that sort of life
and manage to keep it that way

but some how
it change
evolving
into something
that i sometimes cant control
nor focus on

my life
it used to be
work, family, love and friends

now
its
work,family,love and friends

.....

weird

.....

it doesnt change eh?

but somehow

it does...

adventure is out there!!!!!!

UNTITLED...when nothing else matters

when the party's over
we would still belong to each other

underneath your cloth
there's an endless story
that's a man i choose
that's my teritory
and all the things i deserve
for being such a good girl
honey

missed u,truly

UNTITLED...legend has it

An owl came and asks me to be its friend
A gift, or a curse?
I found a baby squirrel and raise it as my own
A gift, or a curse?
I played with a snake; put my finger in its mouth
A gift, or a curse?
A royal elephant bow two times under my command
A gift, or a curse?
I notice how flower bees have conversation with each other
A gift, or a curse?
I never failed to notice white or black buttery flies flying around my present
A gift, or a curse?
I manage to make homeless dogs to followed me, but I can’t take care of them
A gift, or a curse?
Its evolving….this gift or curse

And the legend continues….

That I can fly off in the air if I wanted to
I can communicate and see what others don’t
That I can help the helpless and giving needs to the need ones
That I have the strength to fight in wars and combats

Many have called me name
Trying to define who am i
Better yet
What am i

They say I was born pure blood
They say that I’m a human child with gifts that man can only dream off

Yeah rite….

Just another walk in the park for me
Its going to be 25 years now
And I am still stuck in the maze of life

Papa, what should I do?
Once u were the guardian
And now
They ask me to take your place
How come?
I’m just a girl..
They tried taking her away
They succeed only half
Now, the others need me,
But me alone, I can’t do it
It’s hard being pure blood
Is it a Gift, or a Curse?

Dan bila mereka di jalan yang lurus
Belajar mengawal, berbicara, mengurus
Maka dengan itu, hadiah itu berkembang
Tapi bila di bentuk, di situ ada simpang
Ke kanan baik, ke kiri buruk
Di pilihnye satu, dahi berkerut
Kamu mahu jadi apa, sang manusia
Penari, Pemusnah, Percaya atau Pencinta?

UNTITLED...a wise man once said

"love has to be natural
it has to be....u know...suitable
its like finding a shoe
when u wear a shoe,
when its comfortable..
suits your feet
u'll be walking naturally
u'll feel like u're not wearing any shoes cause
its so comfortable
like u walking on air
but if u get the shoe one size smaller
or one size bigger
tak selesa la bila berjalan
betul tak?
so
choosing a partner to start a relationship
mmg penting
Paling penting, no compromise
no thinking will be ok, no thinking can adjust
when its comfortable and natural...
thats the right feeling,
but when u're not feeling it
and u tergerak hati...
do not compromise it,
nanti susah"

quoted from abg ee, dinners at kak fyd's hous

worddd....

UNTITLED...a give from a father to her daugther

Dear Papa,
I am happy...
huhuhuhu....
y?
me bought the set already
the best part
its cheap
huhuhu
actually didi was the one who help me chip in
although its just RM35.95
huhuhu...
she says i'm weird
asyeeq says i'm weird
because literally, i jump in joy when i say it
i was so exicited
like a baby found a lollipop
even the cd shop girl was laughing when they see the act
wateva...
huhuhu
i got it...

The Greatest Collection-Studio Gibli present

huhuhu...grin

and i remember the 1st time u bought the cd home and we watch it

Princess Mononoke...

then comes Spirited Away

and oh i'm greatful to have you as my dad

Lurv u always

xoxoxo
Syasya

UNTITLED...come together

fuck the net
fucking human connections konon
and in these days is what they say
"how people connected to each other"
fuck it
go see u real frens
lepak
go visit
even once a year
thats human connection
real frens konon
fuck the net
old fashion visit n chat is what people need these days

ask you-guys self

who are your real frens?

figures...

bila dunia karam terus malap
duduk kamu sorang dalam gelap
tiada kawan dtg menanya
tiada teman datang berbicara
baru saat itu kamu tersedar
sahabat tiada, dunia hiba

UNTITLED....starts by being free, but ends by being bitter

today,
to my surprise
i saw me cousin again
surprise?
lets just say
i'm the sort of cousin who u rarely meet
sometimes for 6 month, 5 years, even 9
and i'm not kidding
reason being i'm always missing in action
balik kg, tak balik
balik raya, tak balik raya
gi melawat, tak g melawat
biasa la...me busy with what ever suppose to make me busy
oh, back to me story
the cousin was surprise to see me
well...me also
we went to mamak..and chat
my god its been ages
and i thought i was an alien in the family
as in, me didnt remember names of aunts and uncles
or visit them
and yet, he also was in the same case

then memories came...

how when we were little,
we use to play together
with any other cousins

my gramps is the
only elderly in the family
the last one
so people come and lepak, sleep over

and suddenly

how i missed it
when me bro and i
my sis n our cousins
lepak together
back then
there was no astro
no internet
no ps,psp or advance games

just kids playing around with anything we could possible play with
we let our imagination do its tricks and wonders

and oh how i missed it

Thank you Johar for making me remember the good old days
and how i appreciate it more then i will ever be
walking back from the mamak, i realize i was in a faraway land

a land of memories
of childhood years

ultraman
gaban
ja-jan
cik-ke-des
and other lots

such a nice feeling

and yet growing up got the best of it
growing up took the memories away
and make me forget
even worst
make me bitter

Thank you Johar
again

you're the bomb...
see u again couz
till then
take care

dan anak anak kecil
lari keriangan
minda suci,hati tenang

tiada benci, sedih jangan
cuba terbang, suka berangan

jangan cepat dewasa
aku pesan

kalau mahu cepat tua
nescaya, kamu menyesal

UNTITLED...please bring miss gajah back

wrote some words

draw some pictures

mail it with an elephant

the reason i bought the bracelet isnt because i wanna wear it,
but because there was an elephant, and it remind me of u
i remember the 1st time u call me gajah
and i remember y i called u tikus

i dunno what to say...
i dunno what to do...
its 2.04 am in da morning,
and i'm missing you

please i beg of u come back safely
bring back the elephant
together with my heart,baby...

emuahhhhhhhhhhh...

till then,
have fun in tasmania
kidnap a tasmanian devil
and named it fluffy k.

gud luck baby,
may you have a blast time there
study smart
and dunt be naugthy
for i shall do the same
and wait till the day we can soar again

yum yum yum

sayang aku, tiada yg tahu,
sayang kamu, itu yg ku mahu....

UNTITLED...a song kept coming in me head

1st day of the year
went inside the car
turn on the radio
1st song to be heard by me in the new year
weird as it...
and such coinsidence it is..
it was on your blog also for year 2010

well...
call it fate..
call it wat eva it is

its a nice song
in fact
its a yummy song

to you
to me
to me dad
to me bro's
to me family
to all of us



“And the moment that you wonder far from me,
I wanna pull u in my arms again….”

UNTITLED....white flag has been seen

starts 10.32pm

Dear love,
as in right now
u're on the way back to your hometown
in the bus,either sleeping,
or just listening, or playing games in your ipod
why am i'm writing to you
is because i have a thousands word inside my mind
full of emotions
love,sadness
hate,happiness
sentence by sentence
words by words

i went to baby,the cat
i told him
"yes, i miss him"

i went to the fridge and open it
i said this
"I was in heaven,playing with clouds,
and now i'm on earth, and in dirt"

i choose not to cry
i choose not to think
i choose to just let it go

and yet tears runs when i think of u
memories appears when things remind me of u

I miss you
oh so dearly

i miss u
oh so much

words to discribe us
meow
yum yum
wof wof
tikus
gajah
and many more

things that is about us
raju
top gear
lazy
movies
smelly
and much more

I have to tell u the truth
I say prayer every day
In the car
In the kitchen
Going to work
Walking down to the parking lot
and all the prayers will sound the same

"Dear God,
The Almighty, and has showned me how,
by taking him away from me,
I humble down to you"

day by day,
I practise patience
day by day
I practise silence

when my work place ask
when my family ask
when my frens ask

"are you with somebody?"
"is there anybody that u serious with?"
"bf?"

I would say
"nop"
"he's just a fren"
"nobody serious"

but u know the fact
and my true frens would see i'm head over heels for u

I LOVE YOU
I write this down
I MISS YOU
My pride has fallen now

end 12.05am