man it feels awesome
p/s: today was an awesome day
why?
clue: crush
he's my biggest crush
the biggest, so far
*smiles*
i'm freaking happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, on top of the world
i hope he doesnt read this,
cos if he do,
he knows i'm he's biggest fan
i feel like a high-school kid
huhuhuhu
*grin*
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
UNTITLED....masa untuk kurus balik
f*ck
so damn obvious ke yg aku dah put on weight
f*ck
i should pipe it down abit
but how can i?
food is like glorioussssssssssss to me
=(
*sings* food,food glorious food
so damn obvious ke yg aku dah put on weight
f*ck
i should pipe it down abit
but how can i?
food is like glorioussssssssssss to me
=(
*sings* food,food glorious food
Monday, April 4, 2011
UNTITLED....pity u
aku dah tengok muka awek tu
stakat tu je yg ko mampu
padan la sangat
serious
aku bersyukur i left ur ass back then
anyhow
good luck
all the best
and God bless
cos u need all the luck in the world
and for her
she need all the luck in the universe
what?
me being cruel?
i jahat?
sangatttt
if to u, yes i'll be the pain in ur ass
and i will rain on your parade
wait till she see's ur true color
scumbag
*grin*
stakat tu je yg ko mampu
padan la sangat
serious
aku bersyukur i left ur ass back then
anyhow
good luck
all the best
and God bless
cos u need all the luck in the world
and for her
she need all the luck in the universe
what?
me being cruel?
i jahat?
sangatttt
if to u, yes i'll be the pain in ur ass
and i will rain on your parade
wait till she see's ur true color
scumbag
*grin*
Sunday, April 3, 2011
UNTITLED....i've made up my mind
another bucket list will be slash out
aint gonna tell you until i've done it
hehehehe <-ketawa jahat
clue
-90% paddling, 10% ?
awesomeeeeeeeeeeee.....
11th June...here i comeeeeeeeeee
aint gonna tell you until i've done it
hehehehe <-ketawa jahat
clue
-90% paddling, 10% ?
awesomeeeeeeeeeeee.....
11th June...here i comeeeeeeeeee
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
UNTITLED...giler jeles
gila tahap cipan aku jeles ngan lily
cipan pun tak jeles macam aku
serious....
-.-
oh caleb ku, dimanakah kamuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Monday, March 28, 2011
UNTITLED....pukul empat dua puluh empat pagi
ya,
saya belum tidur
kenapa ya?
ini untuk malam-malam yg panjang,
mata tak lelap, hingga ke siang.
*wonders*
saya belum tidur
kenapa ya?
ini untuk malam-malam yg panjang,
mata tak lelap, hingga ke siang.
*wonders*
Saturday, March 26, 2011
UNTITLED....amy, my amy
i think she's brilliant
and beautiful
who care's what u think?
i stick with mine
what?
yup, i thought so too
she's brilliant
and beautiful
Monday, March 21, 2011
UNTITLED....sebelum semua kahwin
*not to forget, lovely Ann, who's not in this picture*
its hard to find a group of frens who stayed together
i've meet them when i was 13
and i left the school at 14
one evening
a school reunion brought us back together again
i have to thank dipie for forcing me to go to the reunion
back in 1998 (if i'm not mistaken)
cos if she didnt do so
i wouldnt be in this family
i love my soul sisters
class bakti rawks!
=D
UNTITLED....apa aku rasa
untuk golongan yang ada cinta
tapi tidak mampu memupuk perasaan itu
atas sebab-sebab tertentu
ya
aku golongan itu
Sunday, March 20, 2011
UNTITLED...so what
a blue turkish antique bracelet
with metal & wooden bangles
around my wrist
a hand made copper-wired red-blue-brown-stones ring
around my finger
a red round shape plastic earing
on my ears
a navy blue&white suspenders
with a high-rise stretchable wash-out black jeans
for my belly below
a 501st normal round-neck t-shirt
for my top
a brown hat
with black and white stripes around it
and my hair tuck in
a black pvc hobo hangbag
with adjustable metal/pvc strap
to carry my miggits around
a black pointed
ballet-like, flat shoes
to suit my walking needs
would you dare to wear something like this?
u wont right?
well i will =P
and i rock with it
f*ck off if you dont like my hat, skirts, patterns, clutches, shoes, rings or anything
i choose what i wear
aint no harm if 1 outta 10 were to fall out from 'fashion normal'
havent you heard?
we are who we are
and i love it!
*grind*
Friday, March 18, 2011
UNTITLED....feeling lonely
today
again,
i have to see the doctors
and this time
i was alone
before this
its with my sis didi
or my bestie fatimah
or my soul sister mawar
but today i was alone
many people text me
call me
asking how is it
i love u guys
serious
nothing beats good frens
i was a bit
kinda ok
blur
buat bodo
of the feeling being alone
i like companions around me
would make me feel 'alive'
not sick
or painful
as painful of my ear
as i parked my car
walked
looking around trying to find the clinic
asked the info counter
took my number
waited
and just looked around
i looked around
i saw people who wasnt feeling very well
i looked around
they were with their love ones
i suck it in
just ignored the feeling inside
open the sun newspaper
second page
i started crying
no shit
my eyes started raining
my ear pain came back?
no
i feel lonely?
no
i started crying becos i saw a picture
a picture of an old man
in the ruins of tsunami in Japan
with a picture on his back
a picture of his lost wife
strap around his back
trying to find her
walking about with the ruins
My God
did i cry
he loved his wife very much, i must say
never gave up
and always pray
My god
I just cried
and becos of that
it inspired me to write a poem
http://antu-art-motion.tumblr.com/
and God
did i cried
dated 18th march
again,
i have to see the doctors
and this time
i was alone
before this
its with my sis didi
or my bestie fatimah
or my soul sister mawar
but today i was alone
many people text me
call me
asking how is it
i love u guys
serious
nothing beats good frens
i was a bit
kinda ok
blur
buat bodo
of the feeling being alone
i like companions around me
would make me feel 'alive'
not sick
or painful
as painful of my ear
as i parked my car
walked
looking around trying to find the clinic
asked the info counter
took my number
waited
and just looked around
i looked around
i saw people who wasnt feeling very well
i looked around
they were with their love ones
i suck it in
just ignored the feeling inside
open the sun newspaper
second page
i started crying
no shit
my eyes started raining
my ear pain came back?
no
i feel lonely?
no
i started crying becos i saw a picture
a picture of an old man
in the ruins of tsunami in Japan
with a picture on his back
a picture of his lost wife
strap around his back
trying to find her
walking about with the ruins
My God
did i cry
he loved his wife very much, i must say
never gave up
and always pray
My god
I just cried
and becos of that
it inspired me to write a poem
http://antu-art-motion.tumblr.com/
and God
did i cried
dated 18th march
Monday, March 14, 2011
UNTITLED....damn it
after all these f*ckin years
i'll take deep breath looking at certain pictures
memories still keep bugging me
i wonder why
f*ck
i'll take deep breath looking at certain pictures
memories still keep bugging me
i wonder why
f*ck
Sunday, March 13, 2011
UNTITLED.....dah lama juga
mari,mari
kita berlari
lari jauh
mengikut hati
pada bulan di lontarkan batu
pada hati salurkan rindu
aku berkira hari demi hari
satu saat rasa terhenti
tiap saat aku terfikir
akan kewarasan minda, hati dan diri
benar sungguh aku rasa kaku
pada rasa yang buat ku membunuh
sayang aku pada tanah
kepakku mahu terbang, kaki ku bernanah
tebar aku segulung tikar
sujud aku niat beikrar
sungguh aku malu meminta
moga hati tenang, selesa dijiwa
ini untuk malam-malam tidur ku tak penuh
bangun mimpiku masih mengeluh
dalam hatiku cinta tak jenuh
kita berlari
lari jauh
mengikut hati
pada bulan di lontarkan batu
pada hati salurkan rindu
aku berkira hari demi hari
satu saat rasa terhenti
tiap saat aku terfikir
akan kewarasan minda, hati dan diri
benar sungguh aku rasa kaku
pada rasa yang buat ku membunuh
sayang aku pada tanah
kepakku mahu terbang, kaki ku bernanah
tebar aku segulung tikar
sujud aku niat beikrar
sungguh aku malu meminta
moga hati tenang, selesa dijiwa
ini untuk malam-malam tidur ku tak penuh
bangun mimpiku masih mengeluh
dalam hatiku cinta tak jenuh
Friday, March 11, 2011
UNTITLED....are u in Japan?
i got 8 misscalls
one of it was a foreign number
please dont tell me u're in Japan
God, I couldnt stop thinking the worst
please call me, txt me, fb me, or something
i cant call ur mom
sure she'll go nuts about me, or u, or us (we're just friends k)
i takut she thinks else and she'll be happy for a while, then when i say its nothing, she'll be sad again
my God,
i'm babling
pleaseeeeeeeeee
tell me u're not in Japan
God, tell me u're not in Japan
time aku tak bawak phone, time tu la benda cam ni nak jadi
i have the worst sick feeling in my stomach
ok
please
be safe
no matter where u are
GODDDD, just call me back k
u know how
ARGHHHHH...
P/S: this doesnt mean anything...dun get me wrong...its just me being worried about my frens, and u are my fren, so call me k.
one of it was a foreign number
please dont tell me u're in Japan
God, I couldnt stop thinking the worst
please call me, txt me, fb me, or something
i cant call ur mom
sure she'll go nuts about me, or u, or us (we're just friends k)
i takut she thinks else and she'll be happy for a while, then when i say its nothing, she'll be sad again
my God,
i'm babling
pleaseeeeeeeeee
tell me u're not in Japan
God, tell me u're not in Japan
time aku tak bawak phone, time tu la benda cam ni nak jadi
i have the worst sick feeling in my stomach
ok
please
be safe
no matter where u are
GODDDD, just call me back k
u know how
ARGHHHHH...
P/S: this doesnt mean anything...dun get me wrong...its just me being worried about my frens, and u are my fren, so call me k.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
UNTITLED....nobody knows it but me
*u never fail to make me smile*
i'm alone
in the office
duffy's playing
doing my task
a bit of fb
then
ur txt came in
Mecca, 2am.
*u never fail to make me smile*
i'm alone
in the office
duffy's playing
doing my task
a bit of fb
then
ur txt came in
Mecca, 2am.
*u never fail to make me smile*
Monday, March 7, 2011
UNTITLED....it so beautiful
i saw the picture
its beautiful
u must be at peace
i wish i can be there
maybe one day
its beautiful
so beautiful
u take care
jgn lupa alas perut
take rest
and God bless
=)
*i wish to write you an email, but i dunno what to write. I'm just glad you txt me*
its beautiful
u must be at peace
i wish i can be there
maybe one day
its beautiful
so beautiful
u take care
jgn lupa alas perut
take rest
and God bless
=)
*i wish to write you an email, but i dunno what to write. I'm just glad you txt me*
Sunday, March 6, 2011
TIDAK BERTAJUK....kalau saya bertutur dalam bahasa melayu
'aku nak balik pejabat jap...'
ayat ini penyebab aku jadi bahan
'saya nak tempah, boleh?'
ayat ini pun penyebab aku jadi bahan
hanya sebab aku guna perkataan 'pejabat' dan 'tempah'
orang melayu sendiri gelakkan aku
bila aku bertanya, kenapa gelakkan aku,
mereka bilang
'mana ada orang guna perkataan tu. plus, kalau dengar, kelakar....'
huh?
'orang skang guna ofis'
'orang tak guna tempah, just say i wanna order for tomorrow'
keliru aku, sungguh keliru
masa aku kecil
aku diejek
rambut aku kerinting,
mata aku coklat
kalau orang pantas bercakap bahasa melayu dengan aku,
aku lansung tak faham
darjah dua, aku masih tak tahu eja lori
masa aku remaja
aku kena bahan
kalau tak tahu masak lemak cili api, kena cemuh dalam kelas
aku panggil kuih keria, kuih donut - makcik kantin kecoh satu sekolah aku tak tahu nama kuih
ya, aku tak tahu banyak
tapi itu bukan penyebab untuk orang melayu sendiri gelakkan orang dia
aku melayu
mungkin separuh
mungkin penuh
apa yang boleh kamu semua hakimi kalau orang itu melayu atau tidak?
dari segi bahasa?
tata tertib?
pakaian?
agama?
suara lantang?
sawa matang?
mata bulat?
rambut ikal mayang?
maaf aku terlampau marah
dari kecil, sampai hari ini
kaum aku sendiri gelakkan aku
aku tak faham
satu ketika dulu aku memakai baju kebaya hitam
nenek aku bilang
"cantiknya cucu aku pakai kebaya, betul cantik"
aku bangga
selalu aku pakai baju lain, tak pernah nenekku puji
atuk angkat aku suruh aku pakai selendang
"cucu kena pakai seledang,tahu. baru nampak ayu"
konsert pertama aku,
konsert keroncong hetty koes endang,
dibawa oleh ibu ku
aku tidak lagi memperkenalkan diriku, kepada mereka yang baru, dengan nama panggilan syasya
aku mahu mereka panggil aku aisyah
maksud aisyah ialah
orang yang hidup bahagia
aku bangga ada nama sebegitu rupa
dan ini pesan ayah aku juga
adakah kalau muka aku lebih cenderung ke arah keturunan bugis melaka aku, kamu semua tak memperlekehkan aku?
maaf
aku memang dalam keadaan marah
lebih marah
bila yang tegur dan gelakkan aku itu suka berbicara pasal isu melayu
mereka sayangkan bangsa mereka
tetapi gaya, ada masa, tidak kena
*sekali lagi, aisyah mohon maaf kalau ada yang tersinggung/marah/makan hati akan penulisan aisyah*
saya sangat sayangkan semua
keturunan, keluarga
bangsa dan agama
dan saya masih belajar
ingin belajar
paling penting, memahami
ayat ini penyebab aku jadi bahan
'saya nak tempah, boleh?'
ayat ini pun penyebab aku jadi bahan
hanya sebab aku guna perkataan 'pejabat' dan 'tempah'
orang melayu sendiri gelakkan aku
bila aku bertanya, kenapa gelakkan aku,
mereka bilang
'mana ada orang guna perkataan tu. plus, kalau dengar, kelakar....'
huh?
'orang skang guna ofis'
'orang tak guna tempah, just say i wanna order for tomorrow'
keliru aku, sungguh keliru
masa aku kecil
aku diejek
rambut aku kerinting,
mata aku coklat
kalau orang pantas bercakap bahasa melayu dengan aku,
aku lansung tak faham
darjah dua, aku masih tak tahu eja lori
masa aku remaja
aku kena bahan
kalau tak tahu masak lemak cili api, kena cemuh dalam kelas
aku panggil kuih keria, kuih donut - makcik kantin kecoh satu sekolah aku tak tahu nama kuih
ya, aku tak tahu banyak
tapi itu bukan penyebab untuk orang melayu sendiri gelakkan orang dia
aku melayu
mungkin separuh
mungkin penuh
apa yang boleh kamu semua hakimi kalau orang itu melayu atau tidak?
dari segi bahasa?
tata tertib?
pakaian?
agama?
suara lantang?
sawa matang?
mata bulat?
rambut ikal mayang?
maaf aku terlampau marah
dari kecil, sampai hari ini
kaum aku sendiri gelakkan aku
aku tak faham
satu ketika dulu aku memakai baju kebaya hitam
nenek aku bilang
"cantiknya cucu aku pakai kebaya, betul cantik"
aku bangga
selalu aku pakai baju lain, tak pernah nenekku puji
atuk angkat aku suruh aku pakai selendang
"cucu kena pakai seledang,tahu. baru nampak ayu"
konsert pertama aku,
konsert keroncong hetty koes endang,
dibawa oleh ibu ku
aku tidak lagi memperkenalkan diriku, kepada mereka yang baru, dengan nama panggilan syasya
aku mahu mereka panggil aku aisyah
maksud aisyah ialah
orang yang hidup bahagia
aku bangga ada nama sebegitu rupa
dan ini pesan ayah aku juga
adakah kalau muka aku lebih cenderung ke arah keturunan bugis melaka aku, kamu semua tak memperlekehkan aku?
maaf
aku memang dalam keadaan marah
lebih marah
bila yang tegur dan gelakkan aku itu suka berbicara pasal isu melayu
mereka sayangkan bangsa mereka
tetapi gaya, ada masa, tidak kena
*sekali lagi, aisyah mohon maaf kalau ada yang tersinggung/marah/makan hati akan penulisan aisyah*
saya sangat sayangkan semua
keturunan, keluarga
bangsa dan agama
dan saya masih belajar
ingin belajar
paling penting, memahami
Friday, March 4, 2011
UNTITLED...there's so many things i wanted to say, but i just cant
today
i had lunch with my fren
dunno how
the chatting becomes a subject about u
i didnt say much
i didnt explain much
but i put it in a nutshell the story of us
just few sentences
she had tears in her eyes
belive it or not
she had tears in her eyes listening to my story
about us
which i just briefly explain
in about 5mins
without going into details
"its so saddddddd..." she cried
i just look at her
i dunno what to react
cos i dah immune
so i just buat muka beda/selamba/bodo/dee
"things happen for a reason..." i said
yup,
most definately
things happen for a reason
if you ask me all the love story that i had
i swear to God,
nothing beats my story
every single relationship
nothing beats one another
sometimes i just wonder where did i put my heart at
*wonders*
i had lunch with my fren
dunno how
the chatting becomes a subject about u
i didnt say much
i didnt explain much
but i put it in a nutshell the story of us
just few sentences
she had tears in her eyes
belive it or not
she had tears in her eyes listening to my story
about us
which i just briefly explain
in about 5mins
without going into details
"its so saddddddd..." she cried
i just look at her
i dunno what to react
cos i dah immune
so i just buat muka beda/selamba/bodo/dee
"things happen for a reason..." i said
yup,
most definately
things happen for a reason
if you ask me all the love story that i had
i swear to God,
nothing beats my story
every single relationship
nothing beats one another
sometimes i just wonder where did i put my heart at
*wonders*
UNTITLED....i love
i love to bite baby's cheeck
i love to steal my mom's shoe
i love to dance in the rain
i love to breath in the smell of fresh cut grass
i love to sing
i love to dance
i love to smell other people's perfume
i love to roll my eyes
i love to see how muffins are being bake
i love the smell of coffee during rain
i love you
yes you, who ever reading this
you maybe a girl from jamaica
you maybe a 45year old guy reading randomly my blog
i love you
and dont forget
to love yourself too=)
love is the ultimate power
even if you're alone in the universe, like me
even if you're alone in the office, like me
just love yourself
and the universe will follow you
=)
i love to steal my mom's shoe
i love to dance in the rain
i love to breath in the smell of fresh cut grass
i love to sing
i love to dance
i love to smell other people's perfume
i love to roll my eyes
i love to see how muffins are being bake
i love the smell of coffee during rain
i love you
yes you, who ever reading this
you maybe a girl from jamaica
you maybe a 45year old guy reading randomly my blog
i love you
and dont forget
to love yourself too=)
love is the ultimate power
even if you're alone in the universe, like me
even if you're alone in the office, like me
just love yourself
and the universe will follow you
=)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
UNTITLED....pee-ka-but
hi,
its me again
miss me?
i thought so too
funny thing is that,
some of my frens txt me, asking how come i havent blog no more
wow
never expect people were to read about me
hey, its just about me
me and my daily dosage of life, love, family, frens
perspective of life
so...
wat do u wanna hear?
work?
i got into a new place in moint kiara
awesome stuff,
been happy, its been long since i like/working/passion about something that i do for money
guitar?
i put it on hold, financially not enough. i've been supporting my sis a-level and education nowadays is not cheap. but the value, is priceless. so i dont mind putting on hold what i love, who i love and care i must put them 1st
family?
been great...i miss my granma, but all she can ask around is, who's i'm dating -_-"
love?
hmmm...actually, u can categories me as single but not available. i dunno where did i put my heart. its lost somewhere. things happen for a reason.
him?
there's a malay saying "kalau jodoh ada, Insyallah" (if God's willing and its fated, it will be there). lets just say due to certain subject we cant be together, for the time being. how ever, i do believe time is running out for me.
life?
i'm quite happy. been listening to a lot of jazz. having time on my own. self discovery. having my own bucketlist and trying to achieve it.
frens?
they rock....my frens, they all rock...i love them to the max....how do i know they love me back? well, if i were to be quite, max 1 week, they would surely call to see wassup. i love them
health?
doing fine. still have a lil flame with me. last migrane was on the 20th feb. i'm 55kg still though. n somehow, i'm happy with it.
life's been beautiful...supple, but yet there's something thrilling about it
and yes, i've been reading
reading?
aisyah reads?
yes, aisyah's been reading
i miss my coffee
but the last time i had one was i cant even remember when
that shows how long i've stop on my cuppa
in the morning when i wake up, i'll take me 10mins to get up
i'll think
and have thoughts
in the car
when i drove back
i'll think
and have thoughts
it seems that i'm getting old
mature and wiser is what my surroundings are stating
no, i'm just learning
and still
learning life
i'm trying to find money
and slash one of my bucketlist
to go umrah
in 2/3 years in time
Amin
hope God's willing
and i know Allah loves me
and faith have kept me alive and always will be
=)
my life is supple...yet, thrilling
its me again
miss me?
i thought so too
funny thing is that,
some of my frens txt me, asking how come i havent blog no more
wow
never expect people were to read about me
hey, its just about me
me and my daily dosage of life, love, family, frens
perspective of life
so...
wat do u wanna hear?
work?
i got into a new place in moint kiara
awesome stuff,
been happy, its been long since i like/working/passion about something that i do for money
guitar?
i put it on hold, financially not enough. i've been supporting my sis a-level and education nowadays is not cheap. but the value, is priceless. so i dont mind putting on hold what i love, who i love and care i must put them 1st
family?
been great...i miss my granma, but all she can ask around is, who's i'm dating -_-"
love?
hmmm...actually, u can categories me as single but not available. i dunno where did i put my heart. its lost somewhere. things happen for a reason.
him?
there's a malay saying "kalau jodoh ada, Insyallah" (if God's willing and its fated, it will be there). lets just say due to certain subject we cant be together, for the time being. how ever, i do believe time is running out for me.
life?
i'm quite happy. been listening to a lot of jazz. having time on my own. self discovery. having my own bucketlist and trying to achieve it.
frens?
they rock....my frens, they all rock...i love them to the max....how do i know they love me back? well, if i were to be quite, max 1 week, they would surely call to see wassup. i love them
health?
doing fine. still have a lil flame with me. last migrane was on the 20th feb. i'm 55kg still though. n somehow, i'm happy with it.
life's been beautiful...supple, but yet there's something thrilling about it
and yes, i've been reading
reading?
aisyah reads?
yes, aisyah's been reading
i miss my coffee
but the last time i had one was i cant even remember when
that shows how long i've stop on my cuppa
in the morning when i wake up, i'll take me 10mins to get up
i'll think
and have thoughts
in the car
when i drove back
i'll think
and have thoughts
it seems that i'm getting old
mature and wiser is what my surroundings are stating
no, i'm just learning
and still
learning life
i'm trying to find money
and slash one of my bucketlist
to go umrah
in 2/3 years in time
Amin
hope God's willing
and i know Allah loves me
and faith have kept me alive and always will be
=)
my life is supple...yet, thrilling
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
UNTITLED....I AM IN LOVEEEEEEEEE......
fucking shit i am not kidding
i am seriously loving this cover and these two gifted guys
fucking shit no kidding
fuck shit
shit fuck
*aisyah tend to swear when men makes her nervous*
-___-"
i am in loveeeeeeee.......
*plays her guitar*
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
UNTITLED.....apa kabar org kg?
4th jan 2010
dang...that long huh?
busy?
lets see
i've been busy with my work
seeing a lot of frens
have unexpected spontaneous event
go to here
went there
been all around
now?
current at UM's library
at 5pm going to play badminton with my besties
wow?
hahahahah...
nowadays i just dun plan
i even got to see the lastest movie by getting free tckts
got present for christmas
going to many,many,many cafe to eat and explore
got a gig but turn it down
went back to banting
got a new kitten,me moms new 'daughter'
become an mc at a student council
and many more
i'm still at 55kg though
and the boobs getting most of the attention
-_-"
its just boobs
stupid over rated boobs
watodo
tralalalala...
oh ya,
Happy New Year!
dang,that long huh?
=)
dang...that long huh?
busy?
lets see
i've been busy with my work
seeing a lot of frens
have unexpected spontaneous event
go to here
went there
been all around
now?
current at UM's library
at 5pm going to play badminton with my besties
wow?
hahahahah...
nowadays i just dun plan
i even got to see the lastest movie by getting free tckts
got present for christmas
going to many,many,many cafe to eat and explore
got a gig but turn it down
went back to banting
got a new kitten,me moms new 'daughter'
become an mc at a student council
and many more
i'm still at 55kg though
and the boobs getting most of the attention
-_-"
its just boobs
stupid over rated boobs
watodo
tralalalala...
oh ya,
Happy New Year!
dang,that long huh?
=)
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
UNTITLED...heartless
i dunt feel anything no more
whats wrong with me?
hmmm....
one day i'll understand
yup..
most definitely
a bigger picture
whats wrong with me?
hmmm....
one day i'll understand
yup..
most definitely
a bigger picture
Monday, November 22, 2010
UNTITLED....2 weeks of no news
yup....2 weeks of no lepaking and no hangouts
no update, no news
well
below is some
1.got admitted into the hosp and had minor surgery on my neck...found a lump, bacterial growth it seems
2. still worn out with work, trying my best to give it my best although its wearing me out (sounds like a riddle)
3. watched harry potter last sunday
4. bought another black dress =)
5. went for a pt job interview but unfortunately didnt get it. watodo
6. been drinking a lot of green tea, replacement of my coffee. sad thing is that, the coffee effects has taken a tremendous toll on my body
7. clean out my room and i've thrown away a lot of 'memories' and the best freaking thing is, it didnt have any effects on me any more.awesome!
8. had my 'gift' read again and now 'they' say i have to carry out my 'responsibility' of being a 'gifted' one.
9. looking forward to many things in the future, cos i've put it on hold. hope to see it up and running.
10. baby is with me, sharing each adventure.
damn i feel lucky rite now
although my life kinda sucks in many ways,
there's still a flower among those thorns
fuck up freaking awesome =)
no update, no news
well
below is some
1.got admitted into the hosp and had minor surgery on my neck...found a lump, bacterial growth it seems
2. still worn out with work, trying my best to give it my best although its wearing me out (sounds like a riddle)
3. watched harry potter last sunday
4. bought another black dress =)
5. went for a pt job interview but unfortunately didnt get it. watodo
6. been drinking a lot of green tea, replacement of my coffee. sad thing is that, the coffee effects has taken a tremendous toll on my body
7. clean out my room and i've thrown away a lot of 'memories' and the best freaking thing is, it didnt have any effects on me any more.awesome!
8. had my 'gift' read again and now 'they' say i have to carry out my 'responsibility' of being a 'gifted' one.
9. looking forward to many things in the future, cos i've put it on hold. hope to see it up and running.
10. baby is with me, sharing each adventure.
damn i feel lucky rite now
although my life kinda sucks in many ways,
there's still a flower among those thorns
fuck up freaking awesome =)
Friday, November 19, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
UNTITLED...niat, usaha, doa, tawakal
beautiful song, i must say
i dont want no fairytale,
i want an adventure
=)
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
UNTITLED.....every now and then
every now and then
you would check up my blog
rite baby?
i just caught u reading this
=P
just wanted to say i really miss you
really really really trizziliooonnnn really miss you
*aisyah tgh gelabah*
-_-"
baru dua hari tak jumpa dah gelabah
*slap*
watodo
the picture above is taken when we 1st went out for our lunch date together...so tell me...when is the next time you'll be spending at least a half day with me (all to myslef)?
the jb one in dec doesnt count k..=P
so tell me when?
i'm getting pretty annoyed that the public get to spend more time with you then myself
susah betul dating ngan 'public figure' ni...
ayoyoyoyo....
=P
hohoho...
and you better set a date with me k!
UNTITLED...i just lost a fren...i think
he got into a car accident
he died at the sidewalk
at the funeral
nobody came
funny
he's a famous chap
very famous
yup he got lots of 'frens'
thats for sure
but nobody came to his funeral
and i did
just because he 'used' to be my fren
used to
y?
he used to listen how the wind blows
he used to smell the cutting grass
he used to play in the rain
he used to walk bare feet
and let the seashores runs through his feet
he used to
but now he dont
at least he dont, no more
"oh...grow up aisyah...people change!'
this is what he shouted to me when i told him he'd changed
yup
he changed alright
RESPONSIBILITY
the one word
the reason he said he'd changed
funny....
he grew up alright
he become an educated fool
only to have money in his mind
get the latest gadget
buy the most expensive toys
wear the most branded things
eat the most luxurious food
and with this, he claim
he feel he's at 'home'
funny.....
i used to be his 'home'
he changed alright
and that whats keeping us apart
and when i came to his funeral
and bought along sunflowers
his mother cried
and said
"he used to love those..."
and may i remind you readers again
is the word 'used to...'
sit back and think...if you died, who would come to your funeral, who would actually cried or shed real tears for you...
*figures*
i know u'll be reading this,fren
dont get lost
just find your way back
back to your home
where ever it is
he died at the sidewalk
at the funeral
nobody came
funny
he's a famous chap
very famous
yup he got lots of 'frens'
thats for sure
but nobody came to his funeral
and i did
just because he 'used' to be my fren
used to
y?
he used to listen how the wind blows
he used to smell the cutting grass
he used to play in the rain
he used to walk bare feet
and let the seashores runs through his feet
he used to
but now he dont
at least he dont, no more
"oh...grow up aisyah...people change!'
this is what he shouted to me when i told him he'd changed
yup
he changed alright
RESPONSIBILITY
the one word
the reason he said he'd changed
funny....
he grew up alright
he become an educated fool
only to have money in his mind
get the latest gadget
buy the most expensive toys
wear the most branded things
eat the most luxurious food
and with this, he claim
he feel he's at 'home'
funny.....
i used to be his 'home'
he changed alright
and that whats keeping us apart
and when i came to his funeral
and bought along sunflowers
his mother cried
and said
"he used to love those..."
and may i remind you readers again
is the word 'used to...'
sit back and think...if you died, who would come to your funeral, who would actually cried or shed real tears for you...
*figures*
i know u'll be reading this,fren
dont get lost
just find your way back
back to your home
where ever it is
Friday, October 29, 2010
UNTITLED...dear baby
Dear Baby,
U know i never ask anything from you...
but can i have him as my pet? <--aisyah making puppy eyes
pretty pleaseeeeeeeee
love,
sayang
this is Boo
geramnyeeeeee....
*gigit*
UNTITLED...big bum-bum
remember the little black dress that i mention in the previous blog
well
i wish its not little, no more
why?
i tried it on yesterday
just to see
as its been inside my closet for 6 month, since i bought it
and my bum-bum cant fit in it, no more
-_-"
al-la-mak
a-yo-yo-yo-yo
bleahhhhh
*eats her beef bacon*
well
i wish its not little, no more
why?
i tried it on yesterday
just to see
as its been inside my closet for 6 month, since i bought it
and my bum-bum cant fit in it, no more
-_-"
al-la-mak
a-yo-yo-yo-yo
bleahhhhh
*eats her beef bacon*
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
UNTITLED...jazz jazzy jazz
finally
i can wear my black dress next week
yay!
i bought it 6 month ago
but never got the chance to wear it
-_-"
but now
i do
me gonna meet mr davis
with my baby
for a jazz nite
yay!
FREAKIN AWEASOMEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
=)
Monday, October 25, 2010
UNTITLED...a piece of advise 2
to those who wish to be love again
if you have skeletons in the closet
and cant share it with your partner
then she/he is not your better half
if you still have feelings towards your ex
and cant seem to shake it off
then she/he is not your soul mate
if you ask your partner to trust in you
but you still keep things behind her/his back
then she/he is not your wife/husband-to-be
if you tell her/him
that she/he is your everything
but you make plans on your own
then she/he is not the mother/father to your child
if you put her/him alongside your friends
not in your family
then she/him is not your heart
if you tell her/him that sometime
somewhere, you need time just for yourself
and dont want to be bothered
then she/him is not your love
i advise all
to share everything with your better half/love/partner
and when i say everything
means
EVERYTHING
it works for me
=)
from day 1,
i wanted to start a relationship with him
i told him the truth
and shared everything with him
no dark secrets
=)
and he love me for who i am
now tell me
isnt that just awesome
=)
I love you baby
as much as you love me too
and word just cant discribe how beautiful you are
=)
if you have skeletons in the closet
and cant share it with your partner
then she/he is not your better half
if you still have feelings towards your ex
and cant seem to shake it off
then she/he is not your soul mate
if you ask your partner to trust in you
but you still keep things behind her/his back
then she/he is not your wife/husband-to-be
if you tell her/him
that she/he is your everything
but you make plans on your own
then she/he is not the mother/father to your child
if you put her/him alongside your friends
not in your family
then she/him is not your heart
if you tell her/him that sometime
somewhere, you need time just for yourself
and dont want to be bothered
then she/him is not your love
i advise all
to share everything with your better half/love/partner
and when i say everything
means
EVERYTHING
it works for me
=)
from day 1,
i wanted to start a relationship with him
i told him the truth
and shared everything with him
no dark secrets
=)
and he love me for who i am
now tell me
isnt that just awesome
=)
I love you baby
as much as you love me too
and word just cant discribe how beautiful you are
=)
UNTITLED...define definition
one-
can you, please define the word love?
two-
please, can u find the definition of the word love?
its the same old thing isnt it?
think again...
if you're inside the car
and a song plays
and all u can think about is him
is that love?
if you're walking down the street
and you notice a thing
which doesnt even related to him
but somehow it remind you of him
is that love?
if you have the courage
to ask the permission of your mother
and your granma
for you and him to have a blessed relationship
is that love?
if you pray to God The Almighty
in each words
Hopes and dreams
to be with him together
is that love?
if long for his voice
to see his face
and look into his eyes
even for a minute
is that love?
if you can find every topic in the world
to talk and gossip with your bestie
but only to be found
that in the end
all you can talk about is him
is that love?
if you try so hard to be a better person
to make him smile
and know that you can make him happy
is that love?
if you suddenly smile
in your mind, your heart, your soul
he makes you giggle, makes you feel happy
is that love?
i've been in love...
yes...
several of times...
and each one of them give me the goosebumps
its kinda the same, in a way
all of my ex, they make me happy at certain period of time
its the same old thing isnt it?
think again...
this guy,
my baby,
is different
i dunno how to explain it
but seriously
its different
Fatimah, my bestie, who has been with me throughout 4 of my ex-relationship, notice a difference in me
today she came and visit me
we lepak at the green coffee
me having my coffee, and she's having her frapp
at one moment
i just smiled at her
and she smiled back
in my mind was you
but i didnt say anything to her
and yet, its like she could read my mind
'aisyah, you're different now....in a good way =)'
she said
and i realise it
but i couldnt put it in words
if i can explain how much this guy make me feel
i could have
if i can write what this guy have done to me
i would have
if i can define the word love that i have for him
i should have
no words can discribe this feelings
no songs can define this meanings
no emotions can potray this dealings
I'M IN LOVE
and its as simple as
can you, please define the word love?
two-
please, can u find the definition of the word love?
its the same old thing isnt it?
think again...
if you're inside the car
and a song plays
and all u can think about is him
is that love?
if you're walking down the street
and you notice a thing
which doesnt even related to him
but somehow it remind you of him
is that love?
if you have the courage
to ask the permission of your mother
and your granma
for you and him to have a blessed relationship
is that love?
if you pray to God The Almighty
in each words
Hopes and dreams
to be with him together
is that love?
if long for his voice
to see his face
and look into his eyes
even for a minute
is that love?
if you can find every topic in the world
to talk and gossip with your bestie
but only to be found
that in the end
all you can talk about is him
is that love?
if you try so hard to be a better person
to make him smile
and know that you can make him happy
is that love?
if you suddenly smile
in your mind, your heart, your soul
he makes you giggle, makes you feel happy
is that love?
i've been in love...
yes...
several of times...
and each one of them give me the goosebumps
its kinda the same, in a way
all of my ex, they make me happy at certain period of time
its the same old thing isnt it?
think again...
this guy,
my baby,
is different
i dunno how to explain it
but seriously
its different
Fatimah, my bestie, who has been with me throughout 4 of my ex-relationship, notice a difference in me
today she came and visit me
we lepak at the green coffee
me having my coffee, and she's having her frapp
at one moment
i just smiled at her
and she smiled back
in my mind was you
but i didnt say anything to her
and yet, its like she could read my mind
'aisyah, you're different now....in a good way =)'
she said
and i realise it
but i couldnt put it in words
if i can explain how much this guy make me feel
i could have
if i can write what this guy have done to me
i would have
if i can define the word love that i have for him
i should have
no words can discribe this feelings
no songs can define this meanings
no emotions can potray this dealings
I'M IN LOVE
and its as simple as
UNTITLED...freaking
1.tuesday last week- went to paramore concert with my frens
IT WAS FREAKING AWEASOMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
2.wednesday last week- went to watch PLUCK with my baby
IT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUSSSSSSS!!!!
3.sunday last week- went window shopping @ mid vall with my bestie
IT WAS FREAKING NICEEEEEEEEE!!!!
4.giving certain period of day last week- slept like nobody's bussiness
IT WAS FREAKING GOODDDDDD!!!!!
5.saturday nite last week- lepak @ home with my sis didi and my bestie fatimah
IT WAS FREAKING GIRL'S NITE OUTTTTTTTTT!!!!
6.thursday last week- went to ikea, ikano, the curve
IT WAS FREAKING HAPPYYYYYY!!!!!!
=P
a fren ask me
'aisyah, ur lastest pic babe, dah lame tak nengok ko...'
ermm....famous sgt ke aku smpi org nak tahu perkembangan semasa diriku ini
*masuk dlm guni, campak dlm laut*
well...jeng-jeng-jeng
i admit
i have put on some weight
some?
erm...55kg and counting and my bottom's....lets just say its expanding every minute
this pic was taken as i was window shopping around to find new flava to my wardrobe
and damnnnn...
me liky the skirt
its topshop btw
and its in my list to buy
hohohohoho <--ketawa jahat tapi comel
yay!
IT WAS FREAKING AWEASOMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
2.wednesday last week- went to watch PLUCK with my baby
IT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUSSSSSSS!!!!
3.sunday last week- went window shopping @ mid vall with my bestie
IT WAS FREAKING NICEEEEEEEEE!!!!
4.giving certain period of day last week- slept like nobody's bussiness
IT WAS FREAKING GOODDDDDD!!!!!
5.saturday nite last week- lepak @ home with my sis didi and my bestie fatimah
IT WAS FREAKING GIRL'S NITE OUTTTTTTTTT!!!!
6.thursday last week- went to ikea, ikano, the curve
IT WAS FREAKING HAPPYYYYYY!!!!!!
=P
a fren ask me
'aisyah, ur lastest pic babe, dah lame tak nengok ko...'
ermm....famous sgt ke aku smpi org nak tahu perkembangan semasa diriku ini
*masuk dlm guni, campak dlm laut*
well...jeng-jeng-jeng
i admit
i have put on some weight
some?
erm...55kg and counting and my bottom's....lets just say its expanding every minute
this pic was taken as i was window shopping around to find new flava to my wardrobe
and damnnnn...
me liky the skirt
its topshop btw
and its in my list to buy
hohohohoho <--ketawa jahat tapi comel
ADVENTURE IS OUT THERE!!!!!!!
yay!
Friday, October 22, 2010
UNTITLED...harloooo
last time i came online was sunday
and today is friday
hohohoho
wow...
its been awhile huh
got email to
and today is friday
hohohoho
wow...
its been awhile huh
got email to
Friday, October 15, 2010
UNTITLED...u readers out there
i am quite surprise who actually reads my blog
ya
i mean, i dont really expect people to read this
but you know
if people, my friends, were to come up to me and told me that they read my blog
i'll be like
'my God, why are u reading it...its nothing, its like, u know, stupid...dont read it'
me: being shy of what i wrote and what i think
but the answer that they would give it that
"u blog it...u post it up...obviously u want people to read...its there for a reason, its for people to read"
-_-"
kinda true also
i mean,
i post up things, just for the heck of it
for fun
so yeah
thanks
i really appreciate it
i mean
it surprises me a lot to know
or accidentally catch my friends who reads it
but yeah
thank you
=)
i guess u'll be reading this also
to who ever is out there....
I LAP YOU (in aisyah's term, she love and appriciate u readers out there)
Thanks =)
ya
i mean, i dont really expect people to read this
but you know
if people, my friends, were to come up to me and told me that they read my blog
i'll be like
'my God, why are u reading it...its nothing, its like, u know, stupid...dont read it'
me: being shy of what i wrote and what i think
but the answer that they would give it that
"u blog it...u post it up...obviously u want people to read...its there for a reason, its for people to read"
-_-"
kinda true also
i mean,
i post up things, just for the heck of it
for fun
so yeah
thanks
i really appreciate it
i mean
it surprises me a lot to know
or accidentally catch my friends who reads it
but yeah
thank you
=)
i guess u'll be reading this also
to who ever is out there....
I LAP YOU (in aisyah's term, she love and appriciate u readers out there)
Thanks =)
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
UNTITLED...gigitttttt...
I WANTZ RABBITZZZZZZZ!!!!!
*gerammmmmm*
*gigitttt*
akan ku salai buat satay
*gerammmmmnyeeeee*
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
UNTITLED...me,myslef and i
1. puasa from coffee sudah masuk hari ke-5 (bagus aisyah,gambate!)
2. is having slight rashes and nose block as the food that i eat is not exactly what i'm suppose to consume (seafood rawks)
3. been listening to the radio, and she realise that sad songs doesnt effects her no more (yay!)
4.lazying enough to go to work due to not enough man power to support her (penat tahap gaban tuuu)
5. been sleeping a lot, no more insomia (wonder why, wink-wink)
6. having regular ribena and hash brown for breakfast (wonders of drive thru)
7. got a paramore concert to go to, a jazz show to attend, and a classical funny trio to watch (1, with my frens, the rest with my baby)
8. gotten her her 5th WHITE colour walking companion (i have a natural obsession with white shoes now)
9. is craving to eat ikea's hazelnut choc (droolsss)
10. tgh rindu tahap dewa langit ke-7 pada her baby (baru satu hari tak jumpa, dah gelabah)
and he just txted me again....just now
=)
2. is having slight rashes and nose block as the food that i eat is not exactly what i'm suppose to consume (seafood rawks)
3. been listening to the radio, and she realise that sad songs doesnt effects her no more (yay!)
4.lazying enough to go to work due to not enough man power to support her (penat tahap gaban tuuu)
5. been sleeping a lot, no more insomia (wonder why, wink-wink)
6. having regular ribena and hash brown for breakfast (wonders of drive thru)
7. got a paramore concert to go to, a jazz show to attend, and a classical funny trio to watch (1, with my frens, the rest with my baby)
8. gotten her her 5th WHITE colour walking companion (i have a natural obsession with white shoes now)
9. is craving to eat ikea's hazelnut choc (droolsss)
10. tgh rindu tahap dewa langit ke-7 pada her baby (baru satu hari tak jumpa, dah gelabah)
and he just txted me again....just now
=)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
UNTITLED...for those who ask
we have nothing in common
he likes to read, i'll burn books
he likes to clean, i'll toss brooms
he likes to plan, i'll throw the schedule
he likes it simple, i'll make it complicated
he likes to sit and talk, i'll try to run and shout
he likes to be rational, i'll make him go crazy
he likes it sweet things, i'll create a mad stuff
he's cute and cuddly
he's my baby
he's Syed Ibrahimsha,
and again
he's my baby
how i meet him?
dia 'tukang kutip hutang' di tempat keja aku dulu=P
how we hook up?
i ask him out for lunch. but before lunch came, he ask me out for dinner and tea time
how are we doing so far?
words cant describe it, but my smiles give it away
so....
the cat's outta da bag
whats next?
Adventure is out there!!!!!!
=P
Friday, October 8, 2010
UNTITLED...8th Oct 2010
the devil came barging in with madness today
he shouted and scream
as he was defeated with his own deadly sin
'give me back my claim!!!'
'what claim?'
'your breath...my claim!!!'
'my breath??....u took it already'
'NOOOOO...it seems that its now in your possession...give it back!'
'its not with me'
'yes its with you, we had a deal (refer to post 19 sept 2010)....now give it back!'
'for pete's sake, i dont have it'
*devil looking confuse*
'if its not with you...then where is it?'
*me smiling*
'he took it already...he took my breath away....'
devil : fuck shit =(
me : hell yeah =)
my baby....he's the one who took my breath away
=)
*blushed*
3.25am
he shouted and scream
as he was defeated with his own deadly sin
'give me back my claim!!!'
'what claim?'
'your breath...my claim!!!'
'my breath??....u took it already'
'NOOOOO...it seems that its now in your possession...give it back!'
'its not with me'
'yes its with you, we had a deal (refer to post 19 sept 2010)....now give it back!'
'for pete's sake, i dont have it'
*devil looking confuse*
'if its not with you...then where is it?'
*me smiling*
'he took it already...he took my breath away....'
devil : fuck shit =(
me : hell yeah =)
my baby....he's the one who took my breath away
=)
"i'll be captivated*plays her guitar*
i'll hang from your lips"
"I'll be the greatest fan of your life..."
*blushed*
3.25am
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
UNTITLED...the person behind the wheel
in my car
i like to sit and think
cause that is the only time i have time for myself
when the driving ends,
the destination is reached,
i got out,
i become a daughter
a sister
a grandchild
a manager
a student
a best gf
a pet sister
and many more
most of my thoughts goes with the memories of the past
the determination of future
the reality of the present
i tend to cry
tend to smile
tend to be grateful
tend to be hateful
tend to be angry
full of emotions
that sits in my heart and head
while driving inside my car
but the routine breaks
as i had now found myself
bursting with giggles
smiling once in a while
thinking of happy thoughts
and nothing more
why is this so?
only God knows what inside my heart
and i believe that my surroundings can see it to
I'M IN LOVE
only a blind man cant see that
=P
and now when i get out of that kelisa
i can add the list above
a sayang
ahaksssss....
p/s: its 2.09am in the morning.....i just realise i left my phone inside the car, i called u at 1.04am just now after finishing work, but i'm sure u are half asleep, beautifully dreaming, and getting the proper rest that u need after a long day today =) sleep tight baby, i'll text u in the morning when i get to the car for college =)
i like to sit and think
cause that is the only time i have time for myself
when the driving ends,
the destination is reached,
i got out,
i become a daughter
a sister
a grandchild
a manager
a student
a best gf
a pet sister
and many more
most of my thoughts goes with the memories of the past
the determination of future
the reality of the present
i tend to cry
tend to smile
tend to be grateful
tend to be hateful
tend to be angry
full of emotions
that sits in my heart and head
while driving inside my car
but the routine breaks
as i had now found myself
bursting with giggles
smiling once in a while
thinking of happy thoughts
and nothing more
why is this so?
only God knows what inside my heart
and i believe that my surroundings can see it to
I'M IN LOVE
only a blind man cant see that
=P
and now when i get out of that kelisa
i can add the list above
a sayang
ahaksssss....
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side
p/s: its 2.09am in the morning.....i just realise i left my phone inside the car, i called u at 1.04am just now after finishing work, but i'm sure u are half asleep, beautifully dreaming, and getting the proper rest that u need after a long day today =) sleep tight baby, i'll text u in the morning when i get to the car for college =)
Friday, October 1, 2010
UNTITLED...pesan nenekku, aku berdoa
Aku hendak bercerita sedikit,
Tentang satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat akan satu doa yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan negatif yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan
Aku teramat ingat
Perasaan yang ada semasa aku ucapkan doa tersebut
Rasa kosong, sedih tak terhingga
Akan menyesal keadaan semasa
Dimana aku rasa sunyi,
Tak ada teman disisi,
Untuk bercerita suka duka, lara diri
Pada ketika itu,
Aku teringatkan nenek aku pernah bercerita
Akan dimana dia berniat
Akan dimana dia berdoa
Moga hati dia terbuka, untuk menerima si jejaka
Atuk ku datang, dia terima
Dan walau pada masa itu, neneku sudah dikira lanjut usia
Nenek kata berdoa sahaja
Ditanam dihati, bila disebut , jangan dipersia
Lalu pada masa itu,
Akan rasa sedih yang teramat, tidak terhingga
Dengan penuh kekesalan, penuh kusyuk,
Penuh niat, sepenuh hati
Aku menangis, berdoa kepada Dia
Doa nya berbunyi
Ya, itulah dia doa aku
Sungguh aku tak tipu, benar-benar aku berniat
Saat itu, aku memang sedih dan aku beringat
Aku doa sepenuh hati, memang ikhlas, niat buruk tiada
Cuma ingin rasa nikmat bercinta, tapi berlandaskan agama
Minggu yang sama,
Malam Jumaat itu, pergi makan bersama teman lama
Sudah dua tahun kenal, tapi tak pernah nak tahu akan lanjut berita
Pada malam itu juga
Telah aku saksikan
Betapa baik hatinya, ikhlas
Menasihat kawanku, dengan penuh berwibawa
Lalu aku tiba-tiba berkata
Bisik hatiku, mula bercerita
“baiknya dia….memang baik hatinya”
Esok hari ku menghantar adikku ke kolej
Adikku tiba-tiba ingin bertanya
Akan soalan mengenai Adam,
Apa perlu dibuat, kalau hati mahu si dia.
Aku pun bernasihat,
“kalau jumpa lelaki yg baik, tahu dia ikhlas dan indah budi perkertinya…kita Hawa harus terus bertanya, tak payah tunggu si dia. Kita mulakan, dan niat moga menjadi, Insyallah bersama”
Tetiba, ya, wajah si lelaki kawanku menjelma
Sungguhku terkejut, sungguh tidak disangka
Namun ku pendam, tidak mahu fikir apa-apa
Hari berlalu, tapi hatiku masih bertanya
Kalau aku mengajak si dia,
Mahukah dia terima? atau aku mungkin malu tak terhingga?
3 hari berlalu, pada Isnin berikutnya,
Aku pun teragak-agak
Lalu aku hentam terus mengajak
“Sudi tak mahu makan tengahari denganku, atau minum kopi bersamaku pada hujung minggu”
Bayangkan perasaanku,
Aduh malu kejap, takut dia buat tak tahu
Bila dia membalas…
=)
*aku tersenyum*
Itu saja yang mampu ku gambarkan perasaanku
Sedikit ada, memang aku keliru
Akan hati aku pada masa itu
Kami cuma berkawan,
Tapi hati riang, mahu sihat, mahu berkawan
Dan bila satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat doa itu yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan
Percaya atau tidak,
Dia sebenarnya minat juga kepadaku,
Dua tahun yang lalu
Cuma dia takut, dia malu,
Tak berani dekat dengaku
=)
Syukur aku, memang ku bersyukur
Allah telah buka pintu hatiku,
Untuk bertanya, dan sedikit berusaha
Niat ikhlas, doa tak mahu dipersia
=) Dan doa seterusnya adalah untuk sejahtera, kita berdua
Amin dan Syukur…..
Hasil tulisan Siti Aisyah bt. Mohd. Mokhtar, pada 2hb 10 2010, pada pukul 2.40pagi, di fikirannya hanya bersyukur pada Allah, di hatinya hanya cinta pada si dia =)
Tentang satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat akan satu doa yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan negatif yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan
Aku teramat ingat
Perasaan yang ada semasa aku ucapkan doa tersebut
Rasa kosong, sedih tak terhingga
Akan menyesal keadaan semasa
Dimana aku rasa sunyi,
Tak ada teman disisi,
Untuk bercerita suka duka, lara diri
Pada ketika itu,
Aku teringatkan nenek aku pernah bercerita
Akan dimana dia berniat
Akan dimana dia berdoa
Moga hati dia terbuka, untuk menerima si jejaka
Atuk ku datang, dia terima
Dan walau pada masa itu, neneku sudah dikira lanjut usia
Nenek kata berdoa sahaja
Ditanam dihati, bila disebut , jangan dipersia
Lalu pada masa itu,
Akan rasa sedih yang teramat, tidak terhingga
Dengan penuh kekesalan, penuh kusyuk,
Penuh niat, sepenuh hati
Aku menangis, berdoa kepada Dia
Doa nya berbunyi
“Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku. Tuhanku yg Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang. Aku panjatkan doa kepadaMu. Sepenuh hatiku, seikhlas nada sedihku. Aku telah berdosa dengan meletakkan seorang lelaki diatasMu. Dan bila aku berduka, putus, dia tiada, baru ku teringat akanMu, Tuhanku yang Satu. Memang aku tahu aku tidak layak setinggi mana. Aku malu berdoa kepadaMu, waktu susah sedih baru ku teringat akanMu. Tetapi dengan ini aku niat sepenuh hati ku. Aku pohon sepenuh sedih ku. Kalau la benar jodohku diluar sana, ada pun sungguh jodoh suami ku, aku berniat:
Aku tidak kisah asal-usulnya, harta-karunnya, tinggi benar pangkatnya. Aku berniat agar dia baik hati, terima aku seadanya. Ikhlas dia benar mencintai aku, menyanyangi aku dan keluargaku, ingin benar membimbingku ke jalanMu, lalu menjadikan aku isterinya yang satu, ayah yang baik kepada anak-anakku, contoh moyang teladan cantik kepada generasiku.
Diminta moga hatiku terbuka menerima dia. Dan bila aku mendapat dia sebagai suamiku, sesungguhnya, aku benar-benar berniat, bila dia memberi kurumah berteduh, aku ku jaga bersih rumah itu. Bila dia memberiku zuriat yang sihat, akanku didik mereka sebaik-baiknya. Bila dia beri aku cinta, akan ku jaga dia sehingga tamat usia.
Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku. Aku tidak kisah lelaki mana. Asalkan baik hatinya. Dan aku seorang cinta dihatinya”
Ya, itulah dia doa aku
Sungguh aku tak tipu, benar-benar aku berniat
Saat itu, aku memang sedih dan aku beringat
Aku doa sepenuh hati, memang ikhlas, niat buruk tiada
Cuma ingin rasa nikmat bercinta, tapi berlandaskan agama
Minggu yang sama,
Malam Jumaat itu, pergi makan bersama teman lama
Sudah dua tahun kenal, tapi tak pernah nak tahu akan lanjut berita
Pada malam itu juga
Telah aku saksikan
Betapa baik hatinya, ikhlas
Menasihat kawanku, dengan penuh berwibawa
Lalu aku tiba-tiba berkata
Bisik hatiku, mula bercerita
“baiknya dia….memang baik hatinya”
Esok hari ku menghantar adikku ke kolej
Adikku tiba-tiba ingin bertanya
Akan soalan mengenai Adam,
Apa perlu dibuat, kalau hati mahu si dia.
Aku pun bernasihat,
“kalau jumpa lelaki yg baik, tahu dia ikhlas dan indah budi perkertinya…kita Hawa harus terus bertanya, tak payah tunggu si dia. Kita mulakan, dan niat moga menjadi, Insyallah bersama”
Tetiba, ya, wajah si lelaki kawanku menjelma
Sungguhku terkejut, sungguh tidak disangka
Namun ku pendam, tidak mahu fikir apa-apa
Hari berlalu, tapi hatiku masih bertanya
Kalau aku mengajak si dia,
Mahukah dia terima? atau aku mungkin malu tak terhingga?
3 hari berlalu, pada Isnin berikutnya,
Aku pun teragak-agak
Lalu aku hentam terus mengajak
“Sudi tak mahu makan tengahari denganku, atau minum kopi bersamaku pada hujung minggu”
Bayangkan perasaanku,
Aduh malu kejap, takut dia buat tak tahu
Bila dia membalas…
=)
*aku tersenyum*
Itu saja yang mampu ku gambarkan perasaanku
Sedikit ada, memang aku keliru
Akan hati aku pada masa itu
Kami cuma berkawan,
Tapi hati riang, mahu sihat, mahu berkawan
Dan bila satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat doa itu yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan
Percaya atau tidak,
Dia sebenarnya minat juga kepadaku,
Dua tahun yang lalu
Cuma dia takut, dia malu,
Tak berani dekat dengaku
=)
Syukur aku, memang ku bersyukur
Allah telah buka pintu hatiku,
Untuk bertanya, dan sedikit berusaha
Niat ikhlas, doa tak mahu dipersia
=) Dan doa seterusnya adalah untuk sejahtera, kita berdua
Amin dan Syukur…..
Hasil tulisan Siti Aisyah bt. Mohd. Mokhtar, pada 2hb 10 2010, pada pukul 2.40pagi, di fikirannya hanya bersyukur pada Allah, di hatinya hanya cinta pada si dia =)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
UNTITLED...all shades of blue,certain shades of green
he likes all shades of blue, while i like certain shades of green
i am in love with jazz, while he's a fanatic of Hindustani's music
he is a clean freak, while me....lets just say sometimes u can find 2-days McD nugget inside my handbag
he order venti size, i'll go for tall
i like to go crazy, he like to pre-plan everything
he likes an adventure holiday, i like beach-relaxing-nothing to do vacation
he's a mommy's boy, i'm a daddy's girl
he's a rational thinker, i'm an emotionally unstable girl
i want a son to be the 1st child, he wants it to be a girl for the 1st
i like to munch, he love to eat
he walk through the park straight, i'll stop and smell the roses for a while
and lastly
i am his 1st, and he is my last
believe it or not, we have nothing in common
but somehow, we just understand each other
opposite's attract?
lets just say we compliment each other very well
=)
i miss u very much..
baru satu hari je kot aisyah
rileks babe, jgn gelabah
-_-"
and i thought i never get mushy-tushy feelings again...watodo...hohoho
i am in love with jazz, while he's a fanatic of Hindustani's music
he is a clean freak, while me....lets just say sometimes u can find 2-days McD nugget inside my handbag
he order venti size, i'll go for tall
i like to go crazy, he like to pre-plan everything
he likes an adventure holiday, i like beach-relaxing-nothing to do vacation
he's a mommy's boy, i'm a daddy's girl
he's a rational thinker, i'm an emotionally unstable girl
i want a son to be the 1st child, he wants it to be a girl for the 1st
i like to munch, he love to eat
he walk through the park straight, i'll stop and smell the roses for a while
and lastly
i am his 1st, and he is my last
believe it or not, we have nothing in common
but somehow, we just understand each other
opposite's attract?
lets just say we compliment each other very well
=)
i miss u very much..
baru satu hari je kot aisyah
rileks babe, jgn gelabah
-_-"
and i thought i never get mushy-tushy feelings again...watodo...hohoho
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
UNTITLED...28092010
its hard to find somebody who accepts you for who you are
i admit
i have nothing
and trust me
when i said that i have nothing
means nothing
and when i told you the truth
of everything of what i am
from the good, the bad
to the ugly truth
u stayed and said
'whats in the past, is past...now we focus the future, with us together...'
when you shut your heart out
and try to just walk off from being loved
its hard.
I myself have made it very clear to me, my family and my friends
that i have shut my heart off,
and it pains me
to remember such feelings
it sadden me to know
that i lost faith in such feelings
and just when u thought u know whats inside of your heart
as if it was plain to see
my heart plays its tricks well enough to see
that i was wrong
for month i have practise patients
i cried nite by nite
i pray non-stop to get ride of this feeling
its painful
it hurts
one night
malam Jumaat
at mamak lepak session
u were there
as usual, i buat bodo
as normal, i never thought about anything
nothing more, nothing less
then i saw the side of you that pops a thought
'hey, this guy is nice...'
the next morning
pagi Jumaat
while driving to college
my sis asked me for an advise
and i simply said
"when u see and know a nice guy, just grab him. If not, u akan menyesal..."
and out of the blue
as if God shows the sign
you just pop into my head
i was a bit confused
and kinda stunned
i dunt normally think about anyone tetiba
and lately, nobody was in my mind
let alone it was u
thus
as we both know
on monday,
i ask you out for lunch
believe me, it wasnt that easy
i was sweating like a pig -_-"
i know i was going to be rejected
or at least got a no
(the last guy i ask out, stated that he was married -_-")
but i was wrong
and you said yes
that nite
suddenly
after i finished my work
when i came into my car
suddenly
again
my heart says 'there's a msg...'
i look at my phone
=(
nope, i was wrong
3 seconds later
=)
a msg arrived
i know it sound so weird
or cliche
but it seems, at that moment
i know that God had send me a sign
a very straight forward
beautiful, white truth sign
i smiled
and i was happy
but i just do not know the reason
the feeling just pops out of no where
that post in the blog,
where i said that 'whats wrong with me...'
that was it
that feeling of happiness
was shouting inside my heart
but i was confuse,
as we were only friends
and yet my heart was pounding and beating for more
the next day,
I had to teman Fatimah
and yes,
as we was sitting and chatting
ur msg came
and i just light up
Fatimah being my 8-years-besty
she look at me and said 'omg.....finally'
'what'
'who's the guy?'
'what guy?'
'dun lie to me. look at your face...omg...'
'what face, there's nothing'
'common tell me'
and yes,
my face just lights up
my friends,
my family
my work place
they saw a girl who's smiling non stop when she receive a text
my God...and i thought i never gonna feel it again
i guess i was wrong
after a beautiful dinner
a short and sweet tea time
and a fairy tale lunch
today
"therefore with this, will you, my one and only sayang Aisyah Mokhtar, be my gf or partner now, and fiance and wife withing the near future?"
my heart just stops
"yes baby, I do..."
for the past 2 years, i have never even thought that we would be together
i mean
u remember how we 1st meet
u remember what was happening
u take notice,
quietly,
of what i do
and the signs you pointed out back then,
it really shows that you were interested in me,
but me being me, i was just too blur
i'm sorry i didnt notice you before
i apologies for not remembering the 1st moment we've meet
but i'm glad God had shown me the sign
and i'm truly glad and grateful that i asked you out
cos now i believe it even more than ever
that there's love out there
Dear God the Almighty,
I thank you for showing me the way
God has loved me most gracefully
and God had shown me the way
God have answered my prayers
of the cure of loneliness
and the beauty of sweetness
with this i'll gave you my heart
with this i want to share you my love
and in the future goodness will come our way
as we pray, that this love will stay
Fatimah said
"i have seen you with 3 guys whom you loved so dearly. I know your actions, how you speak of them, your potray of emotions to them, the ups and down...but this guy, u're different...it nothing what i have seen before...its just, different..."
i have been in love, been loved and everything in between,
and i thought i knew it all
but this,
you,
you make it different
this feeling inside of me
the actions, the affections
are a whole new level of love to me
and i am truly happy that you have make me feel this way
and when i thought that all hope was gone
you came knocking at my door =)
i admit
i have nothing
and trust me
when i said that i have nothing
means nothing
and when i told you the truth
of everything of what i am
from the good, the bad
to the ugly truth
u stayed and said
'whats in the past, is past...now we focus the future, with us together...'
when you shut your heart out
and try to just walk off from being loved
its hard.
I myself have made it very clear to me, my family and my friends
that i have shut my heart off,
and it pains me
to remember such feelings
it sadden me to know
that i lost faith in such feelings
and just when u thought u know whats inside of your heart
as if it was plain to see
my heart plays its tricks well enough to see
that i was wrong
for month i have practise patients
i cried nite by nite
i pray non-stop to get ride of this feeling
its painful
it hurts
one night
malam Jumaat
at mamak lepak session
u were there
as usual, i buat bodo
as normal, i never thought about anything
nothing more, nothing less
then i saw the side of you that pops a thought
'hey, this guy is nice...'
the next morning
pagi Jumaat
while driving to college
my sis asked me for an advise
and i simply said
"when u see and know a nice guy, just grab him. If not, u akan menyesal..."
and out of the blue
as if God shows the sign
you just pop into my head
i was a bit confused
and kinda stunned
i dunt normally think about anyone tetiba
and lately, nobody was in my mind
let alone it was u
thus
as we both know
on monday,
i ask you out for lunch
believe me, it wasnt that easy
i was sweating like a pig -_-"
i know i was going to be rejected
or at least got a no
(the last guy i ask out, stated that he was married -_-")
but i was wrong
and you said yes
that nite
suddenly
after i finished my work
when i came into my car
suddenly
again
my heart says 'there's a msg...'
i look at my phone
=(
nope, i was wrong
3 seconds later
=)
a msg arrived
i know it sound so weird
or cliche
but it seems, at that moment
i know that God had send me a sign
a very straight forward
beautiful, white truth sign
i smiled
and i was happy
but i just do not know the reason
the feeling just pops out of no where
that post in the blog,
where i said that 'whats wrong with me...'
that was it
that feeling of happiness
was shouting inside my heart
but i was confuse,
as we were only friends
and yet my heart was pounding and beating for more
the next day,
I had to teman Fatimah
and yes,
as we was sitting and chatting
ur msg came
and i just light up
Fatimah being my 8-years-besty
she look at me and said 'omg.....finally'
'what'
'who's the guy?'
'what guy?'
'dun lie to me. look at your face...omg...'
'what face, there's nothing'
'common tell me'
and yes,
my face just lights up
my friends,
my family
my work place
they saw a girl who's smiling non stop when she receive a text
my God...and i thought i never gonna feel it again
i guess i was wrong
after a beautiful dinner
a short and sweet tea time
and a fairy tale lunch
today
"therefore with this, will you, my one and only sayang Aisyah Mokhtar, be my gf or partner now, and fiance and wife withing the near future?"
my heart just stops
"yes baby, I do..."
for the past 2 years, i have never even thought that we would be together
i mean
u remember how we 1st meet
u remember what was happening
u take notice,
quietly,
of what i do
and the signs you pointed out back then,
it really shows that you were interested in me,
but me being me, i was just too blur
i'm sorry i didnt notice you before
i apologies for not remembering the 1st moment we've meet
but i'm glad God had shown me the sign
and i'm truly glad and grateful that i asked you out
cos now i believe it even more than ever
that there's love out there
Dear God the Almighty,
I thank you for showing me the way
God has loved me most gracefully
and God had shown me the way
God have answered my prayers
of the cure of loneliness
and the beauty of sweetness
with this i'll gave you my heart
with this i want to share you my love
and in the future goodness will come our way
as we pray, that this love will stay
Fatimah said
"i have seen you with 3 guys whom you loved so dearly. I know your actions, how you speak of them, your potray of emotions to them, the ups and down...but this guy, u're different...it nothing what i have seen before...its just, different..."
i have been in love, been loved and everything in between,
and i thought i knew it all
but this,
you,
you make it different
this feeling inside of me
the actions, the affections
are a whole new level of love to me
and i am truly happy that you have make me feel this way
and when i thought that all hope was gone
you came knocking at my door =)
Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
UNTITLED...twin brother
its 5.04am in the morning,
i'm still up surfing the net, doing nothing
i finished work at 2 sumething
i lepak with my good frens in KD
we eat, we laugh
we joke, we mess around
on the way back
in the car
i couldnt stop thinking about u
i open up fb
went to ur page,
and i saw the shoutout that u've made
a perfect dinner?
thanks to me?
i know u'll b reading this
so again, here goes
i enjoy ur company,
i like you very much,
yes i admit, liking is the 1st step,
the next, will be more than friends
you ask me so many times why did i open up to u
what makes me ask u out for lunch
why i agree to have dinner
honestly
i dunno myself
i cant find a specific reason why in the world i did that
u're nice
but its not about the nice
u're sweet
but its not about the sweetness
u're cute
but its not about the cuteness
u have beautiful eyes
well maybe because of that...=P
seriously,
i cant find it myself
*confuse*
i use to say this to every girl, that ask me for advise
"boys will make u cry, but man, they'll treat u better"
i'm finding my man,
maybe i can stop searching now
=)
i'm still up surfing the net, doing nothing
i finished work at 2 sumething
i lepak with my good frens in KD
we eat, we laugh
we joke, we mess around
on the way back
in the car
i couldnt stop thinking about u
i open up fb
went to ur page,
and i saw the shoutout that u've made
a perfect dinner?
thanks to me?
i know u'll b reading this
so again, here goes
i enjoy ur company,
i like you very much,
yes i admit, liking is the 1st step,
the next, will be more than friends
you ask me so many times why did i open up to u
what makes me ask u out for lunch
why i agree to have dinner
honestly
i dunno myself
i cant find a specific reason why in the world i did that
u're nice
but its not about the nice
u're sweet
but its not about the sweetness
u're cute
but its not about the cuteness
u have beautiful eyes
well maybe because of that...=P
seriously,
i cant find it myself
*confuse*
i use to say this to every girl, that ask me for advise
"boys will make u cry, but man, they'll treat u better"
i'm finding my man,
maybe i can stop searching now
=)
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
UNTITLED...for a nice guy
its 1.50am in the morning,
i'm sure u're sleeping by now
i apologies that i couldnt return ur text
as i msg, my phone was flat dead
i cant believe u actually read my blog
i mean, i never thought people would read my blog
but then again, some of my frens does
so here goes
the last post,
yes...i admit...i smiled when i received ur text
my frens all around me notice it as i cant help but to automatically smile
i thought u would never read my blog
so it was kinda, in a way, to express myself secretly and nobody knows it, in a way
but then again,
u know its u as i said way too much in the texting we had
honestly,
i'm quite confuse myself with what this means
and i cant help myself but to just smile
smiling means u are happy
i'm smiling because i'm happy
you make me smile
thus,
i believe that u make me happy
arghhh....
i dunno what i'm babbling about
oh ya, and yes...
that post was on tuesday, yesterday
so thats y u can kinda figure it out
*blush*
malu siot rasenye,
I dunno what to come out of it
i guess this coming lunch will be something huh?
magic word = hope for the best
best?
lets just say if lunch is awesome, there's plenty more eating out and getting to know each other more
*blush*
sweet dreams...text me when u're free =)
p/s: yes...a lil bit of jazz is playing in my heart...
*sing jazz*
i'm sure u're sleeping by now
i apologies that i couldnt return ur text
as i msg, my phone was flat dead
i cant believe u actually read my blog
i mean, i never thought people would read my blog
but then again, some of my frens does
so here goes
the last post,
yes...i admit...i smiled when i received ur text
my frens all around me notice it as i cant help but to automatically smile
i thought u would never read my blog
so it was kinda, in a way, to express myself secretly and nobody knows it, in a way
but then again,
u know its u as i said way too much in the texting we had
honestly,
i'm quite confuse myself with what this means
and i cant help myself but to just smile
smiling means u are happy
i'm smiling because i'm happy
you make me smile
thus,
i believe that u make me happy
arghhh....
i dunno what i'm babbling about
oh ya, and yes...
that post was on tuesday, yesterday
so thats y u can kinda figure it out
*blush*
malu siot rasenye,
I dunno what to come out of it
i guess this coming lunch will be something huh?
magic word = hope for the best
best?
lets just say if lunch is awesome, there's plenty more eating out and getting to know each other more
*blush*
sweet dreams...text me when u're free =)
p/s: yes...a lil bit of jazz is playing in my heart...
*sing jazz*
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
UNTITLED...seriously, jazz is playing
whats wrong with me?
*slap*
i couldnt stop smilling inside the car
*slap*
My God
*slap*
wake up aisyah
*slap*
seriously, i couldnt stop smilling until now
*slap*
whats wrong with me
*smile*
*slap*
i couldnt stop smilling inside the car
*slap*
My God
*slap*
wake up aisyah
*slap*
seriously, i couldnt stop smilling until now
*slap*
whats wrong with me
*smile*
Monday, September 20, 2010
UNTITLED...jazz in my heart
lately,
there's a jazz inside my heart
Syukur...and i thought i wouldnt feel it again
=)
just when i thought i wouldnt feel it again
hush-hush
jazz is playing
shall we dance?
there's a jazz inside my heart
Syukur...and i thought i wouldnt feel it again
=)
just when i thought i wouldnt feel it again
hush-hush
jazz is playing
shall we dance?
Sunday, September 19, 2010
UNTITLED...a promise to the devil
i've made a promise to the devil
if he introduce me to my soul mate
that he can have my heart
including my soul
the devil said 'its ok young girl'
'all i'll take, is only half of your breath,
and this will be when the man left you for good'
bugger...
now i cant breath
if he introduce me to my soul mate
that he can have my heart
including my soul
the devil said 'its ok young girl'
'all i'll take, is only half of your breath,
and this will be when the man left you for good'
bugger...
now i cant breath
Saturday, September 18, 2010
UNTITLED...i pitty u, seriously
lari lari hati mencari
dituju lari, ke hati yang di benci
lari jauh,dengan hati yg tak pasti
sedih aku kata
pada kamu yang masih buta cinta
kalau sungguh ko benci sangat kat aku, tak yah la nak sakitkan hati aku ngan pompuan lain...tak de mane nye aku nak jeles
plus aku cakap kat sini, bahawa perbuatan ko telah melenyapkan apa yg aku rasa dulu dan membuat aku pandang ke belakang dan berkata
"ape sewel gak aku bercinta ngan mamat giler ni...isk isk sik..."
memang aku ngaku
cinta itu buta
*menyesal*
dituju lari, ke hati yang di benci
lari jauh,dengan hati yg tak pasti
sedih aku kata
pada kamu yang masih buta cinta
kalau sungguh ko benci sangat kat aku, tak yah la nak sakitkan hati aku ngan pompuan lain...tak de mane nye aku nak jeles
plus aku cakap kat sini, bahawa perbuatan ko telah melenyapkan apa yg aku rasa dulu dan membuat aku pandang ke belakang dan berkata
"ape sewel gak aku bercinta ngan mamat giler ni...isk isk sik..."
memang aku ngaku
cinta itu buta
*menyesal*
Friday, September 17, 2010
UNTITLED...nobody's baby
I love your personality
But I don't want our love on show
Sometimes I think it's insanity
Boy, the way you go.
With all of the girls on the corner
Oh baby, you're the latest trick
Oh, you seem to have their number
Look they're dancing still.
And I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
And baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But, baby I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.
I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
Baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way.
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But baby, I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance
But I don't want our love on show
Sometimes I think it's insanity
Boy, the way you go.
With all of the girls on the corner
Oh baby, you're the latest trick
Oh, you seem to have their number
Look they're dancing still.
And I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
And baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But, baby I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.
I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
Baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way.
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But baby, I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance
UNTITLED...bb'ster
i open my email....
where the hell is my suga dadi when i need one
=(
argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
where the hell is my suga dadi when i need one
=(
argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
UNTITLED...i'm the king of the world
need i to say more
need me to blab it out
nahh, no need.
beautiful things are meant to be quite,
in my case, i'm keeping it on the low
when the right time comes
a lil bit of jazz, a twist of blues, and a whole lot of funk
another song i wrote,
and it goes a bit bluey
=)
need me to blab it out
nahh, no need.
beautiful things are meant to be quite,
in my case, i'm keeping it on the low
when the right time comes
a lil bit of jazz, a twist of blues, and a whole lot of funk
another song i wrote,
and it goes a bit bluey
*sings*
I aint nobody's baby
I aint nobody's baby
he left me cold
he left me alone
I aint nobody's baby
I aint nobody's baby
but u should've known
u've already known
=)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
UNTITLED...yum yum yummy lil muffins
there's john from john mayer trio
there's caleb from k.o.l
there's EJ from EJ group
there's paul from mr big
there's eric from yardbirds
and many many more.....
and to add to my list of yummy yum yum yummy muffinssssss
there's nick from NJ & the administrators
watching this video makes me wanna be a cougar
erm...that doesnt sound good
wateva
he's one mighty fine muffin, i tell ya
=)
there's caleb from k.o.l
there's EJ from EJ group
there's paul from mr big
there's eric from yardbirds
and many many more.....
and to add to my list of yummy yum yum yummy muffinssssss
there's nick from NJ & the administrators
watching this video makes me wanna be a cougar
erm...that doesnt sound good
wateva
he's one mighty fine muffin, i tell ya
=)
UNTITLED...let the game begins
for one stupid fellow out there:
EAT SUGAR AND DIE
hahahhahahaha.....
i agree that revenge isnt good
but man i feel so much better now
3 more month, when reality kicks in, your true color will shine, and it will shine upon the promises that you brake
next time.....remember, when u want to do a revenge on me...please, please,please i beg of you to think, of what your action will cause in the future....cause karma comes back to haunt anybody...in ur case, the tables are turn on u
3 more month aisyah
patience
thats always rewarding
the good will previle, and the bad, lets just say its just good to see u die
bitter? yes....
sweet? most certainly
=PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
EAT SUGAR AND DIE
hahahhahahaha.....
i agree that revenge isnt good
but man i feel so much better now
3 more month, when reality kicks in, your true color will shine, and it will shine upon the promises that you brake
next time.....remember, when u want to do a revenge on me...please, please,please i beg of you to think, of what your action will cause in the future....cause karma comes back to haunt anybody...in ur case, the tables are turn on u
3 more month aisyah
patience
thats always rewarding
the good will previle, and the bad, lets just say its just good to see u die
bitter? yes....
sweet? most certainly
=PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
UNTITLED.....a pain in da butt, but still, we're family
we're not exactly getting along together
but our sengals keeps us together
P/S:its not complete without me nenek, me mom,me bigger bro, his wife and anggun =P
raya 2010 was the bomb
but our sengals keeps us together
P/S:its not complete without me nenek, me mom,me bigger bro, his wife and anggun =P
raya 2010 was the bomb
Monday, September 13, 2010
UNTITLED...blogger boy
i've read your blog again
and you have to stop reading mine
we have to stop what ever it is that we're doing right now
kapish?
*confuse*
tralalalala...
and you have to stop reading mine
we have to stop what ever it is that we're doing right now
kapish?
*confuse*
tralalalala...
UNTITLED....baju melayu
'i dont have baju melayu'
*silence*
a good fren who just came back for raya.
om putih pun tahu pakai formal baju kot =P hang om melayu tak de baju melayu...
"u cant blame me for being 'out there' for 5 years, rite?"
yela yela, mr om putih
well i guess that would just do then
'but i got to see you in baju kurung, now...thats priceless'
-_-" chit...hampeh
i hate you =P
p/s: i know u gonna read this...so...here goes:
this post doesnt change anything. i still remember the stuff u did in the past, i've forgive, but never forget.
thank you for the time spent, coming back to your roots, eating durian and speaking in your mother tongue.
i was looking forward to see in baju melayu, but it seems that u spent the money more on football jersey =P
and lastly, it was sweet of you to make room for me, although its been years already
u know we cant really 'say' anything public (even fb) as it will be too controversial and hurts some feelings in between.
plus,
thank you for the selendang =) i guess i'll see u in 5 years time again.
ring-ring
u know where to get me, aight?
buddy bye
*silence*
a good fren who just came back for raya.
om putih pun tahu pakai formal baju kot =P hang om melayu tak de baju melayu...
"u cant blame me for being 'out there' for 5 years, rite?"
yela yela, mr om putih
well i guess that would just do then
'but i got to see you in baju kurung, now...thats priceless'
-_-" chit...hampeh
i hate you =P
p/s: i know u gonna read this...so...here goes:
this post doesnt change anything. i still remember the stuff u did in the past, i've forgive, but never forget.
thank you for the time spent, coming back to your roots, eating durian and speaking in your mother tongue.
i was looking forward to see in baju melayu, but it seems that u spent the money more on football jersey =P
and lastly, it was sweet of you to make room for me, although its been years already
u know we cant really 'say' anything public (even fb) as it will be too controversial and hurts some feelings in between.
plus,
thank you for the selendang =) i guess i'll see u in 5 years time again.
ring-ring
u know where to get me, aight?
buddy bye
Saturday, September 11, 2010
UNTITLED...patience
i'll give it 3 more month
seriously
3 more month
then you'll see what i forecast in the future
patience is the key
and i am definitely resisting myself to blab it out
but when the reality kicks in
that is when i say
'i told you so...'
and
'suck that u stupid jerk!...'
hohohoho...
bitter? nahhhh...just wanna prove something which i wanna prove
and only God knows what i have inside my heart
3 more month, aisyah
patience
is always rewarding
=)
seriously
3 more month
then you'll see what i forecast in the future
patience is the key
and i am definitely resisting myself to blab it out
but when the reality kicks in
that is when i say
'i told you so...'
and
'suck that u stupid jerk!...'
hohohoho...
bitter? nahhhh...just wanna prove something which i wanna prove
and only God knows what i have inside my heart
3 more month, aisyah
patience
is always rewarding
=)
Friday, September 10, 2010
UNTITLED...roller coaster
there's always ups and downs in life
its like a one emotional unstable train ride
but for now
i'm enjoying life at its best peak
family
friends
cousins
aunts
uncles
nenek
and a whole lots of love
'hey...dont you worry, u got lots of friends and family beside you...dont you forget about that....'-my fren's advice, as i was crying my eyes out on how in felt that i was at the bottom of the peak
and i guess i was wrong again
rain on my parade?
not yet, i guess
*smile*
its like a one emotional unstable train ride
but for now
i'm enjoying life at its best peak
family
friends
cousins
aunts
uncles
nenek
and a whole lots of love
'hey...dont you worry, u got lots of friends and family beside you...dont you forget about that....'-my fren's advice, as i was crying my eyes out on how in felt that i was at the bottom of the peak
and i guess i was wrong again
rain on my parade?
not yet, i guess
*smile*
Thursday, September 9, 2010
UNTITLED....once a year
Salam Raya, salam semua,
dalam hati, dengki jgn bersama,
moga semua sihat, riang belaka,
harap dosa diampun, pahala diterima
Salam Aidilfitri kepada semua.
Bila disebut, jgn sekali dipersia
=)
p/s: and tomorrow will be the day where i see yummy men in baju melayu
need i to say more?
hohohoho.....
*main mercun*
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
UNTITLED...a piece of advise
"i dunno what to do...i feel like...lost, u know, lost..."
"just sing..."
"huh?"
"just sing..."
*puzzled face*
this guy, my fren, never looses faith in me, i remember he was the ONLY, i repeat, the ONLY guy who, weirdly as it sounds, seem to know me better, in a way.
one time, i remember, i had to choose 2 things that shape my future. 99.9% of the people i ask for advise,went for 'road' A (even my ex) but this guy, he chooses 'road' B, which surprises me.
but of course, i went for A and at the end of the day, weirdly, i end up with B. and he was grinning at me with that 'see...i told you so' face.
another time, as i was attending a GIG with him with a couple of frens, i just stood quitely while enjoying the music. after the show, he came to me and just said 'so aisyah, i have seen them perform. When is your turn for me to see u up there?' i was stunned,at that moment actually i was imagining myself rocking the stage. weird.
and recently, i came and visit him again
and yup, i see him just to 'luahkan' my heart on certain issues that, to me, in a way, he can aswer cause it seems he knows me better
and he just said 'sing...'
and sing it shall be
thank you
*aisyah looking at her homework*
oh ya, i just wrote a song
its called 'amy lie to me'
and it goes like:
dear amy, dear amy
my best fren, my one and only true fren
we had a fight
says that one day i might
find a boyfren
and i will forget about my own amy fren
dear amy, dear amy
you claim i would
you said i could
be off on my way
leaving you alone for a day
when i found my own baby
for him, only i will stay
and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
dear amy, my dearly amy
it seems its true
what u said is true
that a boy will come
and tear us apart
dear amy, my beautiful amy,
u left me here,
alone, with your own fear
he found you, you found your deal
yes, you left me still
and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
dear amy, my dear amy
i'm still here
i'm still here
and he says i should be making boys cried thier eyes out for me
*aisyah writes inside her bucket list*
12.make boys cry with my 'homework'.
roger doger!
"just sing..."
"huh?"
"just sing..."
*puzzled face*
this guy, my fren, never looses faith in me, i remember he was the ONLY, i repeat, the ONLY guy who, weirdly as it sounds, seem to know me better, in a way.
one time, i remember, i had to choose 2 things that shape my future. 99.9% of the people i ask for advise,went for 'road' A (even my ex) but this guy, he chooses 'road' B, which surprises me.
but of course, i went for A and at the end of the day, weirdly, i end up with B. and he was grinning at me with that 'see...i told you so' face.
another time, as i was attending a GIG with him with a couple of frens, i just stood quitely while enjoying the music. after the show, he came to me and just said 'so aisyah, i have seen them perform. When is your turn for me to see u up there?' i was stunned,at that moment actually i was imagining myself rocking the stage. weird.
and recently, i came and visit him again
and yup, i see him just to 'luahkan' my heart on certain issues that, to me, in a way, he can aswer cause it seems he knows me better
and he just said 'sing...'
and sing it shall be
thank you
*aisyah looking at her homework*
oh ya, i just wrote a song
its called 'amy lie to me'
and it goes like:
dear amy, dear amy
my best fren, my one and only true fren
we had a fight
says that one day i might
find a boyfren
and i will forget about my own amy fren
dear amy, dear amy
you claim i would
you said i could
be off on my way
leaving you alone for a day
when i found my own baby
for him, only i will stay
and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
dear amy, my dearly amy
it seems its true
what u said is true
that a boy will come
and tear us apart
dear amy, my beautiful amy,
u left me here,
alone, with your own fear
he found you, you found your deal
yes, you left me still
and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here
dear amy, my dear amy
i'm still here
i'm still here
and he says i should be making boys cried thier eyes out for me
*aisyah writes inside her bucket list*
12.make boys cry with my 'homework'.
roger doger!
Monday, September 6, 2010
UNTITLED...somebody's wife
my bro thinks i'm a weird girl
cos i went *blush* when i saw the mask
and i did puppy eyes to my bro so he would buy me the mask
we went to the toy shop again today
me bro wanted to buy the extension for carcasson
and i found 'him' again
when i was at the MITF,
i didnt get the chance to 'marry' him
and now
on six of september 2010
around 9.15pm
with the 'ting' sound of the registery machine
i am officially V's wife
hohohohoo
"Voil! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V"
*blush*
i have a huge crush on him
*blush*
UNTITLED...a ghost
'come and haunt me back'
he wrote this
after 5 years, still
my God, how patient you have been
the problem is...i cant seem to find you
where art thou?
he wrote this
after 5 years, still
my God, how patient you have been
the problem is...i cant seem to find you
where art thou?
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
UNTITLED...old fren
"its nice when somebody called and hang out for a while"
"u know u're remembered"
"busy with work,busy with life"
"its nice"
-coming from a 'once a month,sometimes, i see him' fren
last nite dinner was aweasome
thanks for the time, fren
=)
p/s: aisyah sudah kembali bersemangat kerana dia tahu dia banyak kawan2 yg sgt 'beautiful' di sekelilingnya. yay!
*piang*
=P
"u know u're remembered"
"busy with work,busy with life"
"its nice"
-coming from a 'once a month,sometimes, i see him' fren
last nite dinner was aweasome
thanks for the time, fren
=)
p/s: aisyah sudah kembali bersemangat kerana dia tahu dia banyak kawan2 yg sgt 'beautiful' di sekelilingnya. yay!
*piang*
=P
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
UNTITLED...they say
they say when u cry a lot
happiness will come your way,
sooner or later
but i think they forgot
that when u're happy too much
the sadness will come again
it kinda balance the whole thing right?
i am an emotionally unstable girl
*kalau nak cakap aku pms, patut minggu depan*
waking up late didnt help me
i woke up at 5am with an asthma
i woke up at 7.15am with panda eyes
i woke up at 12.30pm with a migrain
i wish to stay in bed
but life's gotta work right?
hhhmmm....
but the best part
2 people call me today,
to check up how's me been doing
i guess some friends can just sense it from afar
i just lurve my soul brothers
they just help me to coop with my daily life
ring-ring
how'd ya been
i'm fine, thank you. and thanks for callin in
lepak? yam cha?
i thought so too
=)
happiness will come your way,
sooner or later
but i think they forgot
that when u're happy too much
the sadness will come again
it kinda balance the whole thing right?
i am an emotionally unstable girl
*kalau nak cakap aku pms, patut minggu depan*
waking up late didnt help me
i woke up at 5am with an asthma
i woke up at 7.15am with panda eyes
i woke up at 12.30pm with a migrain
i wish to stay in bed
but life's gotta work right?
hhhmmm....
but the best part
2 people call me today,
to check up how's me been doing
i guess some friends can just sense it from afar
i just lurve my soul brothers
they just help me to coop with my daily life
ring-ring
how'd ya been
i'm fine, thank you. and thanks for callin in
lepak? yam cha?
i thought so too
=)
UNTITLED...its been a while
And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
some things are meant to be kept
and never be remembered
but the problem is
the memories still hurt
*bleeehhhhh*
-eats her chocolate-
Monday, August 30, 2010
UNTITLED...cute couple
jelessssnyeeeeeeee.....
i wan aso....
any takers out there?
another caleb would be nice
hohoho...
UNTITLED...i choose to
i choose to hate mondays
and i can choose not to
but still,
i choose to hate mondays
I hate mondays!
practise...hush hush
the only medication for my insomia
=)
and i can choose not to
but still,
i choose to hate mondays
I hate mondays!
practise...hush hush
the only medication for my insomia
=)
Thursday, August 26, 2010
UNTITLED...my wish came true
......rock & roll, hey.....dont you know, baby.....we are alone now...gimme something to sing about....
<3
19oct bukit jalil
rawkssss.....
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
UNTITLED...3 days of zombified
lack of sleep
tons of work
so many things
between family and friends
being a walking, ageing girl
i slept with my day's clothes still, yesterday night
just a sign to show that i was really dang tired
as i got into my car just now
i pulled off my shoes
i felt heaven
as i stretch my toes
and feel the blood rushing back to my nails
and drove slowly
some sort of aimlessly
but the destination was home
and as i parked my car
red fm was playing this song
i listen to the song closely
the words just went through my head
i close my eyes and just sat there
throughout the song
i look out into the sky
the moon was shining full
over a tree of branches
no leaf,
and the sky had no stars
was just the moon
and i smile
i really did
nothing was on my mind
it was empty
my heart was in zero passion
and yet
that moment
with that song
and that view
i just smiled
a moment of feeling that i Cherish, among others
the right moment,
the right timing,
the right mood,
the right song.
and all i did was smile
so tell me,
when was the last time you felt like that?
i thought so too
*alive*
=)
tons of work
so many things
between family and friends
being a walking, ageing girl
i slept with my day's clothes still, yesterday night
just a sign to show that i was really dang tired
as i got into my car just now
i pulled off my shoes
i felt heaven
as i stretch my toes
and feel the blood rushing back to my nails
and drove slowly
some sort of aimlessly
but the destination was home
and as i parked my car
red fm was playing this song
i listen to the song closely
the words just went through my head
i close my eyes and just sat there
throughout the song
i look out into the sky
the moon was shining full
over a tree of branches
no leaf,
and the sky had no stars
was just the moon
and i smile
i really did
nothing was on my mind
it was empty
my heart was in zero passion
and yet
that moment
with that song
and that view
i just smiled
a moment of feeling that i Cherish, among others
the right moment,
the right timing,
the right mood,
the right song.
and all i did was smile
so tell me,
when was the last time you felt like that?
i thought so too
*alive*
=)
Friday, August 20, 2010
UNTITLED...dey dey dey, wake up la....
'madonna...?'
'huh?' *puzzled face*
'this song, thats playing...' *eyes pointing around the room*
'ohh...its gwen steffani...no doubt...a long time ago punya song...around 'my time''
'ohhh...ok...is it ur playlist? owh wait....its hers right?' *pointing to my fwen*
'ya...its hers....but she has good selection of songs though'
'ya...'
ayoyoyoyoyo.......
*blushed*
he actually talked to me....and he took notice of me singing to the song....
*slap* wake up aisyah....he's out of ur league
i felt like a junior in high school having a crush on a senior
and when that senior tend to talk to you,
you'll get all gibberish and dunno what to do
*blushed*
ayoyoyoyoyo......
*slap* wake up la wei....
-_-" i getting too old for these sort of crush, dont ya think?
i thought so too
watodo
*slap*
'huh?' *puzzled face*
'this song, thats playing...' *eyes pointing around the room*
'ohh...its gwen steffani...no doubt...a long time ago punya song...around 'my time''
'ohhh...ok...is it ur playlist? owh wait....its hers right?' *pointing to my fwen*
'ya...its hers....but she has good selection of songs though'
'ya...'
ayoyoyoyoyo.......
*blushed*
he actually talked to me....and he took notice of me singing to the song....
*slap* wake up aisyah....he's out of ur league
i felt like a junior in high school having a crush on a senior
and when that senior tend to talk to you,
you'll get all gibberish and dunno what to do
*blushed*
ayoyoyoyoyo......
*slap* wake up la wei....
-_-" i getting too old for these sort of crush, dont ya think?
i thought so too
watodo
*slap*
Thursday, August 19, 2010
UNTITLED...to who ever is out there
i'll wouldnt want to change anything about u
and you
just take me the way i am
i am trying to fly again....
if you are out there...help me
cos i really wanna start trying again
i miss the feeling 'belong to'
you can help me find it
who ever you are
mr stranger
=)
1 more month till execution
Langkawi's calling my name
*smiles*
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
UNTITLED...muffin
apasala mamat ni ade suara gini
yum yummmy yum yum muffin
if i find one guy with his talent in music plus with a killer voice,
i'll sure kidnapp him and keep him in my basement
all for myself
hohohoho
and if he stops singing, i'll just poke him
kings of leon rawksssssssssssssss
*love*
yum yummmy yum yum muffin
if i find one guy with his talent in music plus with a killer voice,
i'll sure kidnapp him and keep him in my basement
all for myself
hohohoho
and if he stops singing, i'll just poke him
kings of leon rawksssssssssssssss
*love*
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
UNTITLED...i refuse to back down
if you have seen a girl
walking in the rain
sometimes skipping
and then dancing
while nodding her head
and her hand spreads wide
then you'd say to yourself
'gila punya budak...'
or
'ape hal pulak budak ni...'
right?
but did u notice the soaking wet headphone that warps her head
with her smiles
and her eyes filled with life
then maybe you'd understand
=)
yesterday,
as i walked trillion steps away from the cafe, i notice that,there wasnt any umbrella in my hand
looking at the rain
i said '...bantai...'
so i walked
and at that right moment
the right time
this song was playing
Rain-Mika
imagine how i dance in the rain
and how i felt alive
=)
try it...i recommend you....play under the soft soaking rain, with this song....u'll be tip-toe'ing....kalah high school musical....hohoho...
A.L.I.V.E!!!
walking in the rain
sometimes skipping
and then dancing
while nodding her head
and her hand spreads wide
then you'd say to yourself
'gila punya budak...'
or
'ape hal pulak budak ni...'
right?
but did u notice the soaking wet headphone that warps her head
with her smiles
and her eyes filled with life
then maybe you'd understand
=)
yesterday,
as i walked trillion steps away from the cafe, i notice that,there wasnt any umbrella in my hand
looking at the rain
i said '...bantai...'
so i walked
and at that right moment
the right time
this song was playing
Rain-Mika
imagine how i dance in the rain
and how i felt alive
=)
When you made it rain...
You made it rain...
try it...i recommend you....play under the soft soaking rain, with this song....u'll be tip-toe'ing....kalah high school musical....hohoho...
A.L.I.V.E!!!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
UNTITLED....a bebel dinner
my lil brother came and visit me today
bukak posa sama-sama
its been long since we had a talk
the last time we've meet was i think was about 2 month ago
he looked at me in sadness
and said
'i dunt think i'm goin to be with _______'
?
'i use to like her so much, but now, after she turned me down, i just cant. and i've tried, so badly, and its been months already'
i look at him and just said nothing
he continues to tell how the relationship was at the peak, how he confess his feeling towards her, but only to be crashing down the hill in the end
and the thing was, he did a 'thing' which was suppose to make a girl go '...auwww, that is so scweeeettttt...'
the story goes
it was his birthday
she was admitted in hospital to undergo an operation the next day
he wanted to come and visit her, they planned to celebrate it, although in was inside the hospital itself
he came to his car, only to find that he has a flat tyre
he calls her up, saying that judging from that, they have to change plans
there were only silence at the end of the phone
he knows that she was sad
and what he did
he walked to the nearest shopping mall
literally, he walked
he walked to the curve
bought a teddy bear and cake
took a cab to the nearest lrt station
got in the train
off at the platform
into a cab again
and arrive at the hospital, 4 hours later
she was surprise
her frens was stunned
the teddy bear was hanging out of his bag pack
gave it to her
eat the cake together
usap her forehead
and tuck her into bed
when this was happening,
he soooooo wanted to confess his feelings towards her
but he felt that this wasnt the right moment
she's in pain, and he's afraid that if he said something
might pulled her down
but he got everything planned already
'when its over, there's a card inside the box for you. dont read it now, and dont read it in front of your frens.....read it when you are really free'
he waited patiently
maybe for a text or call
and days goes by, in silence
ring-ring
=)
she said that she read the card, only after she was dismiss from the hospital, at the comfort of her home
and then she explain
=(
'and that is why i dont think i'm going to be with her no more....'
hmmm....i didnt say much
i was like....*speechless*
i didnt feel anything though
no sadness for him,
no angry for her
i was just plain listening
'but guess what, now _______ (his ex of 6 years ago) and me, maybe, are going back together...'
-__-"
now i know why i was immune to love stories.....
for those who deny your love, you're just stupid
for those who dunno your love,
lets just says you're a moron
me?
i'm still in love
even though there's nothing left for me on the other side
now thats plain naive
watodo...hohohoo...
cant blame me for being 'me' rite?
bukak posa sama-sama
its been long since we had a talk
the last time we've meet was i think was about 2 month ago
he looked at me in sadness
and said
'i dunt think i'm goin to be with _______'
?
'i use to like her so much, but now, after she turned me down, i just cant. and i've tried, so badly, and its been months already'
i look at him and just said nothing
he continues to tell how the relationship was at the peak, how he confess his feeling towards her, but only to be crashing down the hill in the end
and the thing was, he did a 'thing' which was suppose to make a girl go '...auwww, that is so scweeeettttt...'
the story goes
it was his birthday
she was admitted in hospital to undergo an operation the next day
he wanted to come and visit her, they planned to celebrate it, although in was inside the hospital itself
he came to his car, only to find that he has a flat tyre
he calls her up, saying that judging from that, they have to change plans
there were only silence at the end of the phone
he knows that she was sad
and what he did
he walked to the nearest shopping mall
literally, he walked
he walked to the curve
bought a teddy bear and cake
took a cab to the nearest lrt station
got in the train
off at the platform
into a cab again
and arrive at the hospital, 4 hours later
she was surprise
her frens was stunned
the teddy bear was hanging out of his bag pack
gave it to her
eat the cake together
usap her forehead
and tuck her into bed
when this was happening,
he soooooo wanted to confess his feelings towards her
but he felt that this wasnt the right moment
she's in pain, and he's afraid that if he said something
might pulled her down
but he got everything planned already
'when its over, there's a card inside the box for you. dont read it now, and dont read it in front of your frens.....read it when you are really free'
he waited patiently
maybe for a text or call
and days goes by, in silence
ring-ring
=)
she said that she read the card, only after she was dismiss from the hospital, at the comfort of her home
and then she explain
=(
'and that is why i dont think i'm going to be with her no more....'
hmmm....i didnt say much
i was like....*speechless*
i didnt feel anything though
no sadness for him,
no angry for her
i was just plain listening
'but guess what, now _______ (his ex of 6 years ago) and me, maybe, are going back together...'
-__-"
now i know why i was immune to love stories.....
cinta adalah satu nikmat
dimana manusia perlu beringat
bukan untuk dijual
mahupun untuk dikhianat
sayang sama sekali manusia sekarang bosan semua
tak tahu makna,
tak tahu harga,
lalu akhirnya,
buta cinta
for those who deny your love, you're just stupid
for those who dunno your love,
lets just says you're a moron
me?
i'm still in love
even though there's nothing left for me on the other side
now thats plain naive
watodo...hohohoo...
cant blame me for being 'me' rite?
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
UNTITLED....forgive, but never forget
"....we did grow old together..."
*image of old self holding hands appears*
"....but you must have forgotten it..."
when i saw the old couple walking by, side by side, holding hands
i cried
yes,
i had tears in my eye
it was beautiful....
it must have been wonderful...
to have that feeling, or that memory
even if its was just a dream
i watched Inception just now, n i love it
my fren says its mindf*cking movie...hohoho
i say
its a 'beautiful' movie
=)
yes i know i'm weird
but i cant help myself
its very meaningful
and very dearly to me
watch it, i recommend u guys =)
a dream,within a dream
sounds familiar to me
actually,
sounds very 'related' to me
wink-wink
*sob* *sob*
smilessss
*image of old self holding hands appears*
"....but you must have forgotten it..."
when i saw the old couple walking by, side by side, holding hands
i cried
yes,
i had tears in my eye
it was beautiful....
it must have been wonderful...
to have that feeling, or that memory
even if its was just a dream
i watched Inception just now, n i love it
my fren says its mindf*cking movie...hohoho
i say
its a 'beautiful' movie
=)
yes i know i'm weird
but i cant help myself
its very meaningful
and very dearly to me
watch it, i recommend u guys =)
a dream,within a dream
sounds familiar to me
actually,
sounds very 'related' to me
wink-wink
*sob* *sob*
smilessss
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
UNTITLED.....esok posa,yay yay
i'm being a kid
and yes
i'm excited
why?
esok puasa
?
huhuuhuhu....
more reason to be happy
merry
and play fireworks at nite
rite now,
i'm in banting
with all
and i'm grateful
and always be
=)
i guess i wasnt broken,
just a bit bitter
yup,
bitter yet sweet
happy Ramadhan to all
and remember, you can only feel the celebration when u choose to
and for me, dunno why,
i 'feel' it,
like my spirit lifted high
and excited has days will come by
and when syawal comes after, i got to see yummy men in baju melayu
what more do i want
hohohoohohoho
-_-"
and yes
i'm excited
why?
esok puasa
?
huhuuhuhu....
more reason to be happy
merry
and play fireworks at nite
rite now,
i'm in banting
with all
and i'm grateful
and always be
=)
i guess i wasnt broken,
just a bit bitter
yup,
bitter yet sweet
happy Ramadhan to all
and remember, you can only feel the celebration when u choose to
and for me, dunno why,
i 'feel' it,
like my spirit lifted high
and excited has days will come by
and when syawal comes after, i got to see yummy men in baju melayu
what more do i want
hohohoohohoho
-_-"
Monday, August 9, 2010
UNTITLED...hari senin
monday oh monday
seriously,
i know its sounds stereotype
but i hate mondays
i have the worst with mondays
last week monday i cried
and today i'm zombified
one thing about today's monday is that
this song was ringing in my head
but some how i kinda enjoy it on replay
dunno why
seriously,
i know its sounds stereotype
but i hate mondays
i have the worst with mondays
last week monday i cried
and today i'm zombified
one thing about today's monday is that
this song was ringing in my head
but some how i kinda enjoy it on replay
dunno why
"pour my life into a papercup,
the ashtray full and im spilling my guts
He wants to know am i still a slut,
i gotta take it on the other side"
Friday, August 6, 2010
UNTITLED...if you're aint got 'soul', really.....u aint got nothin
'babe, i wanna ask u one question'
'yup, waddup?'
'how u sound like that huh?'
? *me, giving the confuse look*
'i mean,how u sound like 'that'?'
'like what?'
'u know...like u got that 'vibe'
'u mean...like soul, like that ka?'
'kot...dunno, i dunno how to describe it, maybe its the tone of your voice kot'
'well...everybody got tone....'
'yup i know, but some people got that 'thing'....u know, that magnet vibe sort of thing'
'i think what u mean is 'soul'
'soul'?
'yup, soul'
and i started giving my opinions to him
i actually dunno how to explain it,
but seriously, u can feel the 'soul' in certain people, and music
and to me,
honestly speaking
people who got soul usually because of their history/background
they channel their emotion through music
whether its soul, r&b, hard core metal, or jazz
when a singer sings
a musician plays
and a song are made,
as long as it got that 'thing' i called 'soul'
believe me, it is soul
educate yourself on songs and its history
read up about your favourite singer, what makes them, them
that is what i do
*aisyah reads?*
yup, autobiography books
and also google it up =P
like i always say
"if you aint got soul, u aint got soul honey"
p/s: this also applies on poetry, aight?
'yup, waddup?'
'how u sound like that huh?'
? *me, giving the confuse look*
'i mean,how u sound like 'that'?'
'like what?'
'u know...like u got that 'vibe'
'u mean...like soul, like that ka?'
'kot...dunno, i dunno how to describe it, maybe its the tone of your voice kot'
'well...everybody got tone....'
'yup i know, but some people got that 'thing'....u know, that magnet vibe sort of thing'
'i think what u mean is 'soul'
'soul'?
'yup, soul'
and i started giving my opinions to him
i actually dunno how to explain it,
but seriously, u can feel the 'soul' in certain people, and music
and to me,
honestly speaking
people who got soul usually because of their history/background
they channel their emotion through music
whether its soul, r&b, hard core metal, or jazz
when a singer sings
a musician plays
and a song are made,
as long as it got that 'thing' i called 'soul'
believe me, it is soul
educate yourself on songs and its history
read up about your favourite singer, what makes them, them
that is what i do
*aisyah reads?*
yup, autobiography books
and also google it up =P
like i always say
"if you aint got soul, u aint got soul honey"
p/s: this also applies on poetry, aight?
Thursday, August 5, 2010
UNTITLED....u can eat your pants now
for those who talk shit on tonight's concert,
eat sugar and die
now i can officially say that i've been to a rock concert
not a gig
not a performance
but a rock concert
pure american style rock concert
and it was bloody awesome <3
*what did u say again*
shut the fuck up if you dunno what it feels like
i felt 'alive'
=P
eat sugar and die
now i can officially say that i've been to a rock concert
not a gig
not a performance
but a rock concert
pure american style rock concert
and it was bloody awesome <3
*what did u say again*
shut the fuck up if you dunno what it feels like
i felt 'alive'
=P
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
UNTITLED...hi there, i didnt mean to
i've read ur blog
and its suddenly hits me
and i got the clear picture
shit...
i didnt mean to
honestly
i must have sent the wrong smoke signals
and seriouly honest to the max
i didnt mean to
i apologies
u blogged that post for quite awhile
and i've just pop by to read it, and came across that
i'm sorry
i didnt realise it
i didnt notice it
in fact
i have no clue at all
why didnt you tell me
that u have fallen for me
so at least i can explain
or least just make u stay
and after that blog u still keep it cool
so what now?
i also dunno
i am speechless
and for a very long time
i am speechless
i'm sorry
friends? <---aisyah buat muncung with puppy eyes offering durians for forgiveness
*u just smiled didnt u*
=P
and its suddenly hits me
and i got the clear picture
shit...
i didnt mean to
honestly
i must have sent the wrong smoke signals
and seriouly honest to the max
i didnt mean to
i apologies
u blogged that post for quite awhile
and i've just pop by to read it, and came across that
i'm sorry
i didnt realise it
i didnt notice it
in fact
i have no clue at all
why didnt you tell me
that u have fallen for me
so at least i can explain
or least just make u stay
and after that blog u still keep it cool
so what now?
i also dunno
i am speechless
and for a very long time
i am speechless
i'm sorry
friends? <---aisyah buat muncung with puppy eyes offering durians for forgiveness
*u just smiled didnt u*
=P
Monday, August 2, 2010
UNTITLED...i wanna free fall out into nothin
She's a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too
It's a long day livin' in Reseda
There's a freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a bad boy, 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down Ventura Blvd
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for awhile
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
and they say she was free
free fallin
into nothin
and nothin sounds good
for the time being
UNTITLED...a piece of property to be own
guy a says i was rare
guy b said i was a jewel
guy c claimed i was addictive
guy d stated i was toxic
guy e blog i was unique
guy f annouce i was cute
and the list goes onnnnnnnnn.....
me...i told them off, saying they were crazy
but then again,
i like the statement 'she's toxic'
make me sound dangerous
-_-"
hohohohoohho....
wink-wink
cookie?
i though so too =)
oh ya...
updates on me...
i'm going back to school
hush-hush for those who knows =)
guy b said i was a jewel
guy c claimed i was addictive
guy d stated i was toxic
guy e blog i was unique
guy f annouce i was cute
and the list goes onnnnnnnnn.....
me...i told them off, saying they were crazy
but then again,
i like the statement 'she's toxic'
make me sound dangerous
-_-"
hohohohoohho....
wink-wink
cookie?
i though so too =)
oh ya...
updates on me...
i'm going back to school
hush-hush for those who knows =)
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