UNTITLED....sumber inspirasi

a twig engangement

kepada mereka yg suka simplicity but yet have designs in it

UNTITLED...things are just meant to be quiet

hi, yup i know
its been a long time since i wrote anything
a bit too much time i guess
spora and fungus are growing they say

hmmm
what is it to talk about

havent quite actually have anything to say
or write

or better yet,
just to babble

any random subject?
nope, unfortunately no

right now i'm waiting for someone to pick me up

yes, u know who

yup here we go again
aisyah yg gelabah nak bebel pasal pakwe dia lagi

nope,
no i'm not gonna
but i did mention him above

i dunno what to say

kinda....
random for me to write atas angin

and yet you all are still reading this

wait,
what i was talking about just now

weird,
i didnt blog anything edu enough

hold on,
its a blog,
my blog, so i can chat what ever i want

but tell me
why are u reading this again?
and why am i writing this post up?

hmmm weird
my head is in the clouds
and my heart is in heaven
my mind goed somewhere deep
and my brain just burst into fire

wow

u're still reading this




thanks babe

UNTITLED....semangat slim

I havent lepak with a lot of people lately
due to puasa, raya, work and my health

i have to apologies if i cant see you, meet u, lepak with u, even return your msgs or calls

so they ask me, how am i been doing

i just replied

I AM 62KG....



AND I'M FREAKING LOVING IT =P


thank you for your support and concerns

i love my life, my family, my friends and the best additional thing in my life, my baby Isky, whom i love, adore and the most beautiful creature of all.

i love you very much =D

UNTITLED...gila bapak aku sedih

a friend post this up in FB
i cried.

how beautiful a brother-love can be. they have nothing but each other

sayu hati aku siot. serious aku menangis nengok gambar ni.

UNTITLED...ladybag

i am the proud owner of such beauty
and its reblogged by rbags.tumblr

hohohohohoo

*bangga*

UNTITLED....bagi makan

"baby, i want to munch something sweet"
"i can fix u something"
"erm...i'm hungry"
"let me do u nutella, ok?"

its 2am in the morning and he's fixing me a chocolate sandwich

freaking shit i'm madly in love with him

=D

UNTITLED...updates?

Harlo.
sorry, i havent really updated this blog for quite a while:
weird how it feels when people ask how've u been,
and they just say that because i havent updated my blog
well,
here goes:

1.i got into a very nasty rashes, a very bad skin condition, that had me rush to the hospital. the specialist wanted to detain me in the ward, but knowing that raya was just in 4 more days, she really advise me me to be a 'princess'.

2. thus, i cannot touch dirt or leaves. I cannot eat seafood,chicken and possible, no meat.

3. i'm on steroids, so my body is really plum.

4. because of my medication, i tend to sleep a lot. sorry if i havent return your calls or msg you guys. or i dont hang out much. my condition doesnt permits me.

5. after 9 years, we finally went back to Kota Bahru to raya with tokma.

6. nenek came also. we cant leave her alone in selangor to raya rite?

7. raya was beautiful. simple but nice. nothing big. we visit my late dad's grave, but i couldnt come near, yup, because of my condition and red flag.

8. i finally got to meet my cousin after, i think 12 years of not seeing him.

9. came home and lepak with my hubby all nite.

10. i miss him =D

UNTITLED...advise baik punya

babe,
serious babe.

aku rase ko ada penyakit hati

?

sebab keja ko asyik complain je
asyik komen negative orang je
aku baca blog ko,
sadis aku nengok
serabut plak tu
yg aku tergelak sinis tu,
ko suka komen orang, tapi perangai ko pun dua kali lima

kesian aku nengok ko

babe,
baik ko let go apa yg ko pendam
sebab these things makes u bitter

forgive people, let it go, find a new hobby, get a new dog, or do something.

you sound sooo bitter

and what hurts me the most, being your friend, is that every word you write, portrays you, as a sad and lonely person.

kecian kan?

have time for yourself.

*i know how it feels to be bitter, worn-out, sad, lonely, lost-but i know how to pick myself up*

go, explore the world.
have spiritual connections.
it will help.





trust me, i know.



p/s: oh ya, dont forget to smile while doing it. the rest will eventually follow.

UNTITLED...kalau aku ada duit extra

if i have the extra money




but i dont =(




*tolak meja mengamuk*

UNTITLED....i think you're cute

*she said no more*

UNTITLED....how 4th of July started

my fren read this and she was interested to get to know him

and me,being me, i try my fren to ngam-ho kan him with her lo

mana tahu my mission being miss posto back fired on me

and now i'm burning

but i dont mind though






*feels awesome*

UNTITLED...take the throne

partner, let me upgrade you








meow......



?

UNTITLED....kabare

updates:
1.find girls with short hair are freaking hot
2.added up a new scent to my favourites...its call 'bau kucing'
3.am not going to incubus, but looking forward to welcome a good fren back to KL
4.thinks that its time i should slim down.
5.have make an oath to wear ballerinas,flats and flip-flops...only in certain cases to wear heels....but likely would not still.
6.had her oatmeal chocolate drink for breakfast yesterday....wow...
7.love shuffling?
8.2-days-old beard are the 'in' thing now
9.somehow the 'cakap baku bahasa melayu' switch have flip on...i'm going full speed

10.feels that everyone are being fooled, stupidly into the Bersih thing

why? open your eyes....you guys are so misguided and misdirected.

Malaysia is facing a money scam, whereby there are millions of RM5 floating around without the record of Bank Negara...thats freaking serious, freaking serious, i tell you

and yet, otak cetek korang tahu nak gaduh, tak puas hati, marah-marah, melulu tak tentu pasal, bangang konon nak berjuang

SEBELUM KAMU BERTANYA APA NEGARA SUDAH BERJASA PADA KAMU, KAMU KENA TANYA DIRI SENDIRI, APA YANG KAMU LAKUKAN UNTUK NEGARA


bukak la mata babe....aku yang sengal ni pun tahu fikir

sekian, aku tepuk tangan nengok kawan-kawan gaduh sesama sendiri....yang cipta rusuhan dan skandal, duduk tepi minum teh

*tepuk dahi*


p/s: aku tak puas hati sebab aku tak dapat g pavillion masa rusuhan berlaku...tu aje -.-"

UNTITLED....some kind of secret i need to share with you

you are so freaking cute when u sang this song

i actually cant believe u sang this song

you know how yummy u are when u do that

i dont freaking think you know how yummy you are when u sang

u are as cute as hell

and i have the biggest crush on you

i am your freaking number on fan, Mr Meow!

yum yum yummyyyyyy

UNTITLED....wow.....

WOW

WOHOOOO

DANG

WOW

*guling*






















the upmost feeling ever....
wonder why?




<3

UNTITLED.....hi, my name is aisyah

harlo...

me heart cats
me love bunnies
me like ellies

as u know when its cold, my nose is turns into ice
and u noticed that when i eat, i tend to use a lot of tissue

i told you that i like little Japanese kids, they are so adorable and cute wen they talk.
and when i talked, i use strange, traditional Malay words that might sound too literature at times.

i cant resists dessert
and i love to munch a lot

i tend to be blur
but at times i talk a lot

my ideal holiday is the beach
but during my off day, i stay in bed

i have nightmares at nite, and worst if i watch zombie movies, i woke up sweating.
i think weirdly at times, and best when i'm feeling happy, i see candies flying around.

harlo
my name is aisyah
but u already know that, rite? =)

UNTITLED....hanya memuji

"bontot ko lawa la babe...."

-.-


ayat hebat dari kawan pompuan aku




sekian.
*kembang bontot*

UNTITLED...welcome to antu's yummy muffin club

can any men get yummier than this

*drools*

UNTITLED....lelaki yg buat lutut aku lemah

owhhhhhhhhhhhhh...still my yummy muffin
nobody can take my dream away


ohhhh
yum yum yummy

UNTITLED...diam, masih tak berbicara

tangan gapai, kaki tak sampai,
terbang sayap,
kaki masih beratai.





dalam keadaan redha, sujud aku, menerima,
kalau aku ditakdirkan sendiri,
ini terbaik buat kita berdua.

















i have to apologies.
ya, masih ada sedikit perasaan terhadap kamu
aku bohong kalau kata tak da lansung
pernah satu ketika, aku cinta kamu penuh,
tapi tu dulu,
sekarang, mungkin tinggal di satu sudut jauh


harap faham kenapa kita tak bersama
keputusan masing-masing, kita berdua perlu gembira



pada malam, disalurkan rindu,
pada siang, mulut dikunci bisu.

UNTITLED...rasa sunyi

ya
mmg aku ngaku aku agak rasa sunyi

serious dowh, sunyi giler



tapi apa yang membuat aku rasa ok
buat aku tabah hadapi


bila aku pikirkan kalau aku didalam 'tu'
aku sendiri
tak da org pun nak tolong

so might as well aku kena sabar hadapi persaan sunyi ni






korang tak pernah rase ke
bila korang nak tido malam
korang takut tak bangun esok nya

aku banyak kali rasa
dari kecik,
sampai la ni
kekadang aku takut
takut dan menangis


mampukah aku menghadap my Maker



sebab tu bila aku rasa sunyi
at least aku tahu
dalam hati aku ada Satu





ya, aku jahat
aku melakukan kemungkaran di dunia
tapi Syukur
aku masih ada rasa rendah diri
rasa takut
bahwa dunia ni sementara






















aku lepak makan ngan sorang mamat ni.....dia dok sibuk cakap pasal harta benda dia, mana tempat dia dah melancong.....gila bapak kaya la jugak

tapi hati aku tak tertarik
aku tak rasa megah, atau teruja nak berkenalan ngan mamat tu
serious dowh
kalau kawin ngan dia,hidup ko dok umah, gi shopping, jaga anak
mana-mana pompuan aku rasa syok, sanggup la gedik-gedik ngan dia


tapi aku buat bodoh
muka aku bedek je


dia siap cita pantai mana dia lepak
barbados, jamaica, hawaii


'so, u kan nak melancong? pegi pantai kan? u dah survey pantai mana u nak g?'

'dah...'aku jawab

'u nak pegi mana...?'

'i tak de lah byk duit nak g melancong. skang ni pun tgh kumpul...'

'tak pe lah....u nak pegi mana...'

'i mmg g pantai...tapi ada satu tempat, i nak g...tgh kumpul duit...Insyallah...i pegi...'

'ooo really....kat mana tu? filipines ke?'

'errmmm...tak pa lah...adalah satu tempat tu...'

'its ok u can tell....'

'i nak gi umrah...'

'......'

'kalau duit banyak skit...i terus nak buat haji...Insyallah....'



aku cakap ngan ko...muka mamat tu gila klasik
klasik ternganga aku bilang






dont judge a book by its cover
itu pesan nenek aku


sekian
harap aku tabah rasa sunyi ini
sebab kalau aku ditakdirkan hidup sendiri pun,
aku tak 'sendiri'
aku punya hati pada Satu

UNTITLED...you texted

you texted this morning

"...what brings you happiness, might also brings you sadness...."-aisyah M

thank you for understanding

UNTITLED......another random thing in writing

1.coffee:
i have broken my promise
i am now starting back my coffee
everyday
a flat white,
with 2 tablespoon of brown sugar
y?
cos first, i found a new,affordable cafe. second, it will stopped me from munching (seriously)

2.dating
i was lepaking with my bestie last sunday
and
even my bestie asked the question 'who am i dating, who is the guy'
again.....may i point out, i am not dating anybody at the moment.
there is no MR Aisyah with me,
aight?

3.big,big,biggy
me mom came and visit us yesterday
and she was freaking out to see how 'big' i 'grew'
if i say i am getting bigger
most of my friend will say 'you're so vain aisyah, you're not big, u're ok...'
then i stated all...
my weight is now 60kg
my waist is 34 inch
unfortunately i cant even fit into my 34" jeans
so shut-up....when i say i'm big...yes, i'm big ok.fullstop.

4.helmet
i am wearing a helmet to go to work these past 2 weeks
my car is still at the workshop

5.haircut
i wanna bela rambut panjang,
but thinking how much maintenance it will cost,
i'm thinking of chop-chop-chop,again
what stopping me is the thought of my love ones asking me to not have anymore short hair
if i chop this off again, i am pretty sure people will mistaken me for 'a pretty lil boy' -.-"

6.holiday
have surveyed my way through to have a beach holiday
alone. fullstop.

7.bucketlist
i cant do surfing this month as my work schedule doesnt permits me to have any weekends,
so i have set the next bucketlist.
Insyallah, the project starts early next month, and will end 2 weeks after.

8.Mukhtafi
I fell in love with this name.
its a name of a late sultan terengganu, and there's a mosque under this name.
when i heard the name, instantly i feel in love with it.
If my future husband permits (whoever that is) i hope to give my son this name.

9.Music
Time doesnt permits me to continue.
serious...i wish i have more time.

10.love my job, love my life, love my family, love my friends.
but its not complete.
i need you in my life
you, yes you...
ask me on a date, i'm waiting
waiting,patiently.




till then, adios....

UNTITLED....i needz a blue-skyz holidayz

seriously....
































serious, seriously





*dying*

UNTITLED...finally

yup, finally i updated my other blog

http://randomly0antu.blogspot.com/2011/06/now-out-of-sheer-randomness-antu-would.html

yup,
finally.


"aisyah, serious....ko tulis la lagi babe blog...lame tak baca dowh"

terkejut gak aku sapa yg baca blog aku

org yg aku tak kenal, siap msg aku nye inbox mintak post

wow....thank you. appriciated your support

=D

UNTITLED....i become part of your past

cable car







it was effortless

UNTITLED....ayat baik punya

ayat pick-up baik punya
ayat pick-up yg aku tahu dia tak sengajakan
dan dia ikhlas
somehow i knew


well, wat ever it is
me liky
me very liky indeed

he makes me feel 'nice'

*blushed*

UNTITLED....campak masuk laut

aku tak abis-abis senyum wei
pelik

kalau korang negok muka aku skang
aku rasa korang nak sepak je
nyampah
dah macam kerang busuk
duk sorang2 pun tersenyum


bangang ke apa aisyah ni
ke hang dah gila
ke mabuk


hahahahah

-_-"

aku sendiri pun takut ngan diri aku
boleh plak tersenyum sorang2
















kembang buntut,
masuk guni,
campak dalam laut



he he he he





sah aku mabuk laut
baik punya



-_-"

UNTITLED....thats it

thats it
i'll just f*cking gonna say it


i am freaking in love with a man who,i think,doesnt even know that i like him



why?



sebab i act so stupid in front of him



argghhh...for the longest freaking time
only few men have made me gelabah in front of them


and this guy never failed to do

*gelabah*


have you ever been stared by a man, who just looked at you,
and you ask him
'is there something wrong with me?'
'no..'
you started to touch your face to make sure there's no mayonnaise on it,
or glide your toungue across your teeth to make sure there's nothing stuck among it
or use your fingers to comb your hair to make sure it doesnt fall out of place
and then you ask him back
'is there something wrong with me?'
'no...'he just answered back

then freaking stop starring at me
i'm in love with your eyes

i wanted to say that to him
but of course i didnt
instead i said

please stop starring at me, its rude okaayyyyy *rolling my eyes*


arghhh stupid aisyah
she's trippin cos a guy just makes her nervous

*slap*

dear mr,
i like you very much

huhuhuhu...
i have to thank my fren whom introduced me to him

dear fren
at 1st i wanted to just kill you
but now, i just want to thank you
seriously, just thank you

thanks babe
guwe ingat jasa lo

*tunduk hormat*


=D

UNTITLED....as much as i want to

as much as i want too
the only way i get to know u is by seeing you more often

yup
and i wish for every second

-______-

aisyah tgh gelabah

mmg gelabah

hahahahhaha.....

UNTITLED.....facts for fakta

fakta yang mungkin kamu tidak tahu pasal saya:

1.jeans
saya sudah lame tak pakai jeans. paling last pakai masa gi penang dua bulan setengah lalu. kenapa? sebab bontot aku besar. serious, tak tipu. bila beli jeans, pinggang saya kecik, tapi bab peha ngan bontot mmg fail -__-" so, solution dia, saya selalu pakai long skirt, jumpsuit, aladins, seluar kembang, dan benda2 sewaktu dgnnya.kalau buang tbiat gak nak pakai jean, serious, mengambil masa 30 minit untuk put them jeans on.

2.nescafe
ya, saya kuat minum kopi satu ketika dolu, tapi skang dah kurang. saya tak boleh minum nescafe, sebab nanti saya terkentut-kentut. Sumpah tak tipu. saya kena minum kopi mahal (ayat nak kena penampar)

3.kebaya
saya suka kebaya.ini fakta saya rase semua rakyat jelata dah tahu. tapi saya nak bgtau gak. ya, saya suka kebaya.

4.bau
saya suka bau org. tak tipu, saya suka bau-bauan. tapi kalau terkena bau pekasam, mati migrain kapla den.

5. toolbox & wayar jumpstart
keta saya tak da aksesori menarik. cuma ada toolbox yg lengkap dan wayar jumpstart. ia membuat kwn lelaki saya kagum dan musykil terhadap kewanitaan saya -__-

6.botak
sebenarnya, saya suka lelaki botak. tetambah lagi kalau muka mamat tu cam budak nakal, tapi baik hati. wahhhhh...sungguh tertawan hati ini *melelehhhhh*

7.kambing biri-biri
saya suka makan kambing biri-biri. Lamb-Lamb-Glorious Lamb
bhaaaaa...bhaaaaa...bhaaaa <---zombie lamb

8.cinta
ada setengah budak anggap saya ni player. sebab patah tumbuh, hilang berganti katanya. kalau korang jumpa setengah budak tu, cakap ngan dia, aisyah nak jumpa. biar aku kasi pelempang laju2. mana fakta ntah dia ambik cakap aku player.
bagi saya cinta tak boleh dibuat main-main. perlu jujur dan niat satu. sebab saya memilih tu lah kot yg menyebabkan saya mengenali ramai lelaki. but serious, aku bukan bercinta penuh, cuma lepak-lepak berkawan. kalau nak kata betul-betul sapa boyfren saya, mereka yg rapat (besties), diarang tahu. aku kalau dah sayang cintan cintun, serious, aku mmg menjadi org yg serious didlm cinta. ewahhh...

9. orang tua
cukup pantang nenek moyang aku kalau org muda tak hormat org tua.

10. bahasa
penggunaan bahasa saya adalah janggal dan klasik. contoh di bawah:
-kalau org cakap pompuan, saya bilang wanita
-kalau org cakap opis, saya bilang pejabat
-kalau org cakap menarik, saya bilang karisma
-kalau org cakap jom, saya bilang mari
yg ni bab tak leh nak tolong dah
kalau org cakap reverse, saya bilang gostan

-.-

selamat malam dunia!

Untitled....baby let me upgrade you

you need a real women in your life

you need a queen to your kingdom

just let me upgrade you

he he he he

UNTITLED....cute giler tahap gaban

gaban pun tak cute macam ni








ayuh kita bernyanyi bersama =D

UNTITLED....mama

kepada anak muda yg cetek pemikirannya

Sesungguhnya kamu semua berbicara
bahwa sa nya kamu sayang ibu kamu
wanita yang telah melahirkan kamu
meletakkan dia di atas kamu,
kamu sayang dia, dan kamu bangga dan berbicara kepada semua
bahawa ibu kamu, sungguh kamu sayang dan cinta


tapi bagi saya,
budak hingusan seperti kamu adalah hipokrit
penipu besar
penikam belakang
penconteng arang

kenapa?

terdetikkah kamu
bila kamu berbuat sesuatu yang dilarang oleh ibu kamu
kamu berbicara bohong kepadanya
kamu sanggup menipu demi menutup salah kamu dihadapannya
kamu tipu dia,
dengan berlagak baik,
berniat hati, konon tidak mahu melukakannya
wal hal banyak perkara mungkar kamu telah lakukan

kamu sanggup tipu dan berlagak baik depan ibu kamu

bagi aku,
kamu anak derhaka

jangan tikam ibu kita
sungguh kita sayang dia,
perlu lurus niat dihati,
kena ikhlas pertalian nadi




















walau sungguh kita tak serapat mana dengan ibu kita
tolong jgn tikam belakang dia,
sayang dia dengan sepenuh hati, seperti bicara

ingat, ibu adalah segala, bapa adalah ketua.



Selamat Hari Ibu.

UNTITLED....first session

what i got to know about him:
1.he is in love with creed
2.he plays the electric guitar
3.he is a heavy smoker
4.he doesnt eat durian
5.he drinks nescafe o
6.he is the 1st child
7.he love football n futsal
8.he doesnt eat hati ayam
9.he loves ulam jantung
10.he is 168cm tall

the 1st question that pops from his mouth just now was

'so...how come you know dream theater...?'

we talk about food, to justin bieber

we never meet before

dun even know how each other looks like except in mms

he's not active with the net, not even fb

but some how it clicks

it just clicks

*click*

yup

it just clicks






=D

i was walking down the road, looking up, smilling, and talking...as if I was talking to God.

Syukur, i can feel a beat again


*click*

UNTITLED....you look nice

saw your new profile

u look nice


p/s: finally you change your profile pic to a current you.

UNTITLED....to who ever's out there

aku cair nengok lelaki pakai baju melayu cekak musang

kacak siot

*meleleh*

=P

UNTITLED....once upon a time

lovesong-adele

UNTITLED.... =O

i am really surprise at who reads my blog

seriously

really,
really,
really,

S.U.R.P.R.I.S.E

=O








thank you

for taking the time to just read my nonsense
i appreciate it


=)


you rawks.....

UNTITLED.....happy?

=D

happy?
most definately



*heart just jump with joy*

UNTITLED....i dreamt i was a ballerina

i was walking down the alley

then
i saw 4 men standing outside the entrance
stating that there's a dance competition
and they would like me to join in

they pulled my hand
i walked inside

it was a big hall
there was a big staircase going up towards the next level

in the middle of the staircase
stood a tall, poise, late 40's man
i knew he was the judge
and the 4 men says that i had to impress him

we had to impress him

i told them that i didnt know how to dance
a guy said its ok

'its in your blood...'

i sat down at the end of the staircase
and watched them dance

each of them took their turn

they were doing a contemporary dance

at the end

the same guy took my hand and ask me to dance

i just shake my head
indicating i do not know anything about dancing

he took my hand
pulled me up
lead me to the middle of the dance floor

i stood there looking at them
looking at me

suddenly
out of no where
i just race myself to the nearest wall
lift my left feet against it
and started my dance piece from there

all i can remember was

the moment
where i was in the middle of the hall
and i started spinning
slowly
round-and-round
it grew faster
and faster
i felt it in my toes
my body just felt the rush
i even could hear the loud classical song played in my head
as if the radio was just beside my ear
i felt it
it was just like i'm alive
i can feel the gravity

i was just spinning
and spinning
i didnt want to stop

then suddenly
i felt warm arms around my waist

it was a guy
among the 4
whom slowed me down
and said
'you were wonderful'
'you did well'
and he smiled

i remember how he looked
his eyes
his face
i didnt know this guy
and yet
i know him in my dreams

he just smiled
and i woke up

i woke up in the nick of time
in the nick of time to go to work

strangely
this time when i woke up

i could remember the dream
i could remember the tune
i could remember the feeling of spinning
i could remember his face

i just sat there at the end of my bedsheets

just thinking how weird the dream was

as far as weird my dreams could be

this was the weirdest so far

and yet,
it was the most beautiful among all

weird,
very weird i must say





*sometimes i dream of black cats, rivers, beach, jungle, houses, alley and many more*







yes, i am weird. my late dad says its a gift. a gift of imagination.
but sometimes i dream of bad things
nightmares
of zombies and ghost

when i was lil, my late dad used to say it's ok, everything will be alright
this is if i were to wake up form a bad dream
crying
and asking for a hug

i thought that if i grew up
none of these dreams would chase me again


it seems i was wrong



i do get nightmares sometimes

and sometimes
sweet ones too







its 2.21 in the morning.....why am i still up?




*sweet dreams are made of these, who am i to disagree*

UNTITLED....something i felt deep inside, still

comsumed with what to transpire

UNTITLED...if i were a singer

most definately i wanna be like lauryn hill, sade, chaka khan, duffy, amy winehouse

and all other soul sister of all

but most definately

i would kill just to be yummy'lious like her



most definately







*yummy*

UNTITLED....name saye gemuk

ada saya heran?

=D

UNTITLED....close my eyes

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why?)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The out moment I trace around the one that I call mine
Time to count more space
And beware that your drew the line
I don't need you solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, By my side
I'll run away with you, By my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why?)

Do I except you change, the past I hold inside?
With all the words I say
Repeating over in my mind
Some things you cant erase
No matter how hard you try
An exit to escape
Is all there is left to find

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?(Asking why)
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

So I,
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

UNTITLED....i am just too greatful

as i cry on certain days,
when things doesnt go my way

but lately i have been blessed
with a beautiful family
wonderful friends
a good job

dear God,
I am truly blessed
I am thankful for Your countless gift

to have bread on my table
to have a roof over my head
to have love companions around me




i kept thinking today, as once upon a time i used to sleep inside the car, i had nothing
and now, i believe, i belong to something
and that something is call 'home'


thank you, oh God

for that i am always a devotee to You

Amin...=)

UNTITLED....lily's boyfriend

caleb is just too hott

yummy

caleb yummy muffin

ahaks=)

UNTITLED...cikgu aisyah

aisyah: kamu pergi makan mana?

weng: nasi campuk *tangan tunjuk depan*

aisyah: nasi campur kat depan

weng: a-ah, kat plaza moint kiala

aisyah: oh, medan selera la tu

weng: bukan lah, food courk

aisyah: itu la medan selera

weng: apa itu medan selera...food courk lah

aisyah: ayooooo...itu food court panggil medan selera lah

weng: ya ka?

aisyah: abis, kalau bahasa melayu, food court tu apa

weng: food courk lah. kamu olang melayu selalu cakap itu food courk

-.-

weng adalah seorang rakan pejabat saya yang selalu bertutur bahasa kerana dia bilang yang bahasa inggeris dia pun lingkup...so dia selalu bertutur bahasa melayu dengan saya.

Kalau dengar, mmg kelakar...boleh buat gaduh

yang aku pulak...tak abis-abis kena gelak ngan geng pejabat/kawan aku....diorang kata aku nye bahasa dan percakapan kekadang baku. -_-"

nak buat cam mana
dah nasib badan

hohohohoh =D

UNTITLED....yup, be bold

its not how you carry yourself infront of a person
its how you be true to yourself to the person

=)

UNTITLED....bahan bualan

aku perlu tukar punggunaan perkataan dalam ayat aku

moga=mintak-mintaklah

ayat aku: moga dia ingat
ayat kalau tak nak kena bahan: mintak-mitaklah dia ingat

rekaan=design

ayat aku: aku suka rekaan terbaru coach
ayat kalau tak nak kena bahan: aku suka design terbaru coach

fikir=ingat

ayat aku: aku fikir nak gantikan je
ayat kalau tak nak kena bahan: aku ingat nak gantikan je

kacak=handsome

ayat aku: kacak uu mamat tu
ayat kalau tak nak kena bahan: handsome uu mamat tu





susah betul nak guna bahasa pasar ni -_-"

banyak kali plak tu aku kena bahan



aku ingat ada satu ketika dulu
aku tgh dating ngan sorang mamat ni
masa tu, kitarang tgh makan
aku tegur dia 'b, u got something on your dagu'
dia balas 'whats a dagu?' sambil pegang dahi dia, ingat dagu tu dahi

-_-"

mmg la aku tak guna bahasa sangat, skang baru nak praktis


watodo...hohohoho

UNTITLED....dear mr stalker

i know you'll be reading this,

and yes, there's no turning back

good bye

this is it














adele-rolling in deep

"we could have it all"
i guess

UNTITLED....oh ya, i forgot

i just heard
or actually read it

ouch?

it hurts doesnt it

well,
what goes around comes around

hell freaking yeah
full of awesomeness

karma rawks

=D



(p/s: ya, aku adalah manusia bangang yg suka bila nengok org lain sedih...tapi kalau org tersebut yg penyebab duka lara satu ketika dulu...aku tak kisah aku dipanggil manusia bangang...sebab serious, guwe puas lo sakit)

UNTITLED....alo, nama saya aisyah

nama saya aisyah

ye ke?

pembetulan

nama saya Siti Aisyah bt. Mohd. Mokhtar

dan saya bangga dengan nama ini

=D

UNTITLED....bila aku berbicara

cerna
pejabat
tempah
nada dering
klasik
ibunda
ayuh
suatu ketika
bahwa
tepak
maka
begitu
marilah
motif
ulasan
wawancara
ceria
akan tetap
seperti biasa
berubah
arah
kami
mengapa



dan sebagainya


ya, saya masih guna perkataan di atas

lepas tu kena gelak besar
-_-"
macam cipan

hahahahha...no hal la
watodo

aku mmg org klasik
bila berbicara
mungkin tak tahu nak cakap apa


=P

its who i am, not who i wanna be

UNTITLED......updates yaw

1. dengan segala hormatnya diumumkan bahwa saya dah turun 3 kg. skang berat saya 55kg. Yay?

2. Minum kopi kurang, tapi masih minum lagi

3. ya, saya single...ada masalah?

4. jatuh cinta ngan seorang mamat yg mungkin lansung tak terlintas kat hati dia yang aku suka kat dia. sebab gaya aku mmg cam bangang dan suka buat muka bodoh.haih...

5. 2 orang kawan aku nak kawen 1 mei ni. pagi pompuan, malam lelaki. hebat!

6. aku suka tgk gambar zaman aku memuda dulu, membuatkan aku nak bela rambut panjang balik.

7. tgh pikirkan bucket list aku seterusnya. Insyallah bulan June ni tercapai.

8. bontot aku makin besar, sebab tu aku banyak pakai long skirts, jump-suits and seluar kembang.

9. Aku terfikir dah lama aku tak balik kampung. harap aku dapat main hujan lagi

10. skang aku dah tak kisah apa orang nak pikir pasal aku. sebab true frens lies within. love yourself 1st, and the rest will follow.


Ayuh! mari berceria,
jangan senang duka,
hati mesti bersua,
moga riang tiada terluka.


ewahhhhh...spontan babe-_-"

UNTITLED....free falling

man it feels awesome






p/s: today was an awesome day

why?

clue: crush


he's my biggest crush

the biggest, so far


*smiles*



i'm freaking happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, on top of the world



i hope he doesnt read this,
cos if he do,
he knows i'm he's biggest fan


i feel like a high-school kid

huhuhuhu

*grin*

UNTITLED....masa untuk kurus balik

f*ck

so damn obvious ke yg aku dah put on weight

f*ck

i should pipe it down abit

but how can i?

food is like glorioussssssssssss to me

=(

*sings* food,food glorious food

UNTITLED....pity u

aku dah tengok muka awek tu
stakat tu je yg ko mampu
padan la sangat

serious
aku bersyukur i left ur ass back then

anyhow
good luck
all the best
and God bless


cos u need all the luck in the world
and for her
she need all the luck in the universe



what?
me being cruel?
i jahat?
sangatttt
if to u, yes i'll be the pain in ur ass
and i will rain on your parade
wait till she see's ur true color

scumbag

*grin*

UNTITLED....i've made up my mind

another bucket list will be slash out
aint gonna tell you until i've done it

hehehehe <-ketawa jahat

clue
-90% paddling, 10% ?



awesomeeeeeeeeeeee.....

11th June...here i comeeeeeeeeee

UNTITLED...giler jeles

gila tahap cipan aku jeles ngan lily
cipan pun tak jeles macam aku

serious....

-.-

oh caleb ku, dimanakah kamuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

UNTITLED....pukul empat dua puluh empat pagi

ya,
saya belum tidur

kenapa ya?







ini untuk malam-malam yg panjang,
mata tak lelap, hingga ke siang.





*wonders*

UNTITLED....amy, my amy

i think she's brilliant
and beautiful

who care's what u think?

i stick with mine

what?

yup, i thought so too




she's brilliant
and beautiful

UNTITLED....sebelum semua kahwin

*not to forget, lovely Ann, who's not in this picture*

its hard to find a group of frens who stayed together
i've meet them when i was 13
and i left the school at 14

one evening
a school reunion brought us back together again
i have to thank dipie for forcing me to go to the reunion
back in 1998 (if i'm not mistaken)

cos if she didnt do so

i wouldnt be in this family

i love my soul sisters

class bakti rawks!

=D

UNTITLED....apa aku rasa

untuk golongan yang ada cinta
tapi tidak mampu memupuk perasaan itu
atas sebab-sebab tertentu

ya

aku golongan itu

UNTITLED...so what

a blue turkish antique bracelet
with metal & wooden bangles
around my wrist

a hand made copper-wired red-blue-brown-stones ring
around my finger

a red round shape plastic earing
on my ears

a navy blue&white suspenders
with a high-rise stretchable wash-out black jeans
for my belly below

a 501st normal round-neck t-shirt
for my top

a brown hat
with black and white stripes around it
and my hair tuck in

a black pvc hobo hangbag
with adjustable metal/pvc strap
to carry my miggits around

a black pointed
ballet-like, flat shoes
to suit my walking needs


would you dare to wear something like this?

u wont right?

well i will =P

and i rock with it





f*ck off if you dont like my hat, skirts, patterns, clutches, shoes, rings or anything

i choose what i wear

aint no harm if 1 outta 10 were to fall out from 'fashion normal'

havent you heard?

we are who we are

and i love it!

*grind*

UNTITLED....feeling lonely

today
again,
i have to see the doctors
and this time
i was alone

before this
its with my sis didi
or my bestie fatimah
or my soul sister mawar

but today i was alone

many people text me
call me
asking how is it
i love u guys
serious
nothing beats good frens

i was a bit
kinda ok
blur
buat bodo
of the feeling being alone

i like companions around me
would make me feel 'alive'
not sick
or painful
as painful of my ear

as i parked my car
walked
looking around trying to find the clinic
asked the info counter
took my number
waited
and just looked around

i looked around
i saw people who wasnt feeling very well
i looked around
they were with their love ones

i suck it in
just ignored the feeling inside

open the sun newspaper
second page

i started crying

no shit
my eyes started raining

my ear pain came back?
no
i feel lonely?
no

i started crying becos i saw a picture

a picture of an old man
in the ruins of tsunami in Japan
with a picture on his back

a picture of his lost wife
strap around his back
trying to find her
walking about with the ruins

My God
did i cry

he loved his wife very much, i must say
never gave up
and always pray

My god
I just cried

and becos of that
it inspired me to write a poem

http://antu-art-motion.tumblr.com/

and God
did i cried
dated 18th march

UNTITLED....damn it

after all these f*ckin years
i'll take deep breath looking at certain pictures
memories still keep bugging me

i wonder why

f*ck

UNTITLED.....dah lama juga

mari,mari
kita berlari
lari jauh
mengikut hati

pada bulan di lontarkan batu
pada hati salurkan rindu
aku berkira hari demi hari
satu saat rasa terhenti

tiap saat aku terfikir
akan kewarasan minda, hati dan diri
benar sungguh aku rasa kaku
pada rasa yang buat ku membunuh
sayang aku pada tanah
kepakku mahu terbang, kaki ku bernanah

tebar aku segulung tikar
sujud aku niat beikrar
sungguh aku malu meminta
moga hati tenang, selesa dijiwa














ini untuk malam-malam tidur ku tak penuh
bangun mimpiku masih mengeluh
dalam hatiku cinta tak jenuh

UNTITLED....are u in Japan?

i got 8 misscalls
one of it was a foreign number
please dont tell me u're in Japan

God, I couldnt stop thinking the worst
please call me, txt me, fb me, or something

i cant call ur mom
sure she'll go nuts about me, or u, or us (we're just friends k)
i takut she thinks else and she'll be happy for a while, then when i say its nothing, she'll be sad again
my God,
i'm babling
pleaseeeeeeeeee
tell me u're not in Japan
God, tell me u're not in Japan

time aku tak bawak phone, time tu la benda cam ni nak jadi

i have the worst sick feeling in my stomach
ok
please
be safe
no matter where u are

GODDDD, just call me back k
u know how

ARGHHHHH...







P/S: this doesnt mean anything...dun get me wrong...its just me being worried about my frens, and u are my fren, so call me k.

UNTITLED....nobody knows it but me

*u never fail to make me smile*



i'm alone
in the office
duffy's playing
doing my task
a bit of fb

then

ur txt came in

Mecca, 2am.


*u never fail to make me smile*

UNTITLED....it so beautiful

i saw the picture
its beautiful
u must be at peace
i wish i can be there
maybe one day
its beautiful
so beautiful
u take care
jgn lupa alas perut
take rest
and God bless

=)

*i wish to write you an email, but i dunno what to write. I'm just glad you txt me*

TIDAK BERTAJUK....kalau saya bertutur dalam bahasa melayu

'aku nak balik pejabat jap...'
ayat ini penyebab aku jadi bahan

'saya nak tempah, boleh?'
ayat ini pun penyebab aku jadi bahan

hanya sebab aku guna perkataan 'pejabat' dan 'tempah'
orang melayu sendiri gelakkan aku

bila aku bertanya, kenapa gelakkan aku,
mereka bilang

'mana ada orang guna perkataan tu. plus, kalau dengar, kelakar....'

huh?

'orang skang guna ofis'

'orang tak guna tempah, just say i wanna order for tomorrow'

keliru aku, sungguh keliru

masa aku kecil
aku diejek

rambut aku kerinting,
mata aku coklat
kalau orang pantas bercakap bahasa melayu dengan aku,
aku lansung tak faham
darjah dua, aku masih tak tahu eja lori

masa aku remaja
aku kena bahan
kalau tak tahu masak lemak cili api, kena cemuh dalam kelas
aku panggil kuih keria, kuih donut - makcik kantin kecoh satu sekolah aku tak tahu nama kuih

ya, aku tak tahu banyak
tapi itu bukan penyebab untuk orang melayu sendiri gelakkan orang dia

aku melayu
mungkin separuh
mungkin penuh

apa yang boleh kamu semua hakimi kalau orang itu melayu atau tidak?

dari segi bahasa?
tata tertib?
pakaian?
agama?
suara lantang?
sawa matang?
mata bulat?
rambut ikal mayang?

maaf aku terlampau marah
dari kecil, sampai hari ini
kaum aku sendiri gelakkan aku
aku tak faham

satu ketika dulu aku memakai baju kebaya hitam
nenek aku bilang
"cantiknya cucu aku pakai kebaya, betul cantik"
aku bangga
selalu aku pakai baju lain, tak pernah nenekku puji

atuk angkat aku suruh aku pakai selendang
"cucu kena pakai seledang,tahu. baru nampak ayu"

konsert pertama aku,
konsert keroncong hetty koes endang,
dibawa oleh ibu ku

aku tidak lagi memperkenalkan diriku, kepada mereka yang baru, dengan nama panggilan syasya
aku mahu mereka panggil aku aisyah
maksud aisyah ialah
orang yang hidup bahagia
aku bangga ada nama sebegitu rupa
dan ini pesan ayah aku juga

adakah kalau muka aku lebih cenderung ke arah keturunan bugis melaka aku, kamu semua tak memperlekehkan aku?

maaf
aku memang dalam keadaan marah

lebih marah
bila yang tegur dan gelakkan aku itu suka berbicara pasal isu melayu
mereka sayangkan bangsa mereka
tetapi gaya, ada masa, tidak kena

*sekali lagi, aisyah mohon maaf kalau ada yang tersinggung/marah/makan hati akan penulisan aisyah*

saya sangat sayangkan semua
keturunan, keluarga
bangsa dan agama

dan saya masih belajar
ingin belajar
paling penting, memahami

UNTITLED...there's so many things i wanted to say, but i just cant

today
i had lunch with my fren
dunno how
the chatting becomes a subject about u
i didnt say much
i didnt explain much
but i put it in a nutshell the story of us
just few sentences

she had tears in her eyes

belive it or not

she had tears in her eyes listening to my story
about us
which i just briefly explain
in about 5mins
without going into details

"its so saddddddd..." she cried

i just look at her
i dunno what to react
cos i dah immune
so i just buat muka beda/selamba/bodo/dee

"things happen for a reason..." i said

yup,
most definately

things happen for a reason

if you ask me all the love story that i had
i swear to God,
nothing beats my story
every single relationship
nothing beats one another

sometimes i just wonder where did i put my heart at

*wonders*

UNTITLED....i love

i love to bite baby's cheeck
i love to steal my mom's shoe
i love to dance in the rain
i love to breath in the smell of fresh cut grass
i love to sing
i love to dance
i love to smell other people's perfume
i love to roll my eyes
i love to see how muffins are being bake
i love the smell of coffee during rain

i love you

yes you, who ever reading this

you maybe a girl from jamaica
you maybe a 45year old guy reading randomly my blog

i love you

and dont forget

to love yourself too=)

love is the ultimate power

even if you're alone in the universe, like me

even if you're alone in the office, like me

just love yourself
and the universe will follow you

=)

UNTITLED....pee-ka-but

hi,
its me again
miss me?
i thought so too
funny thing is that,
some of my frens txt me, asking how come i havent blog no more
wow
never expect people were to read about me
hey, its just about me
me and my daily dosage of life, love, family, frens
perspective of life
so...
wat do u wanna hear?

work?
i got into a new place in moint kiara
awesome stuff,
been happy, its been long since i like/working/passion about something that i do for money

guitar?
i put it on hold, financially not enough. i've been supporting my sis a-level and education nowadays is not cheap. but the value, is priceless. so i dont mind putting on hold what i love, who i love and care i must put them 1st

family?
been great...i miss my granma, but all she can ask around is, who's i'm dating -_-"

love?
hmmm...actually, u can categories me as single but not available. i dunno where did i put my heart. its lost somewhere. things happen for a reason.

him?
there's a malay saying "kalau jodoh ada, Insyallah" (if God's willing and its fated, it will be there). lets just say due to certain subject we cant be together, for the time being. how ever, i do believe time is running out for me.

life?
i'm quite happy. been listening to a lot of jazz. having time on my own. self discovery. having my own bucketlist and trying to achieve it.

frens?
they rock....my frens, they all rock...i love them to the max....how do i know they love me back? well, if i were to be quite, max 1 week, they would surely call to see wassup. i love them

health?
doing fine. still have a lil flame with me. last migrane was on the 20th feb. i'm 55kg still though. n somehow, i'm happy with it.


life's been beautiful...supple, but yet there's something thrilling about it
and yes, i've been reading
reading?
aisyah reads?
yes, aisyah's been reading
i miss my coffee
but the last time i had one was i cant even remember when
that shows how long i've stop on my cuppa
in the morning when i wake up, i'll take me 10mins to get up
i'll think
and have thoughts
in the car
when i drove back
i'll think
and have thoughts
it seems that i'm getting old
mature and wiser is what my surroundings are stating
no, i'm just learning
and still
learning life

i'm trying to find money
and slash one of my bucketlist
to go umrah
in 2/3 years in time
Amin
hope God's willing
and i know Allah loves me
and faith have kept me alive and always will be

=)

my life is supple...yet, thrilling

UNTITLED....I AM IN LOVEEEEEEEEE......

fucking shit i am not kidding
i am seriously loving this cover and these two gifted guys

fucking shit no kidding

fuck shit

shit fuck

*aisyah tend to swear when men makes her nervous*
-___-"

i am in loveeeeeeee.......






*plays her guitar*

UNTITLED.....apa kabar org kg?

4th jan 2010

dang...that long huh?

busy?

lets see

i've been busy with my work
seeing a lot of frens
have unexpected spontaneous event

go to here
went there
been all around

now?
current at UM's library
at 5pm going to play badminton with my besties
wow?
hahahahah...
nowadays i just dun plan

i even got to see the lastest movie by getting free tckts
got present for christmas
going to many,many,many cafe to eat and explore
got a gig but turn it down
went back to banting
got a new kitten,me moms new 'daughter'
become an mc at a student council

and many more

i'm still at 55kg though

and the boobs getting most of the attention

-_-"

its just boobs

stupid over rated boobs

watodo

tralalalala...

oh ya,

Happy New Year!

dang,that long huh?

=)

UNTITLED...heartless

i dunt feel anything no more
whats wrong with me?

hmmm....

one day i'll understand

yup..

most definitely

a bigger picture

UNTITLED....2 weeks of no news

yup....2 weeks of no lepaking and no hangouts
no update, no news

well

below is some

1.got admitted into the hosp and had minor surgery on my neck...found a lump, bacterial growth it seems
2. still worn out with work, trying my best to give it my best although its wearing me out (sounds like a riddle)
3. watched harry potter last sunday
4. bought another black dress =)
5. went for a pt job interview but unfortunately didnt get it. watodo
6. been drinking a lot of green tea, replacement of my coffee. sad thing is that, the coffee effects has taken a tremendous toll on my body
7. clean out my room and i've thrown away a lot of 'memories' and the best freaking thing is, it didnt have any effects on me any more.awesome!
8. had my 'gift' read again and now 'they' say i have to carry out my 'responsibility' of being a 'gifted' one.
9. looking forward to many things in the future, cos i've put it on hold. hope to see it up and running.

10. baby is with me, sharing each adventure.

damn i feel lucky rite now

although my life kinda sucks in many ways,
there's still a flower among those thorns


fuck up freaking awesome =)

UNTITLED....i dont have to say much

*smiles*

UNTITLED...niat, usaha, doa, tawakal

beautiful song, i must say

i dont want no fairytale,
i want an adventure

=)

UNTITLED.....every now and then

every now and then
you would check up my blog

rite baby?

i just caught u reading this

=P

just wanted to say i really miss you

really really really trizziliooonnnn really miss you




*aisyah tgh gelabah*

-_-"

baru dua hari tak jumpa dah gelabah

*slap*

watodo


the picture above is taken when we 1st went out for our lunch date together...so tell me...when is the next time you'll be spending at least a half day with me (all to myslef)?
the jb one in dec doesnt count k..=P

so tell me when?

i'm getting pretty annoyed that the public get to spend more time with you then myself

susah betul dating ngan 'public figure' ni...
ayoyoyoyo....
=P

hohoho...

and you better set a date with me k!

UNTITLED...i just lost a fren...i think

he got into a car accident
he died at the sidewalk

at the funeral
nobody came

funny

he's a famous chap
very famous

yup he got lots of 'frens'
thats for sure

but nobody came to his funeral



and i did

just because he 'used' to be my fren
used to

y?

he used to listen how the wind blows
he used to smell the cutting grass
he used to play in the rain
he used to walk bare feet
and let the seashores runs through his feet

he used to

but now he dont
at least he dont, no more

"oh...grow up aisyah...people change!'

this is what he shouted to me when i told him he'd changed

yup
he changed alright

RESPONSIBILITY

the one word
the reason he said he'd changed

funny....

he grew up alright

he become an educated fool
only to have money in his mind
get the latest gadget
buy the most expensive toys
wear the most branded things
eat the most luxurious food

and with this, he claim

he feel he's at 'home'



funny.....


i used to be his 'home'


he changed alright
and that whats keeping us apart


and when i came to his funeral
and bought along sunflowers
his mother cried
and said
"he used to love those..."

and may i remind you readers again
is the word 'used to...'










sit back and think...if you died, who would come to your funeral, who would actually cried or shed real tears for you...

*figures*

i know u'll be reading this,fren

dont get lost
just find your way back
back to your home
where ever it is

UNTITLED...dear baby

Dear Baby,

U know i never ask anything from you...

but can i have him as my pet? <--aisyah making puppy eyes

pretty pleaseeeeeeeee

love,
sayang







this is Boo

geramnyeeeeee....

*gigit*

UNTITLED...big bum-bum

remember the little black dress that i mention in the previous blog

well

i wish its not little, no more

why?

i tried it on yesterday

just to see

as its been inside my closet for 6 month, since i bought it



and my bum-bum cant fit in it, no more




-_-"

al-la-mak

a-yo-yo-yo-yo

bleahhhhh

*eats her beef bacon*

UNTITLED...28102010

one down

enternity to go


I LOVE YOU


you just smile didnt you?

=P

UNTITLED...

UNTITLED...jazz jazzy jazz

finally
i can wear my black dress next week

yay!

i bought it 6 month ago
but never got the chance to wear it
-_-"

but now
i do

me gonna meet mr davis
with my baby

for a jazz nite

yay!

FREAKIN AWEASOMEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

=)

UNTITLED...a piece of advise 2

to those who wish to be love again

if you have skeletons in the closet
and cant share it with your partner
then she/he is not your better half

if you still have feelings towards your ex
and cant seem to shake it off
then she/he is not your soul mate

if you ask your partner to trust in you
but you still keep things behind her/his back
then she/he is not your wife/husband-to-be

if you tell her/him
that she/he is your everything
but you make plans on your own
then she/he is not the mother/father to your child

if you put her/him alongside your friends
not in your family
then she/him is not your heart

if you tell her/him that sometime
somewhere, you need time just for yourself
and dont want to be bothered
then she/him is not your love


i advise all
to share everything with your better half/love/partner
and when i say everything
means
EVERYTHING

it works for me
=)

from day 1,
i wanted to start a relationship with him
i told him the truth
and shared everything with him
no dark secrets

=)
and he love me for who i am

now tell me
isnt that just awesome
=)





I love you baby
as much as you love me too

and word just cant discribe how beautiful you are

=)

UNTITLED...define definition

one-
can you, please define the word love?

two-
please, can u find the definition of the word love?



its the same old thing isnt it?

think again...





if you're inside the car
and a song plays
and all u can think about is him
is that love?

if you're walking down the street
and you notice a thing
which doesnt even related to him
but somehow it remind you of him
is that love?

if you have the courage
to ask the permission of your mother
and your granma
for you and him to have a blessed relationship
is that love?

if you pray to God The Almighty
in each words
Hopes and dreams
to be with him together
is that love?

if long for his voice
to see his face
and look into his eyes
even for a minute
is that love?

if you can find every topic in the world
to talk and gossip with your bestie
but only to be found
that in the end
all you can talk about is him
is that love?

if you try so hard to be a better person
to make him smile
and know that you can make him happy
is that love?

if you suddenly smile
in your mind, your heart, your soul
he makes you giggle, makes you feel happy
is that love?




i've been in love...
yes...
several of times...
and each one of them give me the goosebumps


its kinda the same, in a way

all of my ex, they make me happy at certain period of time

its the same old thing isnt it?

think again...



this guy,
my baby,

is different

i dunno how to explain it
but seriously
its different

Fatimah, my bestie, who has been with me throughout 4 of my ex-relationship, notice a difference in me

today she came and visit me
we lepak at the green coffee
me having my coffee, and she's having her frapp

at one moment

i just smiled at her
and she smiled back

in my mind was you
but i didnt say anything to her

and yet, its like she could read my mind

'aisyah, you're different now....in a good way =)'

she said

and i realise it

but i couldnt put it in words

if i can explain how much this guy make me feel
i could have

if i can write what this guy have done to me
i would have

if i can define the word love that i have for him
i should have





no words can discribe this feelings
no songs can define this meanings
no emotions can potray this dealings


I'M IN LOVE

and its as simple as

UNTITLED...freaking

1.tuesday last week- went to paramore concert with my frens
IT WAS FREAKING AWEASOMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

2.wednesday last week- went to watch PLUCK with my baby
IT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUSSSSSSS!!!!

3.sunday last week- went window shopping @ mid vall with my bestie
IT WAS FREAKING NICEEEEEEEEE!!!!

4.giving certain period of day last week- slept like nobody's bussiness
IT WAS FREAKING GOODDDDDD!!!!!

5.saturday nite last week- lepak @ home with my sis didi and my bestie fatimah
IT WAS FREAKING GIRL'S NITE OUTTTTTTTTT!!!!

6.thursday last week- went to ikea, ikano, the curve
IT WAS FREAKING HAPPYYYYYY!!!!!!

=P

a fren ask me

'aisyah, ur lastest pic babe, dah lame tak nengok ko...'

ermm....famous sgt ke aku smpi org nak tahu perkembangan semasa diriku ini

*masuk dlm guni, campak dlm laut*

well...jeng-jeng-jeng





i admit
i have put on some weight
some?
erm...55kg and counting and my bottom's....lets just say its expanding every minute

this pic was taken as i was window shopping around to find new flava to my wardrobe
and damnnnn...
me liky the skirt
its topshop btw
and its in my list to buy

hohohohoho <--ketawa jahat tapi comel

ADVENTURE IS OUT THERE!!!!!!!

yay!

UNTITLED...been busy

seriously,
been busy

i'll update later yo

lurv u guys

UNTITLED...harloooo

last time i came online was sunday
and today is friday

hohohoho
wow...
its been awhile huh

got email to

UNTITLED...u readers out there

i am quite surprise who actually reads my blog
ya
i mean, i dont really expect people to read this
but you know
if people, my friends, were to come up to me and told me that they read my blog
i'll be like
'my God, why are u reading it...its nothing, its like, u know, stupid...dont read it'
me: being shy of what i wrote and what i think

but the answer that they would give it that

"u blog it...u post it up...obviously u want people to read...its there for a reason, its for people to read"

-_-"

kinda true also
i mean,
i post up things, just for the heck of it
for fun

so yeah
thanks
i really appreciate it

i mean
it surprises me a lot to know
or accidentally catch my friends who reads it

but yeah
thank you

=)

i guess u'll be reading this also

to who ever is out there....
I LAP YOU (in aisyah's term, she love and appriciate u readers out there)

Thanks =)

UNTITLED...gigitttttt...

I WANTZ RABBITZZZZZZZ!!!!!


*gerammmmmm*

*gigitttt*

akan ku salai buat satay

*gerammmmmnyeeeee*

UNTITLED...me,myslef and i

1. puasa from coffee sudah masuk hari ke-5 (bagus aisyah,gambate!)
2. is having slight rashes and nose block as the food that i eat is not exactly what i'm suppose to consume (seafood rawks)
3. been listening to the radio, and she realise that sad songs doesnt effects her no more (yay!)
4.lazying enough to go to work due to not enough man power to support her (penat tahap gaban tuuu)
5. been sleeping a lot, no more insomia (wonder why, wink-wink)
6. having regular ribena and hash brown for breakfast (wonders of drive thru)
7. got a paramore concert to go to, a jazz show to attend, and a classical funny trio to watch (1, with my frens, the rest with my baby)
8. gotten her her 5th WHITE colour walking companion (i have a natural obsession with white shoes now)
9. is craving to eat ikea's hazelnut choc (droolsss)

10. tgh rindu tahap dewa langit ke-7 pada her baby (baru satu hari tak jumpa, dah gelabah)



and he just txted me again....just now



=)

UNTITLED...for those who ask

we have nothing in common
he likes to read, i'll burn books
he likes to clean, i'll toss brooms
he likes to plan, i'll throw the schedule
he likes it simple, i'll make it complicated
he likes to sit and talk, i'll try to run and shout
he likes to be rational, i'll make him go crazy
he likes it sweet things, i'll create a mad stuff

he's cute and cuddly
he's my baby

he's Syed Ibrahimsha,
and again
he's my baby









how i meet him?
dia 'tukang kutip hutang' di tempat keja aku dulu=P

how we hook up?
i ask him out for lunch. but before lunch came, he ask me out for dinner and tea time

how are we doing so far?
words cant describe it, but my smiles give it away







so....
the cat's outta da bag
whats next?

Adventure is out there!!!!!!

=P

UNTITLED...8th Oct 2010

the devil came barging in with madness today
he shouted and scream
as he was defeated with his own deadly sin

'give me back my claim!!!'

'what claim?'

'your breath...my claim!!!'

'my breath??....u took it already'

'NOOOOO...it seems that its now in your possession...give it back!'

'its not with me'

'yes its with you, we had a deal (refer to post 19 sept 2010)....now give it back!'

'for pete's sake, i dont have it'

*devil looking confuse*

'if its not with you...then where is it?'

*me smiling*

'he took it already...he took my breath away....'

devil : fuck shit =(

me : hell yeah =)




my baby....he's the one who took my breath away
=)

"i'll be captivated
i'll hang from your lips"

"I'll be the greatest fan of your life..."

*plays her guitar*




*blushed*

3.25am

UNTITLED...the person behind the wheel

in my car
i like to sit and think
cause that is the only time i have time for myself

when the driving ends,
the destination is reached,
i got out,
i become a daughter
a sister
a grandchild
a manager
a student
a best gf
a pet sister

and many more

most of my thoughts goes with the memories of the past
the determination of future
the reality of the present

i tend to cry
tend to smile
tend to be grateful
tend to be hateful
tend to be angry

full of emotions
that sits in my heart and head
while driving inside my car










but the routine breaks
as i had now found myself
bursting with giggles
smiling once in a while
thinking of happy thoughts
and nothing more



why is this so?



only God knows what inside my heart

and i believe that my surroundings can see it to


I'M IN LOVE

only a blind man cant see that

=P


and now when i get out of that kelisa
i can add the list above

a sayang

ahaksssss....

Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

p/s: its 2.09am in the morning.....i just realise i left my phone inside the car, i called u at 1.04am just now after finishing work, but i'm sure u are half asleep, beautifully dreaming, and getting the proper rest that u need after a long day today =) sleep tight baby, i'll text u in the morning when i get to the car for college =)

UNTITLED...pesan nenekku, aku berdoa

Aku hendak bercerita sedikit,

Tentang satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat akan satu doa yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan negatif yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan

Aku teramat ingat
Perasaan yang ada semasa aku ucapkan doa tersebut
Rasa kosong, sedih tak terhingga
Akan menyesal keadaan semasa
Dimana aku rasa sunyi,
Tak ada teman disisi,
Untuk bercerita suka duka, lara diri

Pada ketika itu,
Aku teringatkan nenek aku pernah bercerita
Akan dimana dia berniat
Akan dimana dia berdoa
Moga hati dia terbuka, untuk menerima si jejaka
Atuk ku datang, dia terima
Dan walau pada masa itu, neneku sudah dikira lanjut usia
Nenek kata berdoa sahaja
Ditanam dihati, bila disebut , jangan dipersia

Lalu pada masa itu,
Akan rasa sedih yang teramat, tidak terhingga
Dengan penuh kekesalan, penuh kusyuk,
Penuh niat, sepenuh hati
Aku menangis, berdoa kepada Dia
Doa nya berbunyi

“Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku. Tuhanku yg Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang. Aku panjatkan doa kepadaMu. Sepenuh hatiku, seikhlas nada sedihku. Aku telah berdosa dengan meletakkan seorang lelaki diatasMu. Dan bila aku berduka, putus, dia tiada, baru ku teringat akanMu, Tuhanku yang Satu. Memang aku tahu aku tidak layak setinggi mana. Aku malu berdoa kepadaMu, waktu susah sedih baru ku teringat akanMu. Tetapi dengan ini aku niat sepenuh hati ku. Aku pohon sepenuh sedih ku. Kalau la benar jodohku diluar sana, ada pun sungguh jodoh suami ku, aku berniat:
Aku tidak kisah asal-usulnya, harta-karunnya, tinggi benar pangkatnya. Aku berniat agar dia baik hati, terima aku seadanya. Ikhlas dia benar mencintai aku, menyanyangi aku dan keluargaku, ingin benar membimbingku ke jalanMu, lalu menjadikan aku isterinya yang satu, ayah yang baik kepada anak-anakku, contoh moyang teladan cantik kepada generasiku.
Diminta moga hatiku terbuka menerima dia. Dan bila aku mendapat dia sebagai suamiku, sesungguhnya, aku benar-benar berniat, bila dia memberi kurumah berteduh, aku ku jaga bersih rumah itu. Bila dia memberiku zuriat yang sihat, akanku didik mereka sebaik-baiknya. Bila dia beri aku cinta, akan ku jaga dia sehingga tamat usia.
Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku. Aku tidak kisah lelaki mana. Asalkan baik hatinya. Dan aku seorang cinta dihatinya”

Ya, itulah dia doa aku
Sungguh aku tak tipu, benar-benar aku berniat
Saat itu, aku memang sedih dan aku beringat
Aku doa sepenuh hati, memang ikhlas, niat buruk tiada
Cuma ingin rasa nikmat bercinta, tapi berlandaskan agama

Minggu yang sama,
Malam Jumaat itu, pergi makan bersama teman lama
Sudah dua tahun kenal, tapi tak pernah nak tahu akan lanjut berita
Pada malam itu juga
Telah aku saksikan
Betapa baik hatinya, ikhlas
Menasihat kawanku, dengan penuh berwibawa
Lalu aku tiba-tiba berkata
Bisik hatiku, mula bercerita
“baiknya dia….memang baik hatinya”

Esok hari ku menghantar adikku ke kolej
Adikku tiba-tiba ingin bertanya
Akan soalan mengenai Adam,
Apa perlu dibuat, kalau hati mahu si dia.

Aku pun bernasihat,
“kalau jumpa lelaki yg baik, tahu dia ikhlas dan indah budi perkertinya…kita Hawa harus terus bertanya, tak payah tunggu si dia. Kita mulakan, dan niat moga menjadi, Insyallah bersama”
Tetiba, ya, wajah si lelaki kawanku menjelma
Sungguhku terkejut, sungguh tidak disangka
Namun ku pendam, tidak mahu fikir apa-apa

Hari berlalu, tapi hatiku masih bertanya
Kalau aku mengajak si dia,
Mahukah dia terima? atau aku mungkin malu tak terhingga?
3 hari berlalu, pada Isnin berikutnya,
Aku pun teragak-agak
Lalu aku hentam terus mengajak
“Sudi tak mahu makan tengahari denganku, atau minum kopi bersamaku pada hujung minggu”
Bayangkan perasaanku,
Aduh malu kejap, takut dia buat tak tahu
Bila dia membalas…
=)
*aku tersenyum*
Itu saja yang mampu ku gambarkan perasaanku
Sedikit ada, memang aku keliru
Akan hati aku pada masa itu
Kami cuma berkawan,
Tapi hati riang, mahu sihat, mahu berkawan

Dan bila satu pagi dimana aku didalam keta
Menuju ke tmpt keja
Tiba disuatu jalan, tempat yang sama
Dalam keadaan sesak lalu lintas yang lebih kurang sama
Aku teringat doa itu yang telah aku ucapkan
Lalu aku menitiskan air mata kesyukuran
Akan rasa yang telah dikurniakan pada waktu itu,
Berbanding dengan perasaan yg ada pada masa doa itu di lafazkan












Percaya atau tidak,
Dia sebenarnya minat juga kepadaku,
Dua tahun yang lalu
Cuma dia takut, dia malu,
Tak berani dekat dengaku
=)
Syukur aku, memang ku bersyukur
Allah telah buka pintu hatiku,
Untuk bertanya, dan sedikit berusaha
Niat ikhlas, doa tak mahu dipersia


=) Dan doa seterusnya adalah untuk sejahtera, kita berdua

Amin dan Syukur…..

Hasil tulisan Siti Aisyah bt. Mohd. Mokhtar, pada 2hb 10 2010, pada pukul 2.40pagi, di fikirannya hanya bersyukur pada Allah, di hatinya hanya cinta pada si dia =)