UNTITLED...i refuse to back down

if you have seen a girl

walking in the rain

sometimes skipping

and then dancing

while nodding her head

and her hand spreads wide

then you'd say to yourself

'gila punya budak...'

or

'ape hal pulak budak ni...'

right?


but did u notice the soaking wet headphone that warps her head

with her smiles
and her eyes filled with life


then maybe you'd understand

=)







yesterday,
as i walked trillion steps away from the cafe, i notice that,there wasnt any umbrella in my hand
looking at the rain
i said '...bantai...'
so i walked

and at that right moment
the right time

this song was playing

Rain-Mika


















imagine how i dance in the rain


and how i felt alive
=)

When you made it rain...
You made it rain...

try it...i recommend you....play under the soft soaking rain, with this song....u'll be tip-toe'ing....kalah high school musical....hohoho...


A.L.I.V.E!!!

UNTITLED...malam Jumaat

i've dreamt about u last night....

UNTITLED....a bebel dinner

my lil brother came and visit me today
bukak posa sama-sama
its been long since we had a talk
the last time we've meet was i think was about 2 month ago

he looked at me in sadness
and said

'i dunt think i'm goin to be with _______'
?
'i use to like her so much, but now, after she turned me down, i just cant. and i've tried, so badly, and its been months already'

i look at him and just said nothing

he continues to tell how the relationship was at the peak, how he confess his feeling towards her, but only to be crashing down the hill in the end

and the thing was, he did a 'thing' which was suppose to make a girl go '...auwww, that is so scweeeettttt...'

the story goes

it was his birthday
she was admitted in hospital to undergo an operation the next day
he wanted to come and visit her, they planned to celebrate it, although in was inside the hospital itself
he came to his car, only to find that he has a flat tyre
he calls her up, saying that judging from that, they have to change plans
there were only silence at the end of the phone
he knows that she was sad

and what he did
he walked to the nearest shopping mall
literally, he walked

he walked to the curve
bought a teddy bear and cake
took a cab to the nearest lrt station
got in the train
off at the platform
into a cab again
and arrive at the hospital, 4 hours later

she was surprise
her frens was stunned
the teddy bear was hanging out of his bag pack
gave it to her
eat the cake together
usap her forehead
and tuck her into bed

when this was happening,
he soooooo wanted to confess his feelings towards her
but he felt that this wasnt the right moment
she's in pain, and he's afraid that if he said something
might pulled her down

but he got everything planned already

'when its over, there's a card inside the box for you. dont read it now, and dont read it in front of your frens.....read it when you are really free'

he waited patiently
maybe for a text or call

and days goes by, in silence

ring-ring
=)

she said that she read the card, only after she was dismiss from the hospital, at the comfort of her home

and then she explain

=(

'and that is why i dont think i'm going to be with her no more....'

hmmm....i didnt say much

i was like....*speechless*

i didnt feel anything though

no sadness for him,
no angry for her

i was just plain listening


'but guess what, now _______ (his ex of 6 years ago) and me, maybe, are going back together...'


-__-"

now i know why i was immune to love stories.....

cinta adalah satu nikmat
dimana manusia perlu beringat
bukan untuk dijual
mahupun untuk dikhianat

sayang sama sekali manusia sekarang bosan semua
tak tahu makna,
tak tahu harga,
lalu akhirnya,
buta cinta

for those who deny your love, you're just stupid
for those who dunno your love,
lets just says you're a moron



me?
i'm still in love
even though there's nothing left for me on the other side

now thats plain naive

watodo...hohohoo...

cant blame me for being 'me' rite?

UNTITLED....forgive, but never forget

"....we did grow old together..."

*image of old self holding hands appears*

"....but you must have forgotten it..."

when i saw the old couple walking by, side by side, holding hands
i cried

yes,
i had tears in my eye






it was beautiful....
it must have been wonderful...

to have that feeling, or that memory

even if its was just a dream






i watched Inception just now, n i love it
my fren says its mindf*cking movie...hohoho

i say

its a 'beautiful' movie
=)



yes i know i'm weird
but i cant help myself
its very meaningful
and very dearly to me


watch it, i recommend u guys =)


a dream,within a dream
sounds familiar to me
actually,
sounds very 'related' to me


wink-wink
*sob* *sob*
smilessss

UNTITLED.....esok posa,yay yay

i'm being a kid
and yes
i'm excited
why?
esok puasa
?
huhuuhuhu....
more reason to be happy
merry
and play fireworks at nite

rite now,
i'm in banting
with all
and i'm grateful

and always be

=)

i guess i wasnt broken,
just a bit bitter


yup,
bitter yet sweet



happy Ramadhan to all
and remember, you can only feel the celebration when u choose to
and for me, dunno why,
i 'feel' it,
like my spirit lifted high
and excited has days will come by


and when syawal comes after, i got to see yummy men in baju melayu
what more do i want

hohohoohohoho


-_-"

UNTITLED...hari senin

monday oh monday
seriously,
i know its sounds stereotype
but i hate mondays

i have the worst with mondays

last week monday i cried

and today i'm zombified

one thing about today's monday is that

this song was ringing in my head



but some how i kinda enjoy it on replay

dunno why

"pour my life into a papercup,
the ashtray full and im spilling my guts
He wants to know am i still a slut,
i gotta take it on the other side"

UNTITLED...if you're aint got 'soul', really.....u aint got nothin

'babe, i wanna ask u one question'
'yup, waddup?'
'how u sound like that huh?'
? *me, giving the confuse look*
'i mean,how u sound like 'that'?'
'like what?'
'u know...like u got that 'vibe'
'u mean...like soul, like that ka?'
'kot...dunno, i dunno how to describe it, maybe its the tone of your voice kot'
'well...everybody got tone....'
'yup i know, but some people got that 'thing'....u know, that magnet vibe sort of thing'
'i think what u mean is 'soul'
'soul'?
'yup, soul'


and i started giving my opinions to him



i actually dunno how to explain it,
but seriously, u can feel the 'soul' in certain people, and music

and to me,
honestly speaking

people who got soul usually because of their history/background
they channel their emotion through music

whether its soul, r&b, hard core metal, or jazz

when a singer sings
a musician plays
and a song are made,

as long as it got that 'thing' i called 'soul'

believe me, it is soul



educate yourself on songs and its history
read up about your favourite singer, what makes them, them

that is what i do

*aisyah reads?*

yup, autobiography books
and also google it up =P


like i always say
"if you aint got soul, u aint got soul honey"





p/s: this also applies on poetry, aight?

UNTITLED....u can eat your pants now

for those who talk shit on tonight's concert,

eat sugar and die




now i can officially say that i've been to a rock concert
not a gig
not a performance

but a rock concert
pure american style rock concert




and it was bloody awesome <3






*what did u say again*
shut the fuck up if you dunno what it feels like













i felt 'alive'
=P

UNTITLED...hi there, i didnt mean to

i've read ur blog

and its suddenly hits me
and i got the clear picture

shit...
i didnt mean to

honestly
i must have sent the wrong smoke signals

and seriouly honest to the max
i didnt mean to


i apologies
u blogged that post for quite awhile

and i've just pop by to read it, and came across that



i'm sorry

i didnt realise it
i didnt notice it

in fact
i have no clue at all












why didnt you tell me

that u have fallen for me

so at least i can explain
or least just make u stay






and after that blog u still keep it cool

so what now?
i also dunno
i am speechless



and for a very long time
i am speechless




i'm sorry


friends? <---aisyah buat muncung with puppy eyes offering durians for forgiveness


*u just smiled didnt u*

=P

UNTITLED...i wanna free fall out into nothin

She's a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too

It's a long day livin' in Reseda
There's a freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a bad boy, 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart

And I'm free, I'm free fallin'

All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down Ventura Blvd
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts

And I'm free, I'm free fallin'

I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for awhile

And I'm free, I'm free fallin'





and they say she was free
free fallin
into nothin

and nothin sounds good
for the time being

UNTITLED...a piece of property to be own

guy a says i was rare

guy b said i was a jewel

guy c claimed i was addictive

guy d stated i was toxic

guy e blog i was unique

guy f annouce i was cute

and the list goes onnnnnnnnn.....

me...i told them off, saying they were crazy


but then again,
i like the statement 'she's toxic'

make me sound dangerous

-_-"

hohohohoohho....

wink-wink

cookie?
i though so too =)







oh ya...
updates on me...
i'm going back to school
hush-hush for those who knows =)

UNTITLED...me got 10tckts baby

8.30pm
KL live



who's complaining again?

i thought so too



HAHAHAHAHAHAA......<--ketawa jahat tapi comel

adventure is out there!!!

UNTITLED...a lil boy with boobs

yes boobs
why to i mention boobs?
well,
yesterday, when i was lepaking with my frens
one statement came out
'but seriously, u look like a boy with boobs...'

-_-"

and this is coming from a girl

-_-"

last week, i remember my sis told me this

'if u take away the boobs, seriously, u look like a boy'

-_-"

fine....
i cut my hair short....
but its also in the way i dress

these statement comes when i dress up in sneakers, bermuda shorts, casual attires...
i even got a statement from a fren's aunt who think that i'm 'a nice lil boy'

-_-"

this is my third time i cut my hair short

and fine,
i do act like a boy sometimes,
cant blame me growing with my brothers

and yes
it all depends on the way i style my hair,
and also what i wear

i got 6 month ahead to grow back my hair 6 inches more

in the meantime
this lil boy with boobs is having her fun, here and there

p/s:btw: the boobs are small, the illusion of bra's make it big =P


*why am i talking about boobs again?*

plus, i do wear skirts,dress,heels and make-up occasionally, ok.

hohohohohoohho....

=P

oh ya....one day, if i get the chance, and my timing is right, i would love to do a mohawk...
it will scare the hell out of my mom
and make my granma duku my head more

hohohohoho......

UNTITLED....if camera's were men, i would have married one

i got my picturessssssssssss
awesomeeeeeeeeeeee........

post it up?

u know the reason why i'm not posting trllions of pictures on the internet...

because connection sucks

huhuhu....

but seriously,
if u were to look at my film pictures

with the jelly lenses that i have,
u'll be smiling just like me

*smile*

me liky me new camera
and lenses


oh ya....
me also bought black n white film

yum yum yummy yum

you,
yes you

picnic with me maybe?

wink-wink

lets go!

UNTITLED....and i fallin sick again

its been a while
since i've fallen sick again
really, really badly

the sort of fever
where u couldnt get up and go to the bathroom

yup, that sick

but that was not why i'm writing this post about

this post is about a dream
a dream i dream the nite i had the worst fever

my dreams are always weird ones
either i woke up in tears
or fears
or confuse

since i was little
my dad had to comfort me when i woke up crying
and he would say that it was only nightmares
nothing to be worry about

well saturday nite
was just different
i was crying myself to sleep
my body was hurting, and i felt my head was cooking like a roast beef
i suddenly remembered about my father
and i cried calling his name

ya, i know
i'm a daddy's girl,
nothing can change that fact

the next thing i know i was at a waterfall
i was surrounded by people i dunt know
but i got a feeling that they're all my family members and close frens, some how

then something happen, i couldnt remember that much
all i know that we should go away from that place
a 'thing' was coming
and its not safe to stay there no more

i didnt have enough time to escape

and then a guy came
whom i dun know him
nor remember his face
hug me all of a sudden,
and whispers something in my ear
which lead me into tears
tears of joy
and that feeling
of warm,joyfulness and full of life

he smiled and then i woke up
only to find myself hugging a pillow,
about 4.20am in the morning
with a 'feeling' that i know i will have it in the future

i fall asleep again
and when i woke up
certain segments of the dream fade away
the memories of their face
and his face
were also lost

what did he say?

*smiles*

that is for me to keep
and for you,
yes you,
to tell me





i dun know u,
but u keep poppin in my dreams
please tell me you're out there
and i am not alone

and for the time being,
i'll hold on to your words

until we meet again.

Mr Dream,
Put me to sleep
of sweet cotton skies
and green emerald eyes
In love we dream
in heart we meet
till reality kicks in,
for now,
ur words i shall keep.

UNTITLED....no more miss nicey-panty hose

ok fine...
i not that nice
i admit
ssshhhh....
but i dont hide it right
i am what u see

yesterday,
i was waiting patiently to park me car,
end up, a stupid *china man took my space
(*i'm sorry i curse my half blood,if you all terasa)
me being me,
i gave him double head light indicating i was there
but noooo.....the stupid fellow just buat bodo and walk on

fine....
i gostan my car
found a space, parked, and walked.

(setan di dalam hati menyeru aku berbuat sesuatu)

got my key,
went to his car,
and yes,
i give him one nice 'architecture fine line'

whattttt?
ok fine, i'm not proud of what i did

and today
i parked, and walked

guess what i saw
the same ugly thing parked around that area

me being nice
i decide
again,
to gave him a second present
one by using a larger key

whattttttttt???

well, u guys can kick my butt later
for now,
its a therapy i need to consider

=P

a good therapy i must say

HAHAHAHA....

*this post is not for little kids who cant think rasionally....wait, i am that kid*

*bleahhhh......*

UNTITLED...some songs stuck on replay

in some occasions
certain songs will keep buzzing through me head
in my case
this moment
its this song



why?

i truly believe that love is like a desease
and i miss falling 'sick'

*smiles*

Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody's heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go

UNTITLED...hear say

for those who didnt know
i cut my hair short
really short
really,really short



-_-"

UNTITLED....i'm like a bird, i only fly away *sings*

this is the last time that i will be blogging from this pc
this is the last blog that i will posting using this computer
this is the last day, i will be working here

yess ladies and gentlemen,

i have tender my 7days notice
(which by the way, can be made 24hours)
and today is my last day here

i am here for 2 1/2 month
and boy its was a roller coaster ride for me

=)

the thing is,
i'm actually quite happy
its good to know you're appreciated
although for only 2 month
when the office peeps came by, one by one,
to ask about my condition
i was surprise, at their comments and advise.

one said i was cheerful
one said i like to smile and never was a 'sombong' person

i even make the tea lady have tears in her eyes

and many more

=)

its good to know that you have a good impact on your surroundings
even if its for a little while

i thank you all, you have been surperb,
and the reasons of me leaving i shall keep it to myself

i love everyone of you, and may you have the best in the future

=)

UNTITLED....pst pst pst

guess who's coming to this town, and i get to see him


bloody yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......