Wednesday, March 31, 2010

UNTITLED....antu, an inspiration?

a friend came by and chat with me
she ask me why i went to dataran merdeka alone,
i was surprise and ask her how she knows, cos i didnt tell anybody
then it pop, i ask her 'u read my blog, huh?'
she said yup
she ask again, why
i told her, if i like to be spontaneous, and care free, then i would
i choose to, anywhere, any time

she smile

'what happen?' i ask her

'after reading ur blog, and listening to u, the other day, about being free...i went there...and took of my shoes, dance around with the grass underneath my feet'

=0

'i never felt so alive, i really did,just dance, and didnt give a damn bout the people around me'

=)

'thank you, aisyah'









we chatted more...


























weird...


i really thought nobody would read my blog, or better yet, inspires others -_-"


then i ask another fren 'dey, u read my blog ke, beb?'
and surprisingly
he also does
'aku suka baca sebab byk random stuff, tak boring sgt'



weird...

very weird i must say








well, i guess u guys be reading this to huh?

=P

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

UNTITLED....can i keep her as my pet?

dang...





dang...

i AM in l.o.v.e

=)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

UNTITLED...a clinic for jazz'ers

firstly, i must thank bobo for being such a sport in changing shift with me, in order for me to go to this clinic and the coming event afterwards.
second, i must thank glacius for his help in getting me the street name, and later, ice, for giving the adress through sms. damn i am bad with direction, although i've been to this place before -_-"
third...its plain fu*king beautiful

'Jazz is improvisation...'

Margie and Micheal, it was a beautiful dream =)















I ask two question

Me: I was told by a Jazz singer, that if you aint got soul, u cant sing Jazz. How far, in your opinion, is this statement. I do believe in it; hard life living makes the Jazz singer sings more soulfully.How bout you, Margie? Do you agree on this?

Margie: Jazz is from slavery, as you all know. Yes, i believe so. I do sing and my history does effect it. But if you wanna know my history, i'm afraid i will cry on stage. Yes...i agree, the more hardship a jazz singer have, the more soulfully she or he can be

Me: Can you tell, the different shade between singing blues and jazz, in your opinion

Margie: Both, in a way, its the same. Both express emotions very soulfully. However Jazz, its an improvisation, never be the same in each performance, according to the emotion on that particular time.
Micheal gave his opinion also:Jazz, u can play the tempo, it will never be the same, we can alter it in a way, to play fast tempo, and suddenly slow, in a way. It is, and will never be the same in one performance when one sings Jazz.

"never copy any Jazz singer, be yourslef. Its an your expression of feelings.."



I request strange fruit by billie holiday
unfortunately, margie says she doesnt feel like doing it, so she said no

however

to wrap up the clinic, they both end it with this song,

"aint no sunshine when she's gone...."

=)

simply, a beautiful dream.....

Friday, March 19, 2010

UNTITLED...coffee on the go

And just when u thought u’ll meet him in ur dreams…









Mine came true






HAAHAHAHAHAHA<----- ketawa jahat tapi comel
















































Cuba baca cerita bawah dgn keadaan gedik


Suatu ari, semasa sedang bermesyuarat, bos aku mendapat suatu panggilan telepon
Dengan muka bengkeknya, dia ‘just say yes’
Dan dia bertanya ”siapakah jejaka ini, mereka semua is making a fuss about him…”

“siapa nama..?” they all ask

“an Italian singer, something bueno…” boss jawab

-_-"

An me being an alien, answered “he’s a singer, oldies song…he’s coming to Malaysia, ntv7 is having an interview with him tomorrow..”

-____-

they all looked at me one kind…

How do I know? Lets just say I watch late nite tv a lot nowadays.
Come on…its patrizio buanne, and he’s coming to Malaysia, ntv7 was talking all about it.
One mighty fine piece of muffin, and Italian muffin to be exact
p/s: I was heartbroken also that I couldn’t go to see babyface =(

So…

Morning, came to centerpoint
Pack up, ride with ehsan and his partner
Came to studio sri pentas, and set things there…

He walks in, talking, saw us said hai.
At 1st, he seems like ur normal average guy, talking and making joke.
About 15min, I built up the courage to come and ask him if he can come and sign me apron and take a picture.
His manager wasn’t so please, judging by her face.
Him, however, was different
“let me do my hair and make-up, let me look like a human being, then we can take plenty of picture together, no?”
Everybody laugh and I said ok.
Then he ask “who else have autograph your apron?”
“oh just two person…”
“international? Artist?”
“oh, international….mike magini, a drummer. And andy Timmons, a guitarist…”
He look at the apron…. And said…
“its an honor to autograph your apron..” he smiled
=)

Charming, yes. And I emphasis here, that he IS NOT the “sort of puking charming” …but simply…charming
Also a joker

And the rest was history…


He asks us why we are standing, as he saw all of us in “standby mode”. Just standing, listening and waiting for instructions to be given to us, to serve the coffee and the muffins.
“its ok..” we said
“no. sit down….who ask u to stand…there’s’ chairs, its ok to sit…”
We all, being too segan, said it was really ok.
“who says when u are working that cannot sit?...it doesn’t say anywhere, writing, that you should be standing. U must sit…ok?”
That’s just a part of he’s modesty….there was plenty more.
=)
Honestly speaking, at 1st I wasn’t that keen on going. Serious, as I was working long hours the day before, I haven’t had enough sleep, and really was very tired.

But I do not regret it at all…. He was just charming.
And honestly speaking, the last time, the 2nd artist autograph my apron, I was a bit ‘grouchy’ at the guy due to his ‘diva’ist ways.
But Patrizzio Beanne, was simply a nice guy. And as I listen to his opinions and chatting this morning, I knew that he is a sort of person who ‘appreciates’ his surroundings. A very nice guy I must say,
and
I say it again…a very nice guy..

=)

Simply…a beautiful dream....
Grin*



Adventure is out there!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

UNTITLED....funny

joke of the day


"you baru balik jogging ke?"

-_-"

a guy was trying to start a conversation with me, in a lift, back at my house

the thing was...

i just got back from work





-_-"





cant blame him though,
i was in sneaker, skinny black slacks and round-neck shirt



-_-"


funny thing was, it really started a conversation


stupid...but funny, in a wrong kinda way

Hello, Mr Tingkat Brape Aku Tak Ingat.
Maybe one day we'll bump into each other again,
it was nice talking to you.


last but never least,
paloma faith-new york


it remind me of you, as u,kinda have an accent,
an American accent to be exact

-_-"

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

TAK BERTAJUK.....ibu kota kata hati

malam susur aku keluar
berjumpa rakan, berbicara sebentar
bila pulang, dipanggil malam
hati berkata,
suara dalam,
"mari kita berjalan di kota..."


mereka berkata "ini identiti kita, rakyat merdeka"




dia, saya dan mereka. mahu tunggu, jam tegak berdua




ini barisan kereta nasional...




ini pula kerja rasional.




jam negara sudah pukul dua belas




kagum...aku bilang, bunyi kuat...aku bilang.




kibar bendera, angin meniup....




bangunan megah, kota menyahut.



antu!




bayang antu!




r2d2?




satu bangunan yg mmg aku kagum




pantulan cahaya ke tuan empunya




mari panjat pokok...curi buahnya




teman seperjuangan, masih bersama




satu malaysia?




si pencari rezeki, pada malam buta




mengapa jauh?




mari dekat, mari sebentar





satu malam, penuh pengertian
satu orang, penuh kedukaan
apa ini satu kembara?
pada permulaan,
di garis penuaan
























akhir kata...





an olive green sunnies,
for all my future holidays,
vanilla skies with some honey...


wink-wink
adventure is out there!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

UNTITLED....hi, its u again

alamak
last nite u called
and msg

i buat bodoh

morning also u msg

i pun buat bodoh







aloooo.....



u never give up do u?



alamak

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

UNTITLED....what a feeling

numb...

that is what i feel

weird,
i thought i never feel it again

no happy
no excited
no sad
no mad

just


numb...

ladies and gentlemen...
once again

antu has become numb

UNTITLED....nobody said it was easy

i admire my friends who can work under pressure

one work for the news and writing
one work in hr in a big company
one work with a bank, in foreign exchange
one work for a physics professor, doing research
one work for an entertainment magazine
and many more...

when i heard about their nature of work
the job scoop, work load and pressure
working time and benefits

i admire them

it takes a lot of courage, strength to go such length

and when i talked about my work
in an operation line,
food and beverage

they would say the same






i believe that every work has it ups and down
to start from scratch and work urself up,
that was never easy
believe me,
i know...







so today,
had me thinking
i'm taking the next step


scientist by coldplay



"i'm going back to the start..."



it was playing on the radio
on the way back from the interview


life will take u everywhere
when ever, and anywhere

but only if u choose to...







suck it up,girl
u can do this



adventure is out there!!!!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

UNTITLED...and he ask,what about breakfast at tiffany's?

looking down at the pavement,
she walks while her heels make sound
funny, she said
thats not the only sound she hears

she stops
and listens






its true...
that was the only noice she heard






weird....

Monday, March 8, 2010

UNTITLED....and another phase comes

8th March 2010





"and i dunt want the world to see me,
cause i dun think that they'll understand,
when everything is meant to be broken,
i just want u to know who i am"








u were never, on the 1st day, and u were never, on the last
i'm the one who choose
and i'm sorry for being who i am
i'm sorry i 'force' u

thanks for being nice to me
=)

i'll cheerish it...


thank you again, u're beautiful
dunt forget that
never, forget that

Sunday, March 7, 2010

UNTITLED....hai, my name is aisyah, may i know urs?

stranger
i dunno know name
u would come on certain weekend
with that white laptop
editing pictures
doing stuff
minding ur own business

last time u came,
u smile
me being blurr
i noticed

"he's a regular laaa...."
"mane la aku tahu..."

but this weekend
u didnt show up

the weird thing was





i was waiting....








hhmmm....
may i know ur name?

Friday, March 5, 2010

UNTITLED....sometimes

sometimes i wonder
why do i even bother

of sharing good news
spreading and caring what is new

and yet i felt stupid at times
for only feeling it these times
as i feel i'm the only one
who'll ask, tell, and wanna share








weird...i feel so stupid rite now
why to i tend to care?

Thursday, March 4, 2010

UNTITLED....Mr Rabbit,show me the way...

"Am i mad?"
"I think you're going bonkers...."
"....."
"but u know what.."
"...."
"the best people are..."






watch alice in wonderland by tim burton


i wanna be Aisyah in bonkerland
for real...



yay!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

UNTITLED....2 days of plain good style lovin'

yester-day

"aku nak gi beli baju baru..kat topshop.."
"aku nak gi beli brg.."

i looked at hadi

"jom kita lepak nak?"
"ok! aku roger farid..."
"set...!"

and we did

hadi, yana, thier friend (whom i've fogotten her name,sorry) farid and me

mid vall

window shopping...surveying the current trend and price
shopping...got things for tweenty7may
popcorn....




damn this movie was nice

thanks my friends!


to-day

"syasya nak gi memane tak?"
"tak...ari ni cuti..."
"mintak tolong antar Anggun g klinik.."
"ok"

i looked at Kak Jun

"nak gi shopping skali tak?"
"boleh gak, boring duk umah"
"set"

and we did

kak jun, Anggun, didi and me

mid vall again

shopping!

and i heard this through the airwaves



thanks my family!


damn..
i'm just loving each day



but when the happiness ends,
it'll be the day i cry again


in the mean time,
I'm just lovin it


<3

Sunday, February 28, 2010

UNTITLED....smoking harder, dying faster

'mane bobo?'
'outside lo, smoking'
'ooo..ok'
'akak aisya ah, u smoke or not?'
'use to. why ah?'
'no la, just asking'
'long time ago la, very long. Now, no more'
'oo...ok"
'people look at me, they say i smoke n drink...really ah?'
'no lo, just asking only'
'i smoke, long time. drink, no lo. f*cking people think i drink. Do I look like a drinker ka?'
'dunno lo'
'why u ask?'
'nothing'
'u smoke ka?'
'no lo...'
'good, dont start'

he looks down, kinda susah ati about his problem
'but i'm tempted,i dunno why...'

silence for a while...

'if u smoke, i'll whack ur head'
he was surprise, and started laughing
'i swear to god, i'll whack ur head so hard"
he smiled
'better yet, i'll kill u'

'ok ok ok, akak, i wont start'
'good...serious, dunt start. Once u start, it'll be the end'
'ok'


EOM at starbucks
a good boy ask me, stating his tempted to smoke

the worst part was
i was thinking of that just now
i was thinking of smoking
stupid fucking pile of work
give me stupid reason to die faster,
stupid eom

but good thing was
at the end of the day
this Mr Good-die Two Shoes makes me stop the thought
=)
thank you...






'akak...how bout shisha...ok tak?'

-___-" aku duku gak kapla budak ni

Saturday, February 27, 2010

UNTITLED...on going project

fuck....
shit, i didnt realise such project can effect the people around me
not even stocks comin in,
they already asking
ayoyoyoyo....
shit thing is, this coming week need to go shopping again
yay!

tweenty7may...
pressure is on

GO GO antu! u can do it










ps: anybody can teach me Pay Pall or not?
-_-"




ayoyoyo...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

UNTITLED....no surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise








One day,
it will be no surprise huh?

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

UNTITLED....an alien at the temple

she went to the temple again
this lonely girl bring offerings
of fruits and nuts,
of sweets and treats.

She was greeted by weirdness
of people looking at her
as she was an alien
different skin
different color
different belief
not like the other

the guardian kid wave at her
and with it, he ask
"what animal do u keep now?
do they still surround u?
oh please tell me, sister
tell me ur secret, tell me how?"
he was excited to hear any new adventure
of the lonely girl would have encounter

"i'm sorry...i live a quite life now,not that merry,
i like it, and i've been busy,
of dealing with humans,
future and plans,
no more time for playground,
no animal to surround..." she replied

came the priest
"how are u my child?"

"i'm fine..."

"hows ur life so far?"

"ive been busy"

he shook his head knowing

she nods her head and smile

the priest followed,
he smiled