UNTITLED...morning speaks reality

can you please stab me to death


ayoyoyoyoyo

last nite i thought that today's friday
and tomorrow's saturday
and he's coming back

but nooooooooooooooo

when i woke up
i remembered that today was actually Thursday


curseeee youuuuuu


ayoyoyoyooy


2 more freaking endless nite






isky, i dunno what you did to me,
but seriuosly
i have gone mad at day 3

i cant bear it

i blame your cheesecake kangkang
i know u put mundrem on that thing and feed it to me





*tolak meja sesorang*















i can bearly open my eyes coming to work today.
i dunno why, i just cant sleep.
i need a hug

UNTITLED....so many ways to make yourself go wacko

freaking three days i've been staying up late, waking up early.
my mind just cant rest, while my body aged like mad
i cant sleep
cant eat that much, in fact, sometimes i forgotten to eat
wow...man, wassup with me
feels like i passed this phase of time before

i know whats causing this
and it aint good
freaking shit it aint good
i stayed at work until night
dont wish to go back
when i go back i feel so lonely
in fact, although i'm in the middle of a buzzing crowd
i would still be lonely

today is Friday
the 1st of Dec
i have to patiently wait for tomorrow
my God
its killing me
i'm sure i'll be crying soon
when i see him, for sure i'll cry one

dang

i miss you too much

8days you're gone, you're driving me nuts

last time was japan
this time its aussie


remember the time i balik kg for raya, it was like 4 days
and we're like seksa to hell

fuck,
seriously
i thought i'm through with the whole miss, lovy dovy thing
i mean, i have a lot of ex
whom every ex i thought i loved and missed, and i'm gonna get married to

i thought i taste it all, and would be immune to such feeling

hell, i was wrong




dang....

























=( baby, i miss you. very much
(12.56am)

UNTITLED...a lil bit of drug

I never thought i be in love like this
when i look at you, my mind goes on a trip



its been more than 4 month already

who would have thought, huh?

















i am truly blessed.

UNTTILED...tip of the iceberg

pernah rasa nak terjun lombong tak?





me..
a few times already.





being positive is great

u try to never pull in the negativity in everything

but what if it will consume you
and spit you out

what if the output of such things will gobble the best of you



sometimes i tend to think

is my boss appreciating the skills that i have
or simply punishing me for the gift that i've got






*wonders*




its great working here.
no doubt.
great.
but when a new boss comes in, old ones goes....
u tend to doubt that greatness




i miss my old colleague....mawar, weng, hanafi, kak lina and cheryl.

and i definitely miss my old boss...who recently got promoted into being a bigger boss.

and i got a new boss

whom i wish that she is replace by my old boss, who is now the boss of my current boss.


dang...
how things can be very difficult.


sometimes i tend to wonder,
the reason why i have good relationship with tenant's, the security, the cleaners, suppliers and many others, is like a freaking curse.

and some people would love to take advantage of that
and end up
if its the wrong cause,
my bridge of relationship is burnt to ashes.


freaking fuck up hell

now i have to be the bad person?
hell no.

i'll be a bad person to one person
but not to many


i am willing to take that chance




and sending CV to a new working place makes me feel good



hey, a new positive era is coming.

i aint complaning

UNTITLED...still my husbands

my second husbands

yum yum yummyyyyyy

UNTITLED...dang, she's hot

shes hot



yup

shes hot

UNTITLED...my health

due to my medication, yes, i'm putting on weight

not a bit

but a lot
am now 64kg.

ideal weight is 55-58kg.

60 above is consider over weight

wow

i'm over weight


kinda sad though, but i have to take my medication
if people were to ask me why i'm so fat

i just reply

'cos i have to be'


look guys, people can say you're fat
you're hugde
you're enormous

anything to make you just feel a bit tiny

what ever

to me, its all about you being comfortable with yourself

honestly, yes, i do feel i'm a bit too big,
but nothing or no such words can bring me down to a sad state

last time,yes
but this time around, no

the best freaking thing is that

he says that i still am gorgeus in so many ways
and he says that i can maintain the 62kg or loose it
he dont mind at all.
as long as i'm happy <--might sound too good to be true, but yes

i've had previous relationship whom i reached 60kg, he,he and he, would ask me to watch my diet.

but isky.....

its 2am,
"baby, i want ice cream...feel like muching ice cream"-after taking my medication
"no worries baby, i got plenty in my fridge..."



o.O how can i diet like this woooooooo


hohohohoho. i'm in love with isky and ice cream =D

UNTITLED...a beautiful weekend

i am very thank full to God as the past weekend was a very,very beautiful and awesome one

spend a family day with my family

spend a night playing board games with old and new friends

spend the whole sunday with my baby


nothing beats family, baby and friends.

i am truly blessed.






now,
to take care of my weight and my health




so i can enjoy and looking forward to have another countless of beautiful moments together.


oh ya, to dipie,
happy birthday =D sorry i didnt get the chance to lepak with my crs frens.

you all still rawks and i miss you guys very much.

Have a blast one dipie!

UNTITLED....sumber inspirasi

a twig engangement

kepada mereka yg suka simplicity but yet have designs in it

UNTITLED...things are just meant to be quiet

hi, yup i know
its been a long time since i wrote anything
a bit too much time i guess
spora and fungus are growing they say

hmmm
what is it to talk about

havent quite actually have anything to say
or write

or better yet,
just to babble

any random subject?
nope, unfortunately no

right now i'm waiting for someone to pick me up

yes, u know who

yup here we go again
aisyah yg gelabah nak bebel pasal pakwe dia lagi

nope,
no i'm not gonna
but i did mention him above

i dunno what to say

kinda....
random for me to write atas angin

and yet you all are still reading this

wait,
what i was talking about just now

weird,
i didnt blog anything edu enough

hold on,
its a blog,
my blog, so i can chat what ever i want

but tell me
why are u reading this again?
and why am i writing this post up?

hmmm weird
my head is in the clouds
and my heart is in heaven
my mind goed somewhere deep
and my brain just burst into fire

wow

u're still reading this




thanks babe

UNTITLED....semangat slim

I havent lepak with a lot of people lately
due to puasa, raya, work and my health

i have to apologies if i cant see you, meet u, lepak with u, even return your msgs or calls

so they ask me, how am i been doing

i just replied

I AM 62KG....



AND I'M FREAKING LOVING IT =P


thank you for your support and concerns

i love my life, my family, my friends and the best additional thing in my life, my baby Isky, whom i love, adore and the most beautiful creature of all.

i love you very much =D

UNTITLED...gila bapak aku sedih

a friend post this up in FB
i cried.

how beautiful a brother-love can be. they have nothing but each other

sayu hati aku siot. serious aku menangis nengok gambar ni.

UNTITLED...ladybag

i am the proud owner of such beauty
and its reblogged by rbags.tumblr

hohohohohoo

*bangga*

UNTITLED....bagi makan

"baby, i want to munch something sweet"
"i can fix u something"
"erm...i'm hungry"
"let me do u nutella, ok?"

its 2am in the morning and he's fixing me a chocolate sandwich

freaking shit i'm madly in love with him

=D

UNTITLED...updates?

Harlo.
sorry, i havent really updated this blog for quite a while:
weird how it feels when people ask how've u been,
and they just say that because i havent updated my blog
well,
here goes:

1.i got into a very nasty rashes, a very bad skin condition, that had me rush to the hospital. the specialist wanted to detain me in the ward, but knowing that raya was just in 4 more days, she really advise me me to be a 'princess'.

2. thus, i cannot touch dirt or leaves. I cannot eat seafood,chicken and possible, no meat.

3. i'm on steroids, so my body is really plum.

4. because of my medication, i tend to sleep a lot. sorry if i havent return your calls or msg you guys. or i dont hang out much. my condition doesnt permits me.

5. after 9 years, we finally went back to Kota Bahru to raya with tokma.

6. nenek came also. we cant leave her alone in selangor to raya rite?

7. raya was beautiful. simple but nice. nothing big. we visit my late dad's grave, but i couldnt come near, yup, because of my condition and red flag.

8. i finally got to meet my cousin after, i think 12 years of not seeing him.

9. came home and lepak with my hubby all nite.

10. i miss him =D

UNTITLED...advise baik punya

babe,
serious babe.

aku rase ko ada penyakit hati

?

sebab keja ko asyik complain je
asyik komen negative orang je
aku baca blog ko,
sadis aku nengok
serabut plak tu
yg aku tergelak sinis tu,
ko suka komen orang, tapi perangai ko pun dua kali lima

kesian aku nengok ko

babe,
baik ko let go apa yg ko pendam
sebab these things makes u bitter

forgive people, let it go, find a new hobby, get a new dog, or do something.

you sound sooo bitter

and what hurts me the most, being your friend, is that every word you write, portrays you, as a sad and lonely person.

kecian kan?

have time for yourself.

*i know how it feels to be bitter, worn-out, sad, lonely, lost-but i know how to pick myself up*

go, explore the world.
have spiritual connections.
it will help.





trust me, i know.



p/s: oh ya, dont forget to smile while doing it. the rest will eventually follow.

UNTITLED...kalau aku ada duit extra

if i have the extra money




but i dont =(




*tolak meja mengamuk*

UNTITLED....i think you're cute

*she said no more*

UNTITLED....how 4th of July started

my fren read this and she was interested to get to know him

and me,being me, i try my fren to ngam-ho kan him with her lo

mana tahu my mission being miss posto back fired on me

and now i'm burning

but i dont mind though






*feels awesome*

UNTITLED...take the throne

partner, let me upgrade you








meow......



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