UNTITLED..legend has it

legend has it that i am a boy trap in a girl's body

my boyfriend aint complaning



tralalalalala

UNTITLED...bill rancit

i had dinner yesterday with few co-workers
it was a treat from our good friend
whom is going off next year
to a place that most people would least think of to work

most people would apply to work overseas,
typically
sydney, paris, new york, london, singapore, taipei, hong kong, and many more

but this guy,
he's going off to chicago

dang, chicago

its amazing that he could take that giant leap

all the best bro

"my big brother is working as leasing there, i'll be doing R&D. I'm gonna recommend you to do marketing, if there's a place, i'll roger you"

*hopes* chicago, here i come!

UNTITILED...nom-nom-nomming

me eat spaghetti for breakfast

"nom-nom-nom"

UNTITILED...eat sugar and die

did you say something?

no?

i thought so too

move along











p/s: negativity will consume and kill you. even if you're alone, doesnt mean you can built walls and throw words that make you feel a bit human.

you're pathetic. nough said.

=D smile, makes it a bit better.

UNTITLED....an old friend

i got a phone call
the number wasnt save in my phone's memory
so i wasnt so sure to pick it up
normally i dont
but this time, i did

"Achot?" a girls voice at the end of the line.
"yup...."
"kenal tak sapa ni?"
"___m_h?"
"betul!"

its been ages since i heard about her
but i can recognize her voice
and only technic jb will call me that name

"wassup?" i asked
"can i see you?"
"are u in KL?"

for sure, she was in town

and we've meet up
along with my baby Isky, and my best fren Fatimah

and we talked
ever since she got married, it was all about her family and husband
she have put him first, and she concentrated on her marriage life

but i knew there was something that didnt sound right
she have come to KL, alone
and she talked about her husband all the time
on how she's here to buy him a present
on how busy he can be, that's y he's not with her

and one thing triggers to another

her husband was cheating on her, and she knows
her husband came clean
the girl confessed
and as crazy as it sounds
she forgive and, in a way, handled the situation by giving space and support to her husband, for him to think it thoroughly



man.....if it was me, i left that bugger's ass a long time ago


which reminds me the old days


back then i used to be in love with this guy
whom i thought have done great for me,
pick me up when i was at my lowest.
when nobody seem to be by my side, he was there
i loved him very much

but what i thought, if i look back, had harm me more than enough
yes, he raise his hand on me
used up all my money
love to tell whats good and whats bad for me
if i gone big, he would say that i'm fat and ugly
in fact, he would say that i am not beautiful at all
i would pick him up to go to college, supported his graduation things,
send him and pick him up from classes, buy him his toiletries
i even would starve to gave him the money to make him happy


oh yes, i was that foolish

and yes, when he raise his hand
i beat the crap out of him too

we were like this abusive couple
and got back together cos we loved each other too much
yeah, stupid as it sounds, the relationship lasted quite sometime


how it ended?

well, i do accept people for who they are
if you're sad, you think you're ugly, or you're making only a dime, a day
and if i say i love you,means i love u, i accept you for who you are

but it is totally insane
not right,not acceptable
when you have given it all
supported him
devoted to him

and he goes for another lady

believe me, leave his sorry ass

just pack ur bags and move on

it hurts,
boys it hurts

but to see that man with another girl
not appreciating for who u are
just let go


i have many guys who cheated on me when we're dating
4 of them if i'm not mistaken

what did i do?
i left them




but in my friend's case
she's marriage




damn
aint that hard.

Untitled... the love for children

“Children are the world's most valuable resource and its best hope for the future”

-John Fitzgerald Kennedy

UNTITLED....hairy aisyah

6 of the above, i have tried it....


wow

not bad.

UNTITLED....things were different

such a pity
when i view my very dear friends evolve into something that i cant recognise no more


use to be one of the beautiful beings on earth
have a beautiful heart
and a beautiful soul


and somewhere along the journey on this earth

my friend change
into something
that i couldnt even comment
and saddens me when i think about it

well i can say,
partially it was my fault too
i had forgotten my promise

i had promise to my friend that we stayed friends

but i couldn't keep that promise
as we distance each other 4 feet away each hour




now,
its been a year since i meet my friend



and i miss that portion of life that i used to have



things was different back then
i know,
you can never forgive me
i know
cause i didnt kept my promise




i'm sorry


thing's changed
i changed



and you didnt kept your end of the bargain either


so hey,
we're even


i guess


i'm happy as i see that you're doing fine
very fine
you had achive some of your dreams
and live your life now, according to what you want

i'm happy that you're happy now

and i wish you all the best

thus, please dont be sad as i didnt kept my promise
you should have known better that i did try
and i strive until it tear me apart
where else you seem to be happy, living the life you always wanted


and now i'm happy
and yes, again, i'd tell ya
i've changed
i am happy

so as a friend, please respect it
as i have respect you left me here to bleed
and kept a promise that never meant anything to u in the 1st place

so if you are my true friend
leave me as it is
and let me shine brightly
i have found the man of my dreams


and you left me to pursue yours

wish you all the best in life
and pray you'll find the happiness you've always wanted

Amin.

UNTITLED....make me feel human

'why do you do charity?'

do you really need a reason?

cos sometimes, you dont

thats the beauty of charity

and for all the reason in the world,

it is worth every second, penny and sweat.

even cooler when you share the same passion with others








bless all who supported charity
may your life will be filled with love, kindness and happiness
=D

UNTITLED...by far, the best one. by far

came to my desk
just to clean-up before going back
thought of bukak fb kejap

open
got 2 notification
read
"isky meow added 2 photos of you"

oh...ok
so i click

bamb...keluar gambar gajah

and i laugh
weirdly as it sounds
i just laugh















my work,
its been challenging lately
a lot of stuff to do
and there are new things that pop-up today
which makes me more 'ayoyoyoyoyoy' than 'yay'

but the best freaking thing is that
no matter how shitty my day can be
i have this one chubby,yummy cat,
whom i feel belong to,
whom i feel i'm loved by,
whom i feel so safe and at home


and never,
never fail to make me smile


even if he's ten trillion miles away from malaysia






sorry guys, but this guy is the best so far.
top notch. the best so far.

UNTITLED...morning speaks reality

can you please stab me to death


ayoyoyoyoyo

last nite i thought that today's friday
and tomorrow's saturday
and he's coming back

but nooooooooooooooo

when i woke up
i remembered that today was actually Thursday


curseeee youuuuuu


ayoyoyoyooy


2 more freaking endless nite






isky, i dunno what you did to me,
but seriuosly
i have gone mad at day 3

i cant bear it

i blame your cheesecake kangkang
i know u put mundrem on that thing and feed it to me





*tolak meja sesorang*















i can bearly open my eyes coming to work today.
i dunno why, i just cant sleep.
i need a hug

UNTITLED....so many ways to make yourself go wacko

freaking three days i've been staying up late, waking up early.
my mind just cant rest, while my body aged like mad
i cant sleep
cant eat that much, in fact, sometimes i forgotten to eat
wow...man, wassup with me
feels like i passed this phase of time before

i know whats causing this
and it aint good
freaking shit it aint good
i stayed at work until night
dont wish to go back
when i go back i feel so lonely
in fact, although i'm in the middle of a buzzing crowd
i would still be lonely

today is Friday
the 1st of Dec
i have to patiently wait for tomorrow
my God
its killing me
i'm sure i'll be crying soon
when i see him, for sure i'll cry one

dang

i miss you too much

8days you're gone, you're driving me nuts

last time was japan
this time its aussie


remember the time i balik kg for raya, it was like 4 days
and we're like seksa to hell

fuck,
seriously
i thought i'm through with the whole miss, lovy dovy thing
i mean, i have a lot of ex
whom every ex i thought i loved and missed, and i'm gonna get married to

i thought i taste it all, and would be immune to such feeling

hell, i was wrong




dang....

























=( baby, i miss you. very much
(12.56am)

UNTITLED...a lil bit of drug

I never thought i be in love like this
when i look at you, my mind goes on a trip



its been more than 4 month already

who would have thought, huh?

















i am truly blessed.

UNTTILED...tip of the iceberg

pernah rasa nak terjun lombong tak?





me..
a few times already.





being positive is great

u try to never pull in the negativity in everything

but what if it will consume you
and spit you out

what if the output of such things will gobble the best of you



sometimes i tend to think

is my boss appreciating the skills that i have
or simply punishing me for the gift that i've got






*wonders*




its great working here.
no doubt.
great.
but when a new boss comes in, old ones goes....
u tend to doubt that greatness




i miss my old colleague....mawar, weng, hanafi, kak lina and cheryl.

and i definitely miss my old boss...who recently got promoted into being a bigger boss.

and i got a new boss

whom i wish that she is replace by my old boss, who is now the boss of my current boss.


dang...
how things can be very difficult.


sometimes i tend to wonder,
the reason why i have good relationship with tenant's, the security, the cleaners, suppliers and many others, is like a freaking curse.

and some people would love to take advantage of that
and end up
if its the wrong cause,
my bridge of relationship is burnt to ashes.


freaking fuck up hell

now i have to be the bad person?
hell no.

i'll be a bad person to one person
but not to many


i am willing to take that chance




and sending CV to a new working place makes me feel good



hey, a new positive era is coming.

i aint complaning

UNTITLED...still my husbands

my second husbands

yum yum yummyyyyyy

UNTITLED...dang, she's hot

shes hot



yup

shes hot

UNTITLED...my health

due to my medication, yes, i'm putting on weight

not a bit

but a lot
am now 64kg.

ideal weight is 55-58kg.

60 above is consider over weight

wow

i'm over weight


kinda sad though, but i have to take my medication
if people were to ask me why i'm so fat

i just reply

'cos i have to be'


look guys, people can say you're fat
you're hugde
you're enormous

anything to make you just feel a bit tiny

what ever

to me, its all about you being comfortable with yourself

honestly, yes, i do feel i'm a bit too big,
but nothing or no such words can bring me down to a sad state

last time,yes
but this time around, no

the best freaking thing is that

he says that i still am gorgeus in so many ways
and he says that i can maintain the 62kg or loose it
he dont mind at all.
as long as i'm happy <--might sound too good to be true, but yes

i've had previous relationship whom i reached 60kg, he,he and he, would ask me to watch my diet.

but isky.....

its 2am,
"baby, i want ice cream...feel like muching ice cream"-after taking my medication
"no worries baby, i got plenty in my fridge..."



o.O how can i diet like this woooooooo


hohohohoho. i'm in love with isky and ice cream =D

UNTITLED...a beautiful weekend

i am very thank full to God as the past weekend was a very,very beautiful and awesome one

spend a family day with my family

spend a night playing board games with old and new friends

spend the whole sunday with my baby


nothing beats family, baby and friends.

i am truly blessed.






now,
to take care of my weight and my health




so i can enjoy and looking forward to have another countless of beautiful moments together.


oh ya, to dipie,
happy birthday =D sorry i didnt get the chance to lepak with my crs frens.

you all still rawks and i miss you guys very much.

Have a blast one dipie!

UNTITLED....sumber inspirasi

a twig engangement

kepada mereka yg suka simplicity but yet have designs in it

UNTITLED...things are just meant to be quiet

hi, yup i know
its been a long time since i wrote anything
a bit too much time i guess
spora and fungus are growing they say

hmmm
what is it to talk about

havent quite actually have anything to say
or write

or better yet,
just to babble

any random subject?
nope, unfortunately no

right now i'm waiting for someone to pick me up

yes, u know who

yup here we go again
aisyah yg gelabah nak bebel pasal pakwe dia lagi

nope,
no i'm not gonna
but i did mention him above

i dunno what to say

kinda....
random for me to write atas angin

and yet you all are still reading this

wait,
what i was talking about just now

weird,
i didnt blog anything edu enough

hold on,
its a blog,
my blog, so i can chat what ever i want

but tell me
why are u reading this again?
and why am i writing this post up?

hmmm weird
my head is in the clouds
and my heart is in heaven
my mind goed somewhere deep
and my brain just burst into fire

wow

u're still reading this




thanks babe