UNTITLED....a bebel dinner

my lil brother came and visit me today
bukak posa sama-sama
its been long since we had a talk
the last time we've meet was i think was about 2 month ago

he looked at me in sadness
and said

'i dunt think i'm goin to be with _______'
?
'i use to like her so much, but now, after she turned me down, i just cant. and i've tried, so badly, and its been months already'

i look at him and just said nothing

he continues to tell how the relationship was at the peak, how he confess his feeling towards her, but only to be crashing down the hill in the end

and the thing was, he did a 'thing' which was suppose to make a girl go '...auwww, that is so scweeeettttt...'

the story goes

it was his birthday
she was admitted in hospital to undergo an operation the next day
he wanted to come and visit her, they planned to celebrate it, although in was inside the hospital itself
he came to his car, only to find that he has a flat tyre
he calls her up, saying that judging from that, they have to change plans
there were only silence at the end of the phone
he knows that she was sad

and what he did
he walked to the nearest shopping mall
literally, he walked

he walked to the curve
bought a teddy bear and cake
took a cab to the nearest lrt station
got in the train
off at the platform
into a cab again
and arrive at the hospital, 4 hours later

she was surprise
her frens was stunned
the teddy bear was hanging out of his bag pack
gave it to her
eat the cake together
usap her forehead
and tuck her into bed

when this was happening,
he soooooo wanted to confess his feelings towards her
but he felt that this wasnt the right moment
she's in pain, and he's afraid that if he said something
might pulled her down

but he got everything planned already

'when its over, there's a card inside the box for you. dont read it now, and dont read it in front of your frens.....read it when you are really free'

he waited patiently
maybe for a text or call

and days goes by, in silence

ring-ring
=)

she said that she read the card, only after she was dismiss from the hospital, at the comfort of her home

and then she explain

=(

'and that is why i dont think i'm going to be with her no more....'

hmmm....i didnt say much

i was like....*speechless*

i didnt feel anything though

no sadness for him,
no angry for her

i was just plain listening


'but guess what, now _______ (his ex of 6 years ago) and me, maybe, are going back together...'


-__-"

now i know why i was immune to love stories.....

cinta adalah satu nikmat
dimana manusia perlu beringat
bukan untuk dijual
mahupun untuk dikhianat

sayang sama sekali manusia sekarang bosan semua
tak tahu makna,
tak tahu harga,
lalu akhirnya,
buta cinta

for those who deny your love, you're just stupid
for those who dunno your love,
lets just says you're a moron



me?
i'm still in love
even though there's nothing left for me on the other side

now thats plain naive

watodo...hohohoo...

cant blame me for being 'me' rite?

UNTITLED...hush hush, dont cry

you were born with ready, and everything was nice
with a rich dad and a beautiful mom
fireworks would light up the skies
as you crawl, then walk,
in everyone eyes

you grew up effortlessly
morning, the sun smiles
at nite, the stars shines

i wonder to be, how can it be
as lucky as you can be
as golden as any idol would be
as perfect as some wish to be

funny how i would think
u walk high, u talk blind
u came about, and i drew the line,
as beautiful as your outer can be,
u're just lonely,
as lonely as i can see

my left eye tells no lies
my shapeless heart would never buy
as tempting as your world can be
my place is here,
the earth
is where i long to be

just fly off dear
i bit you farewell
never fear dear
as our secrets, i shall not tell

honey comb memories, with a pinch of salt




and he said 'take my hand...we'll fly to worlds end'
and i reply 'sorry mister....i'm here forever, till the worlds end'

UNTITLED...its just a crush, believe me, u'll get over it

satu tangan masuk
dua kaki pergi
satu hati lingkup
mata hati lari

kalau kamu jatuh cinta pada aku,
silap kamu
kalau aku buat kamu jatuh cinta pada ku,
silap aku

jangan salah faham
jangan mungkir janji
kerna selepas malam akhir nanti
belum tentu hati aku kau memiliki

hati kamu, tandang bersahut,
hati aku, tak mungkin hanyut.

maaf

UNTITLED...me going to sleep

hai, its me again
babbling throughout the nite
as i counted the sheep's
and yet my eyes wont shut tight

are u there mr right?
cos i wanna get to know u better
in love, life, future
and the places u might go after
tell me stories
of lost and found
blue skies and marry-go-round
little bunnies hopping around
and when the rain comes falling down
do we share the same umbrella?
or u'll be gone, without a sound...

where art thou, oh, mr right?

UNTITLED.....things happen when u ask for it, although u never intend on it

Gaduh dua pihak, si cinta dan si rindu
Mahu tahu akan keputusan
Yang hanya si hati boleh menjawab
Mahu ditanya, siapa di hati si hati

“Siapa?”

Jawab si hati….

“tiada siapa…”

?

“kerna kalau kamu di dalam hati si hati, maka tidak kamu berdiri di depan mata”

Duduk kamu berdua, patutnya di dalam hati
Tak perlu di tanya, atau diperhati
Kalau sangsi datang bertanya
Maka dengan itu, kamu sudah tidak percaya

Aku tunggu kamu panggil bicara
Walau hati ini sedih sengsara

UNTITLED...words upon a dream

bila ku jatuh tidur
dalam gelap ada alam
pada bicara sang bulan dan bintang
pada matangnya sang mata
bicara dipandang
mahu kesana, bukan senang

mungkin juga sebabnya rindu
mungkin juga sebabnya sayang
pada dia, ku terbang bertuju,
pada kita, mahu terbang melayang

jatuh gaung aku, pergi ke situ
jatuh hati aku, sayang tak tentu

bagi ku ubat segera
bagi ku lena tertera

mari kita pergi bersama
lari pantas, kita berdua