UNTITLED....i cant resist myself

right now,
it cold like hell,
i'm stuck at the office,
waiting for a guy whom just cant finish his work in time

yup,
it sucks
i got nothing to do,
but have to wait for him
then only i can do mine

i'm suppose to go to curve, i canceled it
i'm going to ss2 for sotong goreng, now got delayed
my sister called to fetch me mom, but it seem i cant, no matter what
all because of a guy whom stated "my pendrive gila, now all the files are corrupted"

hmm.....
me, being aisyah everyone knows
suppose to curse and show 'ape aku pedulik' face to the guy

but...
because its monday
and monday bluess always gets the best of me
i choose to sit at my table
wait patiently
and watch youtube
yesss
youtube

=)

seriously...
nothing like the good music





*sips her nescafe*

=)

yum yum yummy little muffins

UNTITLED.....as i waited

*warning*
this is a sad post, as the contents is very dear to me, to whom who read this, may i remind you that this post is very personal to me. Thus, i appreciate it if you would not talked about it when u bump me crossing the street, or any other day that we'll meet. this post is a therapy, of me expressing my feelings and emotional. As i kept it away long, too long, for about 6 years.

thank you





my outer express happiness
as my smile would shield of the truth
i worked myself busy
but often, i will think of you

when the lift closes,
u'll be the one to cross my mind
as i'm driving to the horizon
ur words would ring my bell
and as i would sit alone
although in a room full of people,
i would sometimes have tears in my eyes
as my heart would think dearly of you,
and never fails to say a prayer for you


you have your hair wavy long
ma would have her hand going through it,
asking you to part it side ways

you have your collar up,
it would drive ma crazy
but u always wear it like that

on sunday morning
u'll play the hi-fi
and songs would fill up the air

you'll rempit just to have your newspaper
the sun,
and force ur kids to wake up in the morning
just to teman you to buy it

you'll always cook sambal petai
and everytime you would improvise it
making it better each time
and become one of the best petai ever

you'll have the organ
playing it when u have the time
singing bosa nova
jazz and blues
and many other lots

you'll kiss ur kids when they come home from school
you'll take pictures when we go for holidays
you'll take us to the library
you'll make sure we have breakfast on the table



































f*ck shit...i cant write this no more
i'm crying my eyes out
i can never let it out
now, it took me 2 hours to write this post

.....


i just miss you too much
way too much

i never talked about it
after high school,
i never express my feelings


*cries*


and if so, i shall keep it again
for years to come

i cry in bed
i cry in the car
i cry in the lift
i cry while walking to home
i cry inside the toilet

although its only for a moment
a wee lil time
as u would cross my mind
and make my heart swirl anytime

i miss you
i truly do



(sh*t i'm crying my eyes out, i dunno if i'm ready to 'visit' u again)

i'm sorry, as i thought 6 years that i wouldnt be crying like a baby, still, but i guess i was wrong

i miss you
i really do

and i really thought i wouldnt be emotionally caught up
i am still
and always will be

sayang ku pada mu tiada terkata
bila ku cuba berbicara
saat sedih menyelubungi jiwa.
apa ku kata, apa ku rasa
pada kamu, papa tercinta
hanya Dia yang Esa,
faham isi hati dan minda.

*cries*

UNTITLED.....ja-jan

right now...
i'm in kelantan
listening to jazz
munching on ja-jan

ja-jan?
a word old-skool kids used to use to describe willy wonka's products.
and when i mean old-skool
this is old-skool

we stop by at a shop and we acted like lil kids
whom havent seen coklats and sweets for a very long time
the thing is
for these sort of sweets, i admit
sudah lama ku tidak makan gula-gula versi lama
and danggggg.... we miss it
i miss it
yum yum yum







and oh ya,
y kelantan?
me cousin's getting married
future wife is from kuala krai
1 hour from kota bahru
me mom, kak june and anggun, me 3 lil sis and me
are here together at the hotel

me 2 bros?
they are on a bus tonite heading straight for me granma's
this is the 1st time kak june is here in kelantan
and for Anggun...

i think she enjoys it...huhuhuuh....







and for me
its been 6 years i didnt set foot here

its time for me to pay my respect

papa...
on saturday/sunday, i'll be 'visiting' u soon

=)

UNTITLED...suku abad umur saya

when the sun was present
i had a shitty day

jazz radio (or any other radio), the URL had been blocked
my superior kept on calling me to do stupid stuff
i had to settle small things before i take leave tomorrow

and ya...

i had to settle a Celcom fraud under my name
went to celcom, took statement
went to the police station to report
and didnt make it in time for taking oath at the lawyer office

b*astard to the girl who uses my name and had the bill for RM1k++

yup, a pretty f*ck up day, i must say






but as the sun begins to hide....

6pm, i pick up fatimah
and boy i was surprise
she gave me a present
and this was my reaction

=0

'omg....i forgotten that tomorrow's my birthday.....wtf, i really was THAT busy this morning huh'

fatimah says that maybe i forgotten about tomorrow's b'day is because i was concentrating too much on the Kelantan trip
yes, tomorrow me and my fam will be heading back to newcastle (kota bahru)


anyways, we got into the car
drove through the traffic,
to get to this....

coffee series @ the curve









it was fun, like seriously...





























then dinner is served....


















































































































from this pics, need i to say more?


its 3.29am already....
ring-ring...
it still rings? =)

lurv u all, lurv u much.
lurv u still, lurv u bunch.

UNTITLED...somethings just makes u giggle

i came with a foul mood today
read the news
and lots of work to do

and as my days pass by,
as busy as it is,
some things just never fail to make u giggle


i farted...
really badly,
thus, i giggle
insanely

-_-"

ways to get u smiling






*wonders*

last nite pasar, i ate
kropok lekor
otak-otak
ayam gorengggg (yum yum yum)
ayam madu

afterwards, late nite lepaking at the office
lamb chop
chicken chop
bee-hun sup

-_-" no wonder lo.....

p/s: and enough to make me 'mabuk' to photostat a german flyer...watdafak...

UNTITLED....thank you, i feel so alive again

from these pictures, need i to say more?

adventure is out thereeee!!!!