now...
everybody knows i have an eating disorder
i'm sick in mind
thus,
my stomach is the victim
and my weight is always uncertain
last week,
yam cha at ss2
a fren of mine says that he wish to be skinny like me
i was offended and explain to him that i'm not 'that' skinny
i've put on weight
he gave me that 'kalo ko kata ko ni gemuk, abis aku ape?paus?' look
and i story him about me being 55kg once,
and because of my 'sickness', it went down to 45,
and now its 49kg, and i'm happy
but still
i cant eat that much
i'll puke it out again
last 4 month,
i didnt like any of my pics,
i look like so 'not alive'
my eyes was cengkung, my body membongkok
unhealthy look, i must say
on Saturday
me and my gff went to full house
yay! miss them all...emuahhh...
and seeing the pics taken
i say
i have put on weight
yay!
i look like my normal self
yay!
but then again,
this morning
as i put my belt on
it decrease to an inch where i used to normally wear it
tell me again
have i gain weight?
or it seems to magically disappear elsewhere?
*look at her jeans*
weird.....
