UNTITLED...all shades of blue,certain shades of green

he likes all shades of blue, while i like certain shades of green

i am in love with jazz, while he's a fanatic of Hindustani's music

he is a clean freak, while me....lets just say sometimes u can find 2-days McD nugget inside my handbag

he order venti size, i'll go for tall

i like to go crazy, he like to pre-plan everything

he likes an adventure holiday, i like beach-relaxing-nothing to do vacation

he's a mommy's boy, i'm a daddy's girl

he's a rational thinker, i'm an emotionally unstable girl

i want a son to be the 1st child, he wants it to be a girl for the 1st

i like to munch, he love to eat

he walk through the park straight, i'll stop and smell the roses for a while

and lastly

i am his 1st, and he is my last









believe it or not, we have nothing in common
but somehow, we just understand each other

opposite's attract?

lets just say we compliment each other very well

=)


i miss u very much..



baru satu hari je kot aisyah
rileks babe, jgn gelabah
-_-"


and i thought i never get mushy-tushy feelings again...watodo...hohoho

UNTITLED...28092010

its hard to find somebody who accepts you for who you are
i admit
i have nothing
and trust me
when i said that i have nothing
means nothing

and when i told you the truth
of everything of what i am
from the good, the bad
to the ugly truth
u stayed and said
'whats in the past, is past...now we focus the future, with us together...'

when you shut your heart out
and try to just walk off from being loved
its hard.
I myself have made it very clear to me, my family and my friends
that i have shut my heart off,
and it pains me
to remember such feelings
it sadden me to know
that i lost faith in such feelings

and just when u thought u know whats inside of your heart
as if it was plain to see
my heart plays its tricks well enough to see

that i was wrong

for month i have practise patients
i cried nite by nite
i pray non-stop to get ride of this feeling
its painful
it hurts

one night
malam Jumaat
at mamak lepak session
u were there
as usual, i buat bodo
as normal, i never thought about anything
nothing more, nothing less

then i saw the side of you that pops a thought
'hey, this guy is nice...'

the next morning
pagi Jumaat
while driving to college
my sis asked me for an advise
and i simply said
"when u see and know a nice guy, just grab him. If not, u akan menyesal..."

and out of the blue
as if God shows the sign
you just pop into my head

i was a bit confused
and kinda stunned
i dunt normally think about anyone tetiba
and lately, nobody was in my mind
let alone it was u

thus
as we both know
on monday,
i ask you out for lunch
believe me, it wasnt that easy
i was sweating like a pig -_-"

i know i was going to be rejected
or at least got a no
(the last guy i ask out, stated that he was married -_-")

but i was wrong
and you said yes

that nite
suddenly
after i finished my work
when i came into my car
suddenly
again
my heart says 'there's a msg...'
i look at my phone
=(
nope, i was wrong
3 seconds later
=)
a msg arrived

i know it sound so weird
or cliche
but it seems, at that moment
i know that God had send me a sign
a very straight forward
beautiful, white truth sign

i smiled
and i was happy

but i just do not know the reason
the feeling just pops out of no where

that post in the blog,
where i said that 'whats wrong with me...'
that was it
that feeling of happiness
was shouting inside my heart
but i was confuse,
as we were only friends
and yet my heart was pounding and beating for more

the next day,
I had to teman Fatimah
and yes,
as we was sitting and chatting
ur msg came
and i just light up
Fatimah being my 8-years-besty
she look at me and said 'omg.....finally'
'what'
'who's the guy?'
'what guy?'
'dun lie to me. look at your face...omg...'
'what face, there's nothing'
'common tell me'

and yes,
my face just lights up

my friends,
my family
my work place

they saw a girl who's smiling non stop when she receive a text

my God...and i thought i never gonna feel it again

i guess i was wrong

after a beautiful dinner
a short and sweet tea time
and a fairy tale lunch

today

"therefore with this, will you, my one and only sayang Aisyah Mokhtar, be my gf or partner now, and fiance and wife withing the near future?"


my heart just stops


"yes baby, I do..."









for the past 2 years, i have never even thought that we would be together
i mean
u remember how we 1st meet
u remember what was happening
u take notice,
quietly,
of what i do
and the signs you pointed out back then,
it really shows that you were interested in me,
but me being me, i was just too blur

i'm sorry i didnt notice you before
i apologies for not remembering the 1st moment we've meet

but i'm glad God had shown me the sign
and i'm truly glad and grateful that i asked you out

cos now i believe it even more than ever
that there's love out there

Dear God the Almighty,
I thank you for showing me the way
God has loved me most gracefully
and God had shown me the way
God have answered my prayers
of the cure of loneliness
and the beauty of sweetness

with this i'll gave you my heart
with this i want to share you my love

and in the future goodness will come our way
as we pray, that this love will stay

Fatimah said
"i have seen you with 3 guys whom you loved so dearly. I know your actions, how you speak of them, your potray of emotions to them, the ups and down...but this guy, u're different...it nothing what i have seen before...its just, different..."

i have been in love, been loved and everything in between,
and i thought i knew it all
but this,
you,
you make it different
this feeling inside of me
the actions, the affections
are a whole new level of love to me
and i am truly happy that you have make me feel this way


















and when i thought that all hope was gone
you came knocking at my door =)

UNTITLED...u ask me to blog right?

I LOVE YOU

enough said

=P





u just smile, didnt you?

UNTITLED...twin brother

its 5.04am in the morning,
i'm still up surfing the net, doing nothing
i finished work at 2 sumething
i lepak with my good frens in KD
we eat, we laugh
we joke, we mess around

on the way back
in the car
i couldnt stop thinking about u
i open up fb
went to ur page,
and i saw the shoutout that u've made

a perfect dinner?
thanks to me?

i know u'll b reading this
so again, here goes

i enjoy ur company,
i like you very much,
yes i admit, liking is the 1st step,
the next, will be more than friends

you ask me so many times why did i open up to u
what makes me ask u out for lunch
why i agree to have dinner

honestly

i dunno myself
i cant find a specific reason why in the world i did that

u're nice
but its not about the nice
u're sweet
but its not about the sweetness
u're cute
but its not about the cuteness

u have beautiful eyes
well maybe because of that...=P

seriously,
i cant find it myself

*confuse*

i use to say this to every girl, that ask me for advise

"boys will make u cry, but man, they'll treat u better"

i'm finding my man,
maybe i can stop searching now

=)

UNTITLED...for a nice guy

its 1.50am in the morning,
i'm sure u're sleeping by now
i apologies that i couldnt return ur text
as i msg, my phone was flat dead

i cant believe u actually read my blog
i mean, i never thought people would read my blog
but then again, some of my frens does
so here goes

the last post,
yes...i admit...i smiled when i received ur text

my frens all around me notice it as i cant help but to automatically smile

i thought u would never read my blog
so it was kinda, in a way, to express myself secretly and nobody knows it, in a way

but then again,
u know its u as i said way too much in the texting we had

honestly,
i'm quite confuse myself with what this means
and i cant help myself but to just smile

smiling means u are happy

i'm smiling because i'm happy
you make me smile

thus,
i believe that u make me happy

arghhh....
i dunno what i'm babbling about

oh ya, and yes...
that post was on tuesday, yesterday
so thats y u can kinda figure it out

*blush*

malu siot rasenye,

I dunno what to come out of it

i guess this coming lunch will be something huh?

magic word = hope for the best

best?

lets just say if lunch is awesome, there's plenty more eating out and getting to know each other more

*blush*



sweet dreams...text me when u're free =)


p/s: yes...a lil bit of jazz is playing in my heart...

*sing jazz*

UNTITLED...seriously, jazz is playing

whats wrong with me?

*slap*

i couldnt stop smilling inside the car

*slap*

My God

*slap*

wake up aisyah

*slap*

seriously, i couldnt stop smilling until now

*slap*

whats wrong with me

*smile*

UNTITLED...jazz in my heart

lately,
there's a jazz inside my heart

Syukur...and i thought i wouldnt feel it again

=)

just when i thought i wouldnt feel it again




hush-hush

jazz is playing

shall we dance?

UNTITLED...a promise to the devil

i've made a promise to the devil
if he introduce me to my soul mate
that he can have my heart
including my soul

the devil said 'its ok young girl'
'all i'll take, is only half of your breath,
and this will be when the man left you for good'

bugger...

now i cant breath

UNTITLED...i pitty u, seriously

lari lari hati mencari
dituju lari, ke hati yang di benci
lari jauh,dengan hati yg tak pasti

sedih aku kata
pada kamu yang masih buta cinta












kalau sungguh ko benci sangat kat aku, tak yah la nak sakitkan hati aku ngan pompuan lain...tak de mane nye aku nak jeles
plus aku cakap kat sini, bahawa perbuatan ko telah melenyapkan apa yg aku rasa dulu dan membuat aku pandang ke belakang dan berkata
"ape sewel gak aku bercinta ngan mamat giler ni...isk isk sik..."

memang aku ngaku
cinta itu buta

*menyesal*

UNTITLED...nobody's baby

I love your personality
But I don't want our love on show
Sometimes I think it's insanity
Boy, the way you go.
With all of the girls on the corner
Oh baby, you're the latest trick
Oh, you seem to have their number
Look they're dancing still.

And I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

And baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But, baby I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.

I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

I don't wanna dance
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

Baby now the party's over
For us so I'll be on my way.
Now that the things which move me
Are standing still.
I know it's only superstition
But baby, I won't look back
Even though I feel your music
Baby, that is that.

I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

I don't wanna dance,
dance with you baby, no more.
I'd never do something to hurt you though
Oh, but the feeling is bad,
the feeling is bad.

Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance, don't wanna dance
Don't wanna dance

UNTITLED...bb'ster

i open my email....



where the hell is my suga dadi when i need one

=(

argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............

UNTITLED...and who says

dear mr om putih,

and who says i dont look good in baju kurung?



ehem-ehem

=P

UNTITLED...that girl's a genius

jet

*sings*

UNTITLED...i'm the king of the world

need i to say more

need me to blab it out

nahh, no need.

beautiful things are meant to be quite,
in my case, i'm keeping it on the low

when the right time comes
a lil bit of jazz, a twist of blues, and a whole lot of funk

another song i wrote,
and it goes a bit bluey

*sings*
I aint nobody's baby
I aint nobody's baby
he left me cold
he left me alone
I aint nobody's baby
I aint nobody's baby
but u should've known
u've already known

=)

UNTITLED...yum yum yummy lil muffins

there's john from john mayer trio
there's caleb from k.o.l
there's EJ from EJ group
there's paul from mr big
there's eric from yardbirds

and many many more.....

and to add to my list of yummy yum yum yummy muffinssssss

there's nick from NJ & the administrators



watching this video makes me wanna be a cougar
erm...that doesnt sound good
wateva

he's one mighty fine muffin, i tell ya

=)

UNTITLED...let the game begins

for one stupid fellow out there:

EAT SUGAR AND DIE



hahahhahahaha.....

i agree that revenge isnt good

but man i feel so much better now



3 more month, when reality kicks in, your true color will shine, and it will shine upon the promises that you brake


next time.....remember, when u want to do a revenge on me...please, please,please i beg of you to think, of what your action will cause in the future....cause karma comes back to haunt anybody...in ur case, the tables are turn on u


3 more month aisyah
patience
thats always rewarding


the good will previle, and the bad, lets just say its just good to see u die


bitter? yes....
sweet? most certainly

=PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

UNTITLED.....a pain in da butt, but still, we're family

we're not exactly getting along together

but our sengals keeps us together

P/S:its not complete without me nenek, me mom,me bigger bro, his wife and anggun =P

raya 2010 was the bomb

UNTITLED...blogger boy

i've read your blog again


and you have to stop reading mine


we have to stop what ever it is that we're doing right now


kapish?


*confuse*

tralalalala...

UNTITLED....baju melayu

'i dont have baju melayu'

*silence*





a good fren who just came back for raya.

om putih pun tahu pakai formal baju kot =P hang om melayu tak de baju melayu...

"u cant blame me for being 'out there' for 5 years, rite?"

yela yela, mr om putih









well i guess that would just do then

'but i got to see you in baju kurung, now...thats priceless'

-_-" chit...hampeh

i hate you =P



p/s: i know u gonna read this...so...here goes:

this post doesnt change anything. i still remember the stuff u did in the past, i've forgive, but never forget.
thank you for the time spent, coming back to your roots, eating durian and speaking in your mother tongue.
i was looking forward to see in baju melayu, but it seems that u spent the money more on football jersey =P
and lastly, it was sweet of you to make room for me, although its been years already
u know we cant really 'say' anything public (even fb) as it will be too controversial and hurts some feelings in between.

plus,

thank you for the selendang =) i guess i'll see u in 5 years time again.


ring-ring
u know where to get me, aight?

buddy bye

UNTITLED...patience

i'll give it 3 more month

seriously

3 more month

then you'll see what i forecast in the future

patience is the key

and i am definitely resisting myself to blab it out

but when the reality kicks in

that is when i say

'i told you so...'

and

'suck that u stupid jerk!...'

hohohoho...

bitter? nahhhh...just wanna prove something which i wanna prove

and only God knows what i have inside my heart




3 more month, aisyah

patience

is always rewarding

=)

UNTITLED...roller coaster

there's always ups and downs in life
its like a one emotional unstable train ride

but for now
i'm enjoying life at its best peak

family
friends
cousins
aunts
uncles
nenek

and a whole lots of love


'hey...dont you worry, u got lots of friends and family beside you...dont you forget about that....'-my fren's advice, as i was crying my eyes out on how in felt that i was at the bottom of the peak

and i guess i was wrong again

rain on my parade?

not yet, i guess

*smile*

UNTITLED....once a year

Salam Raya, salam semua,
dalam hati, dengki jgn bersama,
moga semua sihat, riang belaka,
harap dosa diampun, pahala diterima

Salam Aidilfitri kepada semua.
Bila disebut, jgn sekali dipersia

=)

p/s: and tomorrow will be the day where i see yummy men in baju melayu

need i to say more?

hohohoho.....

*main mercun*

UNTITLED...a piece of advise

"i dunno what to do...i feel like...lost, u know, lost..."

"just sing..."

"huh?"

"just sing..."

*puzzled face*



this guy, my fren, never looses faith in me, i remember he was the ONLY, i repeat, the ONLY guy who, weirdly as it sounds, seem to know me better, in a way.

one time, i remember, i had to choose 2 things that shape my future. 99.9% of the people i ask for advise,went for 'road' A (even my ex) but this guy, he chooses 'road' B, which surprises me.
but of course, i went for A and at the end of the day, weirdly, i end up with B. and he was grinning at me with that 'see...i told you so' face.

another time, as i was attending a GIG with him with a couple of frens, i just stood quitely while enjoying the music. after the show, he came to me and just said 'so aisyah, i have seen them perform. When is your turn for me to see u up there?' i was stunned,at that moment actually i was imagining myself rocking the stage. weird.

and recently, i came and visit him again

and yup, i see him just to 'luahkan' my heart on certain issues that, to me, in a way, he can aswer cause it seems he knows me better

and he just said 'sing...'

and sing it shall be

thank you

*aisyah looking at her homework*













oh ya, i just wrote a song

its called 'amy lie to me'

and it goes like:


dear amy, dear amy
my best fren, my one and only true fren
we had a fight
says that one day i might
find a boyfren
and i will forget about my own amy fren


dear amy, dear amy
you claim i would
you said i could
be off on my way
leaving you alone for a day
when i found my own baby
for him, only i will stay

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dearly amy
it seems its true
what u said is true
that a boy will come
and tear us apart

dear amy, my beautiful amy,
u left me here,
alone, with your own fear
he found you, you found your deal
yes, you left me still

and years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

and i said, years
years
gone by
but still i'm here
and still i'm here

dear amy, my dear amy
i'm still here
i'm still here




and he says i should be making boys cried thier eyes out for me

*aisyah writes inside her bucket list*

12.make boys cry with my 'homework'.

roger doger!

UNTITLED...somebody's wife

my bro thinks i'm a weird girl
cos i went *blush* when i saw the mask
and i did puppy eyes to my bro so he would buy me the mask

we went to the toy shop again today
me bro wanted to buy the extension for carcasson
and i found 'him' again

when i was at the MITF,
i didnt get the chance to 'marry' him

and now
on six of september 2010
around 9.15pm
with the 'ting' sound of the registery machine

i am officially V's wife
hohohohoo


"Voil! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V"

*blush*

i have a huge crush on him

*blush*

UNTITLED...a ghost: chapter 2

that was fast

dang

=)

UNTITLED...a ghost

'come and haunt me back'

he wrote this

after 5 years, still

my God, how patient you have been

the problem is...i cant seem to find you

where art thou?

UNTITLED...farewell

goodbye,love
may you best be on your way

UNTITLED...and yet still

and yet still
i cant breath

*help me*

UNTITLED...old fren

"its nice when somebody called and hang out for a while"

"u know u're remembered"

"busy with work,busy with life"

"its nice"

-coming from a 'once a month,sometimes, i see him' fren



last nite dinner was aweasome

thanks for the time, fren
=)


p/s: aisyah sudah kembali bersemangat kerana dia tahu dia banyak kawan2 yg sgt 'beautiful' di sekelilingnya. yay!


*piang*

=P

UNTITLED...they say

they say when u cry a lot
happiness will come your way,
sooner or later

but i think they forgot
that when u're happy too much
the sadness will come again

it kinda balance the whole thing right?

i am an emotionally unstable girl


*kalau nak cakap aku pms, patut minggu depan*


waking up late didnt help me

i woke up at 5am with an asthma

i woke up at 7.15am with panda eyes

i woke up at 12.30pm with a migrain

i wish to stay in bed

but life's gotta work right?






hhhmmm....
but the best part
2 people call me today,
to check up how's me been doing

i guess some friends can just sense it from afar
i just lurve my soul brothers
they just help me to coop with my daily life


ring-ring
how'd ya been
i'm fine, thank you. and thanks for callin in

lepak? yam cha?

i thought so too

=)

UNTITLED...its been a while

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now

some things are meant to be kept
and never be remembered

but the problem is
the memories still hurt



*bleeehhhhh*
-eats her chocolate-