UNTITLED....smoking harder, dying faster

'mane bobo?'
'outside lo, smoking'
'ooo..ok'
'akak aisya ah, u smoke or not?'
'use to. why ah?'
'no la, just asking'
'long time ago la, very long. Now, no more'
'oo...ok"
'people look at me, they say i smoke n drink...really ah?'
'no lo, just asking only'
'i smoke, long time. drink, no lo. f*cking people think i drink. Do I look like a drinker ka?'
'dunno lo'
'why u ask?'
'nothing'
'u smoke ka?'
'no lo...'
'good, dont start'
he looks down, kinda susah ati about his problem
'but i'm tempted,i dunno why...'

silence for a while...

'if u smoke, i'll whack ur head'
he was surprise, and started laughing
'i swear to god, i'll whack ur head so hard"
he smiled
'better yet, i'll kill u'

'ok ok ok, akak, i wont start'
'good...serious, dunt start. Once u start, it'll be the end'
'ok'

EOM at starbucks
a good boy ask me, stating his tempted to smoke

the worst part was
i was thinking of that just now
i was thinking of smoking
stupid fucking pile of work
give me stupid reason to die faster,
stupid eom

but good thing was
at the end of the day
this Mr Good-die Two Shoes makes me stop the thought
=)
thank you...






'akak...how bout shisha...ok tak?'

-___-" aku duku gak kapla budak ni

UNTITLED...on going project

fuck....
shit, i didnt realise such project can effect the people around me
not even stocks comin in,
they already asking
ayoyoyoyo....
shit thing is, this coming week need to go shopping again
yay!

tweenty7may...
pressure is on

GO GO antu! u can do it










ps: anybody can teach me Pay Pall or not?
-_-"




ayoyoyo...

UNTITLED....no surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

One day,
it will be no surprise huh?

UNTITLED....an alien at the temple

she went to the temple again
this lonely girl bring offerings
of fruits and nuts,
of sweets and treats.

She was greeted by weirdness
of people looking at her
as she was an alien
different skin
different color
different belief
not like the other

the guardian kid wave at her
and with it, he ask
"what animal do u keep now?
do they still surround u?
oh please tell me, sister
tell me ur secret, tell me how?"
he was excited to hear any new adventure
of the lonely girl would have encounter

"i'm sorry...i live a quite life now,not that merry,
i like it, and i've been busy,
of dealing with humans,
future and plans,
no more time for playground,
no animal to surround..." she replied

came the priest
"how are u my child?"

"i'm fine..."

"hows ur life so far?"

"ive been busy"

he shook his head knowing

she nods her head and smile

the priest followed,
he smiled

UNTITLED...and when a mini muffin comes by

"i miss her already...
aduh..tak boleh lekang dah...
baru kejap je...tak sampai 1 jam
masa asyeeq kawin dulu,
asyeeq rase biasa je,
mcm tak de pe-pe,
kawin,kawin la
lepas kawin pun, tak de rase lain
tapi ni lain kes
dapat anggun
asyeeq rase lain
mmg rase lain..."

on the way back sending him, alone, to serdang. just the both of us inside the car.talking bout how life had change so much...

his life is evolving into something he just couldnt explain
the thing is, i notice he's changing
he starts to kiss his wife in public, as in infront of us (last time he use to act macho, and malu to do that..huhu..)

he's changing

into a loving husband, an soon..a good father

word...

its just plain, fucking beautiful

damn...

i remember
they said u stop music because of us
they said u become "home lover" when we came in
i guess its true what they say
and i love u for that,my papa
<3

UNTITLED....a day fill with love

i slept at 4.30am,woke up at nine
came to work, was late, but bukak on time

normally, i'll be such a pain in the ass if i tak cukup tido
grumpy or moody
and sometimes, bodo and giler
i remember one partner says that i was like a drunk girl,
talking gibbrish and walking with steam eyes
-_-"

but today was different
something wrong somewhere
not because it was a suwe day
but it end up beautiful
and yet wonderful

work
was just nice and smooth
yes busy, yes few bumps,
but everything was nice
in the end, went to digital mall
to get ink
went through the streets of 14
pop at kfc, tapau
went back

man...i miss lepaking at 14

got inside the car,
isi petrol
went to serdang
jam pack...
& yet i was in good mood
to make it better...
it was jazz kitchen
so
being a jazz lover
just listening to the tunes
and solo sessions
was just awesome

got home
my family was there
yup
a cute mini muffin was there
Anggun Zara
"who she look like?", ask me bro
i told him
"just like how we shud look like"
"an M-hair forehead...and a line-chin"
everybody kept quite
"just like a Mokhtars shud look like..."
"she has the features of Papa..."
i added
and they all smile
yup
she does
and its obvious
me mom sent maryam, came back
and took the rest to banting

me, asyeeq and shamimi went to pudu
send sham to the bus
and drove back to banting
and all the way back
swing time was playing

funny thing was
my bro asyeeq
he sang one song
which i kept quite
"fly me to the moon...let me play wit all the stars...."

its was just plain beautiful

i'm bitter, yes
but i guess
i was never broken

and i know u'll be smiling also
as each steps that i take
i'll think of u,
and the surroundings remind me so much of u
looky Papa, ur lil' girl didnt cry today
happy, yet supple in a way

"and the Priest remind the lonely girl again,
every tears that she shed, twice the happiness she will get...."

UNTITLED...its just a crush, believe me, u'll get over it

satu tangan masuk
dua kaki pergi
satu hati lingkup
mata hati lari

kalau kamu jatuh cinta pada aku,
silap kamu
kalau aku buat kamu jatuh cinta pada ku,
silap aku

jangan salah faham
jangan mungkir janji
kerna selepas malam akhir nanti
belum tentu hati aku kau memiliki

hati kamu, tandang bersahut,
hati aku, tak mungkin hanyut.

maaf

UNTITLED....again, u called

i know u'll be reading this, so here goes...

today u called
2 times missed
and the 3rd i picked
the number was so foreign
foreign enough that i know it wasnt form malaysia
and surprisingly, u were at the end of the line
last nite, u sms me
today u called
last 3 days we talked
last week u visit
last month u pop

the question that was playing in my head
was why
why u bother?
i mean, why now?
back then
it used to matter
used to
and now, it dunt

remember those time when we used to be together
when dirt seems to be snow
when grey rain seems to be blue skies
when we thought we would grow old
together
forever

well now its your turn to cry

and i will sit at the corner
and watch u cry

revenge is never the ultimate
but damn it sure nice to feel it now...

i'm not ur gal, u used to know
i've changed
and i thank God i did
and i never regret it
not once...
not even an ounce...

p/s: take my advise...be a man, cos i think u'll never will.

UNTITLED...16th Feb to the Fab Fam

One fine day...Mr Gorilla XXL a.k.a Mr Gorilla,
was just lepaking around,
layaning his bluess...

"Me wonder whats he doin now....Me misses him.."

Then...
"Hey..watcha doin?"-Patrick
"Ohh...its u..nothing, go away!"-Mr G
"I know...u're lookin at them she-fishes down there..naughty you..(grin)"
"No,me not..!!!"

"Hey..watcha all doin?"-Antu
"I was just..."-Mr G
"Mr Gorilla was eyeing on those she-fishes below!"-Pat
"No...!!"

"OMG...naughty Mr Gorilla...any cio? huhuu..."-Antu
"yup yup yup..."-Pat
"sigh..."
"looky!...there's barbara the blowted fish! feweeettt..!!"-Pat

SPLASHHH...!!!!
-_-"
"erm..."

"omg, patrick! u ok?..."
"i think i am...its actually..quite, tingglishh..huhuhu.."

Whats goin inside Mr Gorilla's head
"Hey wait...he actually looked happy down there.."
"tralalala...."-Pat

"Oh dear Aisyah, the yummy one.. me was thinking...
u know, since Patrick is, kinda, ok down there...
that we should just..."
"NOO....Dunt even think about it.."-Antu

"but look at him...he's doing great..Look!..."-Mr G

"tralalala..this is niceee...me likyyy..."-Pat
"see..he's doin great.."-Mr G
"Mr Gorilla..thats not nicee.."-Antu

"ok finee...shesshhh...
Yo Pat...you hold on there, we gonna pull u out k!"-Mr G
"okie dokie...tralalala...weeee..."

So Antu pull Patrick out of the water...

And the three sat on the bridge together again

"sooo...ermmm..."

"i miss him..."-Antu
"me too..."-mr G
"me three..."-Pat

PROOOTTTTTT...!!!!!

"huhuhuh...??"

PATTTRRRIICCKKKKKK!!!!!!

"eerrmmm..."

"well, nenek's garlic ommelete was nice, but nasty on my stomach.."

SPLAASSSSHHH!!!!

"me guess he was afraid we duku his head one more time"-Mr G
"yup...i guess so"-Antu

"tralalalla...me likyyy..."

"ermm..."

"well, i guess, we have to get goin ya?"-Antu
"yup..."-Mr G

"come..lets go, nenek's making tea..."
"nenek???..."

"oh no...whats up nowww...?"
"wel...nenek kinda scares me at times..."

"dunt be ridiculous...come!.."
"....."

"ok fineeee...i'll drag you..."
"NOOOO...."

"Alooo....
Hi Jean...actually, we just wanted to say
That WE MISSES YOU...
very muchhh...."

HAPPY ANNY BABY!!

P/S:sorry it took quite a while for me to finish it up...well, i hope u like it...emmmuuahhhh...have lots of fun k... lurv u and miss u always...

UNTITLED...just another Vday, like everyday

the last time,
u came and visit
i was in nzx

and they talk
let them talk
and when they envy
let them be

all i wanna do
is just to hold your hand

oh yeah...i tell u sumthing
i think u'll understand
when i...tell u sumething
i wanna hold ur handddddd....
i wanna hold ur handddddd....

actually, its the three of us who wanna hole ur hand,
me, mr gorilla and patrick
they really misses u...
huhuhuhu...


p/s: my project is still not finish...then we have to wait for 16th k...i'm a bit busy, but i promise...i'll finish it up...emmmmuuuaaahhhh....

UNTITLED...ring-ring, who is it?

I am in a mist of happiness
I dunno whats going on
But yesterday, 2 of my old friends called
One, whom i havent seen him in years
2nd, whom i havent seen him in months
We borak like hell...huhuhuhu...
I’m sorry i didnt recognize u’all nye number
As i lost my phone, sorry, sengal me
Its actually a gud sign, as i believe that no matter how long we havent meet,
Or how i lost my phone, u guys called in,
And remember me still
=)
Today, me best fren Fatimah, she came and brings along an old friend
Whom was my ex classmate back in high school
Havent meet her, like in 9 years...
Damn..that long huh...
=P
Then just now, an old friend call me oso
Its been nearly 1 year i havent seen him, nor talk to him
Hahahahaha....
=O
The best part, they all call, and try to come and visit
The proud part that they didnt use Internet to ask
The good thing they use phone line, old fashion way...which i lurve them soooo much for it...
The bad thing though i was already home...
“aisyah...where are u? Thought wanna go yam cha la...”
Yam cha... damn...gud old times
Gud old memories

Let there be a celebration,
Of true friends remembering each other

“hey how are u?’
“i’m fine, thank you...”

Lurve u all in lots, lurve u all in bunch....

And now i at home in serdang, with my bro and sister-in-law, our friend Karvey came, now watching movies together....
And having tea....
Huhuhu....

I shouldn’t be blogging, n continue watching, but i dunno why...i’m just “singing”

The priest told the lonely girl,
the Gods in Heavens will not let her be alone again...no more...no more...

UNTITLED...songs about jane

My father use to say this to me…
The songs that a person like to hear
Portrays what’s within them selves
Whether, the song is just mere words that dunt make sense
But the melody spells the emotions, drunk with tense
Or…a simple structure song,
But fill with beautiful metaphors that poets long to read for,
Or long to die for,
And I truly believe this…
Either u choose a song because of the lyrics,
Or because of the beats,
Or just because u plain liked the song….
It does portray who u are…

So tell me…who are u?
A song chocked up with happiness?
A song beaten up by grief?
Or just a song which appreciate its surroundings…
Or many more…

Tell me again
Who are u, dear song
And what are u to me?

Knowing my song doesn’t mean u know me, dear friend…
And U know y?
Because I’m eclectic,
U’ll never get me, because I’m all of it
From the tunes of jazz,
To the beat of a crunk

I’m the girl they sing of heartbreaks, bonding, building bridges and sunshine weather
I’m the girl whom u can never figure out,
Even if you put thousands of songs mash-up together

UNTITLED...me going to sleep

hai, its me again
babbling throughout the nite
as i counted the sheep's
and yet my eyes wont shut tight

are u there mr right?
cos i wanna get to know u better
in love, life, future
and the places u might go after
tell me stories
of lost and found
blue skies and marry-go-round
little bunnies hopping around
and when the rain comes falling down
do we share the same umbrella?
or u'll be gone, without a sound...

where art thou, oh, mr right?

UNTITLED...cant say,wont tell

tonite
is a nite of silence
when communication is just a light matter to humans
n nite crawlers ruled the sound wave
bringing blues in the moonlight
words and sentences, wont come out rite

and when u're drifted away
a simple question would make ur day

just by asking

how are u today?

tell me a story
tell me to stay

"when i'm gone, whos gonna ask u the question
when u're gone, nobody gonna ask me that question"

UNTITLED...words of adVICE

dear friend,
when the one u love doesnt appreciate u
he went behind u back
tell u lies
comes to u only when he's sad

what the fuck u want me to say?

i ask u this...
when was the last time he said u're beautiful?

....
....

see...
u cant even recall the last time he said that to u

now
i say this to you

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL...

go to hell if he brings u down
i'm here, i'll stay by ur side

if he goes around looking for other women
we'll make him bow down
where's the luscious, beautiful, h.o.tt girl i once knew

its pay back time,
but of course...
we have to fight it with style
wink-wink

xoxoxo
ur gurl frennn...

UNTITLED...too busy eh?

lately...
i've been too busy...

...

antu busy eh?
weird...

cos me life
is not exactly like that

u see,
i love a quite life
the life were nobody bothers me
thus, i dun bother other people
lurv that sort of life
and manage to keep it that way

but some how
it change
evolving
into something
that i sometimes cant control
nor focus on

my life
it used to be
work, family, love and friends

now
its
work,family,love and friends

.....

weird

.....

it doesnt change eh?

but somehow

it does...

adventure is out there!!!!!!